The day has come! 21/12/12

Hahahaha yes. Today is the day the Mayans say "the world is going to end". 7.11pm Singapore time. We'll see.

Blogging cos I'm pretty bored, and this may well be my last post of my life. LOL!
My parents and 2 brothers went to BKK this morning. And they're coming back on Monday. Not much thoughts, just blogging for the fun of blogging (;

Sin Hwee's coming over and we're gonna make Jelly Hearts! I'm thinking of making cinnamon rolls today too! But Sin Hwee no like cinnamon ):

Ok nth much to blog about, till then!

Jelly Hearts ♥

Holidays started yesterday! and I was working yesterday too!

Found a job at Ben & Jerry's! Don't think I mentioned it yet. Working at the united square outlet. Barney show has been on going and all the kidsss!!!! Haven't spotted a cute one though!! and it's really busy there on Saturdays :/

And.... I made Jelly Hearts yesterday!! Decided to stop taking them from suppliers and do them myself instead. Taking from suppliers I need to travel 2 times... haha! Really happy that it's considered successful for a first-timer! It's not entirely successful cos the base wasn't successful!!! The base wasn't firm ): And, so fail cos the base supposed to be the easiest part. LOL! Anyway, I'm selling these Jelly Hearts at my blogshop Magna Deals! (Click to go there!) It's more expensive then at other blogshops cos I use expensive, good quality strawberries and other good quality products, even the cheese used! So, yeah quality price for quality goods ok (; Please support!!!
My blogshop is currently undergoing revamp but you definitely still can place orders :D
And products used are HALAL!!!! cfm plus chop! I know most are concerned with gelatine... I used beef gelatine so definitely safe. And they are certified halal slaughtered. And if you think buddhist cannot take beef, yah I know I don't take beef also. BUT mentos, a lot of other sweets use beef gelatine also so if you're that strict with yourself, don't take those sweets!!! I bet you do. HAHAHA :P
Yeah anyway, I'm making another batch now!! Hope the base turns out fine!!! *cross fingers*

First attempt!

Gonna watch INCANTO tonight! Some magic show at RWS. Hope it's gonna be good! :D
Got free tickets (;

Talking about free stuff, I have forgone many nuffnang benefits cos I had been busy with common tests ):
There was a chance to win wreck it ralph tickets!!! ):
Anyway, it's over to yeah. Another chance will come by and I'm so gonna grab it!!!

I want $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. I wish money can fall from the sky!!!!
Marrying a rich man's son illusion coming.... LOL!! Need to stop daydreaming. How's that gonna happen. Now focus on losing some fats first. Dad's friend just said I look like I put on weight and I so know I did!!! How to lose weight??? Everytime I try, I put on weight. Everytime I ignore, I lose weight. What in the world is happening to me?? LOL!

Shall end off here~ Tada!!

Countdown: 1 day to END of CT

You got cheated! My previous post wasn't the last countdown post~
This is! For the year of 2012.

Tomorrow's the day!!!! Last paper, hope it's going to be an easy paper. Today's paper was... okay at least I wrote along the lines; going the correct way. Oh well, lesson learnt: Attend lecture since my tutor isn't reliable enough. So much for "Lecture 4&5 is very important!" End up, what came out? MCQ question (it's really question, I think max 2 questions)! Okay getting over it but yeah, the 30 marks essay question would have killed me ENTIRELY if I didn't have a basic skill of bullshitting.

My dog needs to get fluffy again!

-sidetrack my mood got killed-

A lot of things running through my life recently. There's so much one can do, there's so much I can do. The past 4 years has been the rough patch for my life to date, and I'm still going through this rough patch. There's so much I can contain, and it has been overflowing. All these building up, feeling so suffocated yet can't say a thing. 吭都不能吭一声。It's been stressful for all of us, I know. But there is a basic responsibility each of us should take and fulfill. So what if only 1 or 2 is fulfilling his/her responsibilities. I can actually say, just by you not fulfilling your responsibility, even having everyone else fulfill their responsibility is not enough. It's never going to be enough. I've sunken into this pile of stress so long, so deep that I'm starting to feel numb. I'm starting to feel myself fall apart, that I really really hope the end of the world is true. If the end of the world is true coming 21st December, all these would end immediately.

I've said before I'm thankful for this situation to bring us closer. I don't regret making that statement. It's just that this is dragging so long, too long for one to tolerate and bear. Even the strongest wall tumble with a strike of a Tornado or Hurricane. I have no longer any idea of what struck me, something so hard, and I am strong enough to remain standing. Soon enough, I will fall like the concrete walls. So much for being grouped with the "strawberry generation". I can proudly tell you I AM NOT ONE OF THE MANY STRAWBERRIES. I am aware that I am NOT, I repeat: NOT, the only one that has suffered, that has been through difficulties in life. But if you were to put yourself in my situation now, you would rather remain in yours.

A lot of things can't be said, can't be poured out. There's so much I want to do, but there are always limits. I'm glad I started blogging way back in 2007. 
[disappeared for a while; was reading my older posts]

Posts were happier back then so #innocent and #naive at that time. It's luckier to be happy with no particular reason. If there's a reason to be happy, the reason may be the same reason that cause you to be unhappy after. Life is so complicated, I'm so lost.
找不到出路 

Miss those times

I've made many wrong steps in life T_T Not studying hard and started playing, caused my Chemistry, Math and Additional Math to drop from A1 standard to fail standard throughout Sec 4. Lucky enough to obtain B3 for chem and A2 for both math at O levels. Then came JC, was scoring As for math and chemistry. End up leh, made them drop to a U. Transferred to poly and been scoring decent grades for my efforts, though GPA has been downward sloping. 孔子公一直以来都对我很好。。。I have been doing last minute studying / not studying enough and getting decent grades for my efforts put in. Friends study way harder and get similar / slightly better results. It's a point to feel blessed in. 知足常乐很容易说，不容易得到。Yes, it's easy to say "be contented, feel happy with the smallest thing in life", but it's not easy to do or achieve. I've been experiencing so much, the most in my life, for the past few years. I'm getting sick and tired of everything. I'm even getting sick and tired of studying. Sometimes, can't even study in peace.
心不能承担那么大的压力。。。感觉自己一天比一天弱。

I feel thankful for my life experience, but it's getting too much for me to handle. 艰难的路可以让人成长，更坚强。坚持不容易，可是也许是唯一的方法。

Countdown: 5 more days to start of CT

Okay, no feel to start studying now so shall blog about countdown. Haha (:

5 more days before the start of my first paper. and the very first paper is like D: the worst module ever, and I can safely say, no one likes it. It really sucks!!!! So confusing and stuff.. I can't seem to get some important stuff into my head. I tried studying just now.

Surprisingly, I'm starting to study earlier, instead of one day before each paper. But yeah I just started today and I can't say it's definitely productive given the fact I kinda forgot whatever I studied alr.

Overslept today and skipped tutorial in the morning. Guilty and not guilty at the same time cos anyway this tutor doesn't really know what he's talking and I can't understand him so.... anyways shall sleep early today so that I will not oversleep again!

That's about it! I hope I don't screw up my common test, and this is probably gonna be the only countdown post. Haha


Till then!

Netball Training Camp 2012

Honestly speaking, it wasn't easy planning this camp and making it possible, with all the last minute changes and having to go through all the approval process. It was all done in a rush. On top of that, we had to think about the possible turnout of the camp, because it was near common test period! BUT at the end of the day, it was worth it (:

Despite all the lack of time that we got, Marisa and I pulled through (: Really wanna thank her for believing in me, giving me the heads up for everything! ♥
Captain's Badge:

My Badge:

Another difficulty faced was the programme of the camp itself. We had to ensure it felt like a training camp, and at the same time we could not tire our Netballers out too much due to upcoming common tests!
First day was a rather slack day, doing the basic ball passes due to the lightning alert. We were supposed to have training but we didn't get a proper court for a proper training. I would call it a rather slack day for a training camp!

Second day we went all out! Started off with morning run! (It didn't turn out as planned, because it was going to be a hassle going to school for a 2.4km run so we ran at Kismis Field instead, it was definitely less than 2.4km) My stamina is really bad... so glad my team mates' fitness is so much better. Time to train up! Overall 6 rounds around the Kismis Field before breakfast. That's not it! We went on with lesson on the Netball rules before physical training. To be frank, I myself isn't familiar with all the Netball rules.. only the common ones!

Physical training felt like a day of training! I guess we can count ourselves lucky because we were supposed to be at the Netball court but we ended up with training indoor due to the rain. Planks, Suicides, Push-ups, Stairs. It was a good work out though! After physical training was lunch, and yes EVERYONE was VERY HUNGRY! Shows how much effort they put in (:

Training at night didn't turn out as planned either, we only managed to book half a Netball court but it was good enough to train for 3 on 3 carnival. Ended the night with debrief then movie! Not everyone watched the movie and yeah I feel kinda bad I didn't download the movie before hand, hence wasting a lot of time waiting for the download ): The movie was really nice!
The second day felt like 2 days!!

People (My Netballers who are reading this), believe in yourself and know that you don't have to be what others want you to be. Just be yourself, and be proud of who you are (:

The very last day, we gave out awards! Gave out the badges to those who pulled through the camp (though it may not be the best training camp), really appreciated that they came. Other awards include; Best attendance - Loyal Netballer (There were 3 of them! - Jolene, Adeline and Terence), Fittest Netballer and Best Camper. The last 2 awards were really a tough decision for Marisa and myself. We discussed for the longest possible time!

I only have a picture of the badge campers got! Forgot to take pic of the individual badges!

Yes there are guys in Netball and there is NOTHING wrong about it! (;

Message to my Netballers (If you bothered coming from twitter!)
Really THANK YOU for coming to camp! JIAYOU and STUDY HARD for common test!
Good Luck for your papers! (;

Best Performance in CQ Module (:

So.. there was this day while I was rushing to prepare for school and my bro whatsapp me "You got a letter from Ngee Ann on the table". Usually, I won't look and just rush out of house... but because I was alerted, I grabbed the letter and went off.

On the bus, I opened up the letter and to my amaze, it was an achievement letter! Never expected it at all. I only got an A and not an AD. Who would've expected to get that award? Nonetheless, I was really happy (:

It just feels so good to have an achievement like that, although studying really is quite irritating and annoying.
It's a motivation though! But I'm really quite tired of all the nonsense.

Here's a picture of the letter (:

Purchases from Juz Today

Warning: This is not a very objective post as I'm really negative about my experience.

I was really happy when I saw this Juz Today email that came in which had a "Tweezer (epilator) @ $9.90 only!" promotion in it.

So just one click and I was brought to the page. Everything seemed good, and I thought $9.90?! Good deal there! I might just be able to snob my sister who bought an epilator for more than SGD100. So, I bought it. Delivery time was good! Everything seemed good! Product was from Princess Gems & Crystals. The package came in the usual envelop, and there were brochures included inside, with my purchased product. I opened the package and everything seemed fine, so I just kept it aside.

So just the day before yesterday, I took it out to use it. IT WAS BAD!
Initially I thought it was fine, BUT, I barely used it for a min and it gave off a plastic burning smell. The smell really made me feel uncomfortable. Obviously, I stopped using it.

I wanted to keep everything back and thus took out the 2 AAA batteries. The batteries were new, they couldn't have been the problem! So I took a closer look and I saw a black plastic strip that was hanging out of the machine.

If you take a look at their product description, it says suitable for all areas. So why the fault in the product?

A pic of the product.

The tweezer and brush (given).
Batteries are not included, you got to buy your own.

Another instance was my experience with Bottom Slim.

I have never, NEVER, had the thought of stepping into a slimming centre because I felt that they were fake and all. One could never depend on them to slim down the healthy way. And, I was proven right.

I came across a voucher on Juz Today and thought "wow, really?" when I saw the offer of $10 for 8 treatments at Bottom Slim. On top of that, there was a $300 package voucher! I bought the voucher since it was rather cheap. I mean, where can you find an offer like that?? Right?? The minute I bought the voucher, I called up Bottom Slim and made an appointment for the next day. I visited the Novena Square 2 outlet.

Over the phone, I was told that the treatment would last for 2 hours and so I held that kind of expectation when I entered the centre. However, I was ushered to a consultation room and received many explanation about the various problems people usually face and received consultation from the consultant who has been explaining a whole lot of stuff to me before that. So the minute I removed my clothes [I was wearing my undergarments], the consultant started rambling on how serious my problem is for the bottom part of my body and so on.

Immediately after, she introduced a package that I should take up. And there started the hard selling process. The whole package she introduced me cost up to $1000++ and she finally reduced it to $400 after I rejected again and again. So if you come to think of it, these slimming centres are earning a lot aren't they? For one thing, I haven't been really keen on slimming centres in the first place. I thought I'd just try it out for that 8 treatments.

So I told my consultant "it's my first time at a slimming centre and I never ever thought of wanting to slim down through going to slimming centres, I only thought of slimming down the natural way. And, I just wanted to try to see how is the feel like of the treatment as I came across what I thought was a good offer online". My consultant kept telling me "if you would think of buying the voucher, means you want to lose weight one mah. Where got girls don't like good figure and be pretty one". The hard selling lasted for almost 1.5 hours. I insisted I don't want to buy a package and I got a reply like "if you want to try the feel, you can upgrade and pay a little more to try one session first then see if you want to continue".

But no, I just want to try whatever is offered in the voucher don't they understand? After much explanation about the voucher that I bought from Juz Today, the 8 treatments that was mentioned is actually going by body parts! So.... instead of 8 treatments, it's treatment for 8 body parts. For the treatment I did [buy already why don't do right], it was my tummy, inner thigh, outer thigh [yes, inner thigh and outer thigh are considered two different parts -.-] and hips. 1 treatment lasts for 10 minutes [remember I was told I needed to spare 2 hours?] and my consultant combined 2 treatments together so I finished my "8 treatments" in one session, which lasted 20 minutes.

I WILL NEVER STEP INTO A SLIMMING CENTRE AGAIN. IT'S SO USELESS AND THEY JUST DO PURE HARD SELLING. Waste my time.

The receipt I was given after treatment.

Anyway, I just wanna say, have bought a few vouchers from Juz Today before and I haven't had a good experience with any. Maybe it really depends on your luck to get a good deal online! But... then again, Groupon has been fine.

Went to the beach!

A little update about my beach trip before I do up a post regarding a product I bought from Juz Today.

So... instead of doing my tutorials at the beach, I tried to study for one of my modules at Starbucks located at parkway parade. I bought a drink and sat there to study, I myself don't know how long I sat there for :/ But there weren't anyone waiting for seats then *phew* but I was waiting for this couple to finish their show when I first got to Starbucks! Haha. Oops!

Anyway, after sitting there with just ONE drink throughout, it would be bad of me to just leave for the beach eh? + I was a bit hungry, so I bought a banana cupcake! It was good *yummmm*

After which I headed to the beach -yes I walked from parkway parade- it isn't that far actually! Just that the part of East Coast I went to wasn't near any restaurant or eatery. It was nice being at the beach! It was something I have been looking forward to since few months back. So... even going there alone was great (:

I was lying on my back (yes on the sand, but my head was on my laptop) and I almost fell asleep. Just shows how comfortable it was (:

Some pictures taken at the beach: 

大自然 （：

I'm so glad I'm heading to the beach tomorrow. Shall complete my tutorials in a relaxed environment around nature (:

I love the beach!

Pilgrimage to China

Finally settling down on a proper blog post. Expect pictures (:

Traveled to China from 23rd Aug to 30th Aug on a pilgrimage trip. Learned some stuff through observation and such. Anyway, I can't really remember clearly now because this trip was in August :/ oops! When there's fun, you always forget the educational stuff. Hehe :P

So, Pictures shall entertain you now (:
Of course,  descriptions will be provided!

 Above 2 taken on the plane during sunrise. Wasn't at a good enough seat to be able to capture the sun! I was trying my best.... ):

This is along the longest highway in the world (can't remember the name). Notice the coloured barrier? The colour changes after a certain distance, and there are many different colours throughout the whole highway! According to tour guide, research shows that changing the colours will make the drivers have better mood while driving! So... that's what they did.

I think this picture was taken at the boat station! We were traveling on boat to 普陀山 if my memory didn't fail me.

Nice eh?! Can't remember where I took this, but makes me feel like such a professional (;

Need not say more, at the temples (:

 Food -> breed? :P

So when you flush after use, you must flush angrily! and call for the empress!

Hello, serious matter... these are not reminders for you to flush, they are HINTS! Maybe they'll come out in exams!

When you leave the place, you are being EXPORTED!

Okay this isn't as funny, but still...

 Hey you, only silver is accepted... anything else, we may charge at a higher rate. HAHA! Okay I'm typing nonsense already :P

There are so many of such funny things you can find in China! These are all I found on this trip!

Group shot!

Can't remember where I captured this. Nice scenery right! ^.^

I have no idea why people throw money into the bucket, really :/

Cable car ride up the mountain to visit temple!

Taken at the top of the mountain (:

 Entering a cave, it was really dark inside

 One of the hotel rooms, we switched a few different hotels as we traveled to different places. Can't remember which was this though!

 Released this turtle into the 放生池!

 Another nice view! China does have abundant nice nature around, unlike Singapore :/

 Do you see a face? It is all natural, no man-made effort!

China was kinda fun? Visited quite a number of places and I can't remember them all with my brain half-working at this hour but I thought I'd just do up a post!

For more photos, you can visit my Facebook page if you have access to it (;

Year 2 Sem 2

Ended lesson early and I thought I still have time before the next lesson starts to do up a post but I guess not. I still have about 3-4 posts in mind? But I haven't gotten the time to write them.

School has been okay so far. Feeling more motivated to do well this semester, somehow. Which is something good (:

So... yesterday I heard a whole lot of crap that made me feel: so ridiculous. I can't be bothered to say more cos that will just make things worse perhaps. Things just go back to square one: I should not believe people so easily... 要相信人，很难。

Blog Revamp (:

So... I just decided to make some changes to my blog before I continue my blogging spree once again.

Everything's brighter now! In hopes for a brighter tomorrow (:

Holiday!

I realise every time I return to this site, it's been a while since I last wrote something down.

This holiday has been rather fruitful. Traveled to China & India for pilgrimage. Learned quite a fair bit from both trips. People can be so fake at times you really feel like closing the doors in front of them. Eww.

Things have been on and off I feel so lost. Wish things can be solved forever. May that time come soon please. Need the inner peace. Even if I get to go to the beach now it's also gonna be like running away for a short while. That really short period of time.

Shall update on China & India soon!

Life's unpredictable

Dad's friend passed on recently. He's been of a great helping hand to us. Really thanked him for being there even when he's gone. Such things are unexplainable.

I felt really bad when I heard about the news. Also, when I wasn't there for the last night, and even sending him through his last journey. Although he is of the older generation, he was someone you would want to talk to, just a normal conversation with all the laughter. Someone who is cheerful, even when facing his darkest hours.

Well, at least he's in a better place now and more peaceful. Smooth journey ahead (:

-Just had the sudden thought to post about this. He's helped us in many ways, know it and really thankful.

Beyond reasonable thoughts

Been about two months since my last post. I've got the feel to come back to blogging, real blogging. Proper blog posts and pictures. Soon, really soon. Blogger has been a good platform for me to pen my thoughts since I started blogging... I don't know why I abandoned it for a while...

Okay, here to do a really short post to vent some stuffs out. I am in full awareness that my blog is not set to private and therefore I really hope you don't chance upon it.

I don't know what to say, but it's really getting beyond what I feel is reasonable and comfortable for me to bear with. So yes, please stop (contradictory to how I don't want you to chance upon it). Marisa, Fadzhana, Xue Zhen and Zhi Heng prob knows what I'm talking about.

It's gonna be hard to pull through, but I've been through too much stuff to crumble at this point in time. I'm not that weak, but I don't know how far my strength will take me to. Limits are never reached, when you reach the first, there's always another. However, if one reaches the first, they may collapse even before challenging the next. Mentally and physically (a bit) drained.