A post dedicated to Jiaxi :)

雖然你出侷了，但不代表什麽都結束了。在你眼前是一片希望，要相信自己！你沒有對不起誰，不用感到抱歉。我覺得你不需要說對不起，那時差點留了淚。你已經做到你所可以給的，有些人就是不會欣賞，我們也沒辦法。無所謂，前面的路許多機會在等你！你的前途一片光明，再給自己多點信心，你一定辦得到！比賽有贏有輸，不可能多過一個冠軍。能經比賽演出給大家，你們都是贏家了! :)

變奏曲

Last episode le :( end so fast.. i missed so many episodes and stupid tudou don't let me load.. ARGH!! digress abit.. if ppl can feel for the scripts of shows at times, why some people don't seem to be bothering about what's happening around them recently? the earthquake in Myanmar and Sichuan (in Myanmar especially). haix.. i think they seriously need help. sigh..
不該讓他們看到希望嗎？他們也是有生存的資格。希望有人會給他們一片曙光，一片充滿希望的天空。

okays.. on to Rythm Of Life. as i mentioned earlier, missed many episodes.. can tell the story is complicated due to the changes by Jun Jie. today's episode was sad yet happy. I wasn't that sad when it came to the part that Zhiyuan passed away cos i wasn't catching the episodes so no feel.. HEH :/ it was until the part when the letter was being read.. my heart started to develop the kind of feelings for the script. I couldn't help but tear, it was too touching. (this was embarrassing cos my aunt saw me crying O_o she told my mum and they started teasing me.. BLEH) The letter was so deep in thought, the apologies and thank you-s.. the right tone expressed...
sad in the beginning and a happy ending! one different script from other shows we normally view :) if i could turn back time again, i want to turn back to the beginning of the year.. when everything started, where the bond began. WWDZ ending le.. let the bond grow stronger :)

終集曲。。看了劇情，眼淚不知不覺地流了下來。。那感人的聲音，讓人難以忘懷。

BACK!!!

back from taiwan today! OMG the things there are just CHEAP!! i don't know how to describe but they're just cheap!! laugh so much during the 5 days thanks to Nicola Ho.. haha!! the JOKER of the trip ;) and thanks to her the trip was more fun! :) fell sick yesterday but nvm.. i'm better now. HEH!! this trip was meant to be educational lah.. so yea. went to places nothing much to shop for, all the clothes were not meant for me O_o HEH!!
haha.. anyways, blog more with pictures another time. took many pictures.. will sort them out while doing project work.

Taiwan

flying off to taiwan tmr.. haven't packed O_o heh. oops! =x
starting to miss some ppl alr lah.. :/ oh mans.. i'll be back in 5 days :) will help ppl buy things if i can.. priority my family's stuff :P too bad..

ARGH!! just went to catch my sis's chinchilla that came out.. oh my i've glitter on me now =.= cos the bathing powder that i used to lure the chinchilla out has glitter.. oh mans! i'll miss my pets :(

oh ya! i bought i-weekly again and bought U-weekly too!! haha :D okays.. need to go pack luggage and there's alot of pre-trip things to do.. gtg.. blog again when i'm back! :)

-off to taiwan.. missing people and animals-

每一份，每一秒

現在在看我博客的你因該很輕鬆吧。。但剛在電視上看到新聞，中國和其他遇到災難的國家，不知怎麽的，突然心酸酸的。

重點：因該珍惜現在的每一份每一秒，因爲下一秒連什麽會發生自己都不知道。



後天就飛去台灣了，好期待 :)

went jurong point and recording

HAHA!!! went to jurong point last saturday, 17th May, to shop around. yeap! then after tt went to Bugis to meet Chantrice.. she was gonna print board. sent Jo Yee off to her class at NAFA, which was just opposite Sunshine Plaza.. she was SUPER early and for once.. thanks to me :P HAHA!! went off to MCS see reporting le left at around 7plus to meet fren b4 going to watch dad's fren film at MI. HEH

OMG!! the toilet at JP is like UNBELIEVABLE!!! O_O it looks so.. i don't know how to say. MUCH BETTER THAN ORCHARD'S AND it does NOT stink AT ALL pls!! compared to orchard, this toilet is more like orchard toilet. but orchard's toilets are so disappointing =.=

Jessica Liu and Christopher Lee was filming this basketball scene at MI. yeap! went there from 8plus to around 1am then left. cos waiting for them to come back from supper first. :) tried shooting while waiting for them to come back. heh.. one shot was nice.. the spin! WHOOO!! so lucky ^^ it's like once in a blue moon.. LOL

went hope felt quite tired so showered and slept at around 3plus am.. didn't bother blogging until today.. got FEEL!! HAHA!! :P

okays.. pictures shall do the rest of the job:

this is the toilet!! O_o

even the toilet cubicle has mirror!! O_O orchard toilet also not like tt.. and the toilet is super big lo.. =.=

pic with Jiaxi at MCS :D

took pic with Jess at MI :)

was bored.. pic of me @ MI :)

went recording on mon, 19th May. hehe.. girls' round. yeap.. was screaming like mad.. now voice slowly coming back but tue i was like SHUCKS!! no voice how?! LOL.. now have voice alr :D Rachelle's last move was NICE de lor!!! hehe.. shiying's moves also nice lah.. heh can't deny :)

one thing i cannot miss!! before recording started, Kaileng and Grace were playing with masks and thing spects thing Sofia and Grace bought. LOL.. some pics shall come up ;)

Grace and Kaileng

Grace

Kaileng.. the one wearing mask.. haha

so shy? O_o

O_o 親面具？哈哈！

My Day.. didn't go really well O_o until later part^^

had Taiwan trip enrichment yesterday and today. quite ok lah.. didn't seem to be boring. HEH. after enrichment went MCS meet rah.. then waited for Jiaxi to report. heh.. went to 7-11 to get i-weekly and drinks :)

wth lor.. left my iweekly at MCS :( i miss my iweekly!! Elvin's sis's dog is just so cute!!! (i want to kidnap "NONO" :P joking lah) omg.. his room is like NEAT. so opp frm mine =x going taiwan on sat.. morning 8am flight, so early lor!! need to reach airport by 6-6.10am :/ hope can wake up on time...

HAPPY!!!! at the same time missing my i-weekly =.= just finished chem quiz.. 93%, 2 mistakes.. thnx Julie for helping me 2 questions :) this is gonna help pull my CA2 marks up.. rmb i failed my test? :( by half a mark =.= anyways.. i-weekly!! wait for me to collect you back ok? don't let anyone else see you.. can you believe it? i'm talking to a magazine? O_o i hope Marcus finds it, so don't have to go buy again.. 托他幫我看cos he'll be there early tmr.

OMG!! we took group photo before Jiaxi left right, then actually wanted to take ONE group photo.. in the end taken dunno how many cos...

1st picture.. Jiaxi 自拍, some people face kena cut off so decided to retake

2nd picture.. Jiaxi 自拍 again, still kena cut off so decided to take again

3rd try.. Jiaxi 自拍 again.. LOL!! can't see me right? i was sitting on the floor :P so.. take another one.. HAHA!

4th try.. wondering why i looked away? cos 笑場.. =x this time Marcus 自拍.. Kaileng head cut off half :/ of course, take another one.. LOL!!

Jiaxi decided to get out of the pic and take for us.. but we wanted all in, so take somemore!! 5th group photo le.. HAHA!! :P

a staff came out so we asked him to help us take.. Xueting face kena cut off, as usual, take another pic.. LOL!!

next take.. Kailin 笑場, so take again!! =x

Finally!! group pic taken.. hehe. took us 7 other tries b4 the 8th succeeded. O_O HAHA!!!

add on: tt Rah hor, after this picture was taken.. laugh until like dunno what lor!! then hor.. her saliva kena until me and Kaileng face can!! :/ Rah wo qian ni wo de kou shui.. xia ci zai gei ni :P

Jiaxi had to go off after that.. then acc him down to carpark to his bike.

SAD THING: i forgot my i-weekly!! and i just bought it!! =.=

today i'm like having STM (Short Term Memory) all day long lah!! =x keep forgetting things.. printed out chem e-learning stuff to do but misplaced it.. but finished it alr!! :D

-missing my i-weekly- :/

Holiday mood

I'M SO IN HOLIDAY MOOD ALR LAH! DIDN'T GO TO SCH LAST THUR, FRI AND YESTERDAY. including sat and sun, 5 days in-a-row sch free!! that was just super lah! but smth happened on sun.. SIAN. oh whatever.. it always happens and it is never ending. =.=

i'm totally in NO mood to do any work at all. but got taiwan trip research to do. O_o it's a commitment i have to give in. oh well.. i have a feeling taiwan trip is gonna be fun! looking forward to it.. younger brother out of my sight! that's such a relief. =x got so much holiday work to chiong! e-learning is totally retarded.. i have nothing to say about it. it is like =.= no comments alr.. haha! give comments also nvr reflect. and i think and think.. don't know why there is this wrong sch uniform booking thing. got no PE wear PE uniform so what? wrong meh? i wear other sch uniform then book me lah. SC uniform still book.. NOnSENSE =x
wearing PE uniform this whole week? O_o so rubbish lor. HEH.. oops!

taiwan on sat!! feel like buying lots of things.. but then, dunno can not :/anyhow buy sure die! heh it rhymes :P dunno what to get for buddies there.. dunno who are they, how to know what they suit to have =x souvenirs and contact cards.. what souvenirs to get? 伤脑筋
EEEEE.. i wan go sydney lor.. stupid sis is there now :( argh! i'm gonna miss my doggies!! i can't stand them, just too cute!! okays.. -RANDOM-
i still like 張棟梁's songs ^^

one song really suit my mood on sun de:
錯了再錯

退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活
你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

爱或痛彼此纠结 悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水 背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下你不如用乱箭射吧
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承諾
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

another song that suits my mood now:
重傷

i'm loving this song:
付出


真好笑，剛在msn用華語交談，感覺好怪哦。但慢慢習慣了，覺得很好玩。嘻嘻！
好啦！去做 e-learning的東西了。

我真得开心吗？

想想，我真得开心吗？也许不会吧。。十五年的恐吓、无意中的压力，这种环境里，我会寻到快乐？“挖”出我的心，因该挖不到一颗完整的心吧。。已经碎成几万片了。或许你想象不到，但我已经承受过了。。那种感觉，只用“无助”两个字形容。

我真的不知道该怎么做。。我只想看到一个快乐的画面，很难吗？也许是很难吧。想出去散散心，但有头痛。。就去睡了两个小时，睡觉前和起来后的感觉完全相反。。本来头好多了，但现在又头痛了。这什么时候才会结束？我真不晓得。。

我猜我从小就有压力了吧。。十五年了，心情是表面上的快乐。。有时觉得真得很快乐，但是几个小时罢了。十五年的“快乐”今天忽然叫醒了我。。让我回想：我真的快乐吗？过后的结果，我会变快乐吗？从这个角度看来，很大的可能是：不会。对于给自己的答案，我真的不敢再去想了，但就是不能不想，因为那是逃避。：/

现在的心情是想逃避，但逃得了一时，逃不了一世。该来的还是回来。不想遇到我想象中的那一天。因为结局真的会超级恐怖。两个硬碰硬。。谁输谁赢，很重要吗？我觉得两方都一样，没有输赢者。每天都带着恐惧感过生活，但如事情发生，什么都不能做，只能呆在那里让事情发生，袖手旁觀。那种无助感，是没有人能了解到的。真想就这样一了百了，但我知道这会带来更多的伤痛 ：/ 一个成语，进退两难。。超级希望这会告一段落。

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

short post here...
last sch day of the week! :D no enrichment on thur & fri = no sch on thur and fri :D this arrangement is cool! nxt mon also no sch.. vesak day ;) leaving for taiwan nxt sat :)

had a surpise party for Katrina during CE today. her mum is SO COOL lah!! her mum planned it like a week go.. and she didn't suspect anything! O_O haha!! planned to read through SS textbook during CE b4 SS test after CE. but due to the surprise party.. didn't manage to study. so.. SCREWED for all the tests i took this week. :/

-还是觉得自己很笨-

快结束了

ARGH!! i need to know how to phrase my answers.. bet i'm gonna fail my geog test AGAIN =.= so rubbish lo :/ study so much know answers dunno how to phrase =.= wth.. ZzZ
haha! not gd to study so much abt earthquakes.. China just had an earthquake!!! killed SOOOOOOO many of ppl.. :/

一切都快结束了。真不想让一切那么快就结束，但同时也开始觉得累了。希望结束后我们还可以继续联络。:) 和他们一起走过着整个过程，我学到了很多。。虽然累了，坚持下去，成绩一定会分高低，但会有满足感，因为自己对得起自己。没有人是十全十美的，也没有人是永远落败的。没有做到最好，下回再加努力。^^我希望一切结束之后，大家还可以继续联络。。从你们身上我真的学到了!
想对你们说：谢谢！！

-觉得自己很笨-

went for exercise! :D

hehe^^ i feel SLIGHTLY fitter now! :D
swam 50laps (length of pool) non-stop.. but took my own pace :P sort of feels great. haha! was in the mood to exercise.. one good thing. ;)
got PE tmr again! didn't do much for PE today.. oh wells. Mrs. De said we're gonna play captains' ball.

cos of some other matter, not feeling so gd today also. oh whatever, i gtg do my geog evaluative question b4 i die tmr. just a short post up! with no pics again.. :P
oh mans.. i just realised, geog test nxt tue 13th may.. followed by SS test on 14th may. =.= nvm.. these few days i slightly sot. like the feeling of studying.. after i studying i feel gd. LOL.. in the process of becoming bonkers. :/

it's seriously time to buck up.. grades are deproving and moreover my CA1 results aren't ideal. i can't imagine if it deproves further.. SIGH!! :(

-in outerspace-

很想摆脱沉默的心情

有些人就是這樣，想改變她很難。不知如何用好話形容。

一首歌不停的閃爍在腦海里：
寂寞邊界

我们之间闯进了贼 偷走相爱得一切
逼得我们伤痕累累
分手只流两行泪
你说决定错了无所谓 就算后悔也不要我陪
爱的平淡爱的浓烈都让你憔悴
我怎么做你都拒绝
我来到寂寞边界爱已失窃心在淌着血
男人得无尽伤痛都锁进黑夜
面对背叛用了解还是谅解
寂寞边界伤心人还有谁

我们之间闯进了贼 偷走相爱得一切
爱让我们伤痕累累
结局只流两行泪
你说决定错了无所谓
就算后悔也不要我陪
爱的平淡爱的浓烈都让你憔悴
我怎么做你都拒绝
我来到寂寞边界爱已失窃心在淌着血
男人得无尽伤痛都锁进黑夜
面对背叛用了解还是谅解
寂寞边界伤心人
我来到寂寞边界爱已失窃心在淌着血
男人得无尽伤痛都锁进黑夜
面对背叛用了解还是谅解
寂寞边界伤心人还有谁
我来到寂寞边界爱已失窃心在淌着血
过去的无尽伤痛都锁进黑夜
面对爱情用时间收拾破碎
寂寞边界伤心人已学会安慰

有些话对别人会有很大的影响，甚至让别人感到很烦。

有些话对别人会有很大的影响，甚至让别人感到很烦，不像跟随自己所给的指示。有些时候，还是什么都不说得好，有些人就是有自己的想法，不想当别人的“宠物”。一旦说了一些所谓“不该说的话”，就会令对方感到不自在，不开心。

就这一首歌。。
重伤

趁着黑夜还未破晓之前离开你
你那时来还睡得很甜蜜
是否有察觉到我的一片苦心
是为了不让你逃避你自己
也许我还不够能力把你彻底忘记
至少我懂适当时离去
我受了重伤己不再对爱渴望
握紧的手始终要放
留得住的只是荒壤
我受了重伤离开只是种疗方
放手逃离伤心的海岸
遗憾的是没找到盲目的药方
多留一分钟就多痛一分钟
我该学会如何遗忘
只是一分钟就能从痛苦中释放
不必为了别人而伤

算了

this song simply describes everything
張棟梁's 付出:

你每天都把自己关在屋里
听同一遍cd 麻痹所有的泪滴
我全都看在眼里却无能为力
伤透的心仿佛无法痊愈
心痛难过只因为你冲动
没有后悔不觉得累我愿为你承受
付出付出我的全部我给你幸福 oh...
只是在你愿不愿意接受
幸福我愿给你最真挚温柔
放开你的双手
就让一切从头问
同一个问题放不开他的离去
你该学会勇敢的接受他做的决定
不再惦记他留下的痕迹
想要永远只有为你冲动
不会后退不觉得累
我愿为你承受
从此只为你分忧
you can the tell me what can i do
我早己决定甘心的为你...
我的幸福我愿给你最真挚温柔

having a cold at this point of time really is HELL

argh! doing math revision with a cold really is no fun at all =.= i promise anyone that..

when you're forced to do smth when you're sick and u really don't feel like doing anything else but sleep, it's the WORST time ever :/ its simply easy to say "just try to focus" but i can assure it's not easy to do. every min u'll sneeze =.= this is so NOT fun.. ZzZ

whether or not i'm sick i still have math test tomorrow, and OBVIOUSLY i'm NOT ALLOWED to flunk it or i'll get a real good nice nag from my mum. it's like her "most impt" subject. ZzZ~ somtimes i find it an advantage cos at least there's someone to push me for the subject. but i don't hate math luckily, not like primary school where i hated it more than 500%. LOL :P i sort of like math now (since sec 1 actually :P)

the challenging part for tmr's test, i need to race time.. cos OBVIOUSLY i'll WASTE time sneezing =.= and i'll have less time to do my paper.. 1h30min ~snore~(i won't have time to.. SAD!! i wish i had) whatever it is.. it's time to ace math once again! :D 50% of CA2.. this better not pull my grades down.. i prepared for it. okays! back to revision now.. no pictures for like "YEARS" alr.. haha! shall put one ;)

-random pic-

giving and empty promise allows people to lose trust in u~

what's PTD for?

omg.. today a call woke me up from my sleep. =.= i could have woken up later lo. :(
anyways.. guess who called? my hp somemore. my co-op teacher! O_O almost returned her call when i decided to check who's number cos i suspected it was her alr. HENG!! called then straightaway hang up :/ LOL not that i didn't wanna pick up the call, but by the time i was about to pick up, the call ended. and in fact, i didn't even know whose number was that.


tea mea, anyway.. a sms was received few minutes after. it said "All Chemistry girls are to arrange for appointments for your parents to see Mrs. Logan about your progress. Confirm dates and times on Monday". the moment i received this msg i was like O_o? then what is PTD (Parent-Teacher Dialogue) for? LOL. one possibility is that smth cropped up and she couldn't make it today. oh well.. whatever it is. it's like a MUST, so.. do i have a choice? NAH :(


did work today! productive day today.. not VERY productive but productive at least! haha.. but there are days where i do more than today. O_O yeap! did math and only math today. haha! i'm still quite awake so maybe i'll go back to math later on. O_o somethings got into me today i'm in the mood of studying. HAHA!! quite rare.. like once in a blue moon? LOL

didn't study at home the whole day lah.. started studying at like what? 4plus? then left house at arnd 7pm to meet fren and went to Plaza Singapura's mos burger to study. had iced milk tea and it tasted BLAND cos there weren't enough milk. LOL. went to get more.. DUH :P studied at mos burger from abt 8plus and left at 9.50pm to go carefour and look at FBT shorts. haha! i bought one..

fren tried looking for clips but can't find =.= so difficult to find.. why?! haha! oh well. headed home at arnd 10? somewhere there. then came home and got distracted by AUDITION!! LOL. heh! supposed to CONTINUE doing work/study but ended up playing audition. tsk tsk.. BAD distraction. HEH^^ oh well.. i MIGHT continue l8r anyway. :P

-沒有人是完美的。人生一定會有波折，但要勇敢地面對，熬過去。^^
放棄只證明了放棄自己，敗給自己。-

pissed off

oh whatever.. amath teacher =.= just so pissed off with u. don't complain " i'm not interested in my work" you could give some others the quiz but can't give me. or not say can't is DIDN'T WANT TO give me. so be it! i won't force u either. whether ot not u believe that i'm speaking the truth, it's ur judgement, not mine. "never mind, i'll only mark the first two questions" yea right! u marked the "first two questions"!! as if lor.. mark the whole thing then say so.. don't need to 睜大眼睛説瞎話... shall not spoil my mood further.

this sch is getting worse... the teachers just can't teach. the good teachers left. how many mistakes are teachers permitted to? a thousand and one? i think so, looking at the way she is making mistakes EVERY single lesson.. and that MORE than one. people make mistakes i don't deny. but shouldn't an expection be made NOT TO make mistakes? just like how they keep telling us not to make careless mistakes. so means after we pass our papers we can just idle and not bother about carefulness and mistakes anymore? -rubbish-

today is such a bad day for me.. everything does not really go on well. got headache :/ and i've gone so sot that i've been picking out mistakes the whole day. and i haven't found math teachers that CAN'T count =.=

(never) -ending-

random

!NAT says:te mea te mea, HAHA

NAT ANG BECAME A MAORI!! lol.. she said that on msn while we were playing minesweeper. maori nat! you're 14+ time to go back to ur hometown! okays.. lame. =.= haha!!! maori Nat. this is the outcome when you read too many books.. esp Whale Rider :P LOL.. oops! =x

NAPFA

5 stations over for napfa.. tmr MORNING got 2.4km! SIAN. oh mans.. i need my C at least. my stamina is like.. BOO :( whatever.. my C!!! i wan get gold lor. TSK!
last time cos of standing broad jump get silver =.= now cos of 2.4km =.= few sec diff.. FREAK!! stupid record is like 11:22 lah!! O_O
standing broad jump improve, 2.4km deprove. ARGH!!!

Labour Day!!!!!

It's Labour Day today! most peeps will be home resting bah. hehe^^ or go out and shop. whatever it is, have a fun day! 難得 a public hol is a sch day. so happy! the lessons i'm supposed to have today is like =.= LOL

but so many tests coming up.. skipping lessons is like killing me :/ oh whatever.. have to do work today also. it's total SIAN-ness. SS newspaper articles due soon also.. O_O

awaiting for Taiwan!! though the airline that i'm gonna take is :/ and =.= happy that i'm going Taiwan :D

the Sino-Singapore exchange programme is cancelled :( i was actually looking forward to it.. oh well. other schools are supposed to be given that chance, but i don't see how they're going to inform them last min. don't know what they're doing.. thnx ah new MOE =.=

anyways.. i'm going to play game then do work l8r.. as usual :P have a fun Labour Day!! ;)