end of 2011

Thought I could end 2011 on a better note, although it may still be bad. But guess not, alr annoyed now. Argh thanks a lot

Year end holiday!

Hellos! Been really long since I posted. A lot of things have been happening... but oh wells. I've to face it anyway. Found a new bunch of friends, really fun to be with (: Thanks Kay Fun!

Had a great holiday, only touched a bit of project work today... for like less than an hour. Did not touch any other projects/school work. Bad but it's holidays! Yeah shall chiong (i think i would) when school starts then. Yupp school's starting in 4 days? Sucks but yeah if I get satisfying results It'll be good ^.^ I hope I get satisfying results... really don't know but exam wasn't that bad so I'm hoping! except for Macro econs :/ really bad... it sucks to face the paper and can't even think of crap to write! ): It's over, results coming back... it's just good to know there's no school on monday = no DSS to screw my beginning of the year!

DSS tutor really sucks?! Anyhow grade one. How is the formula irrelevant if we can still get the freaking answer? Hello it's PBL not you judging what formulas to use. We use what formulas we want and if the answer is correct what have you to say! Annoying shits. Don't mark me down just cos I keep arguing with you and you lost! okay lecturers work this way but this is not those kind of projects you can anyhow mark down. Grade lower than some other group who has WRONG formulas? C'mon I'm not THAT dumb thanks.

Okay whatever just venting for fun.

Oh yes! Went for Elvin's gathering on 18th Dec. Shall post about it another time, but those who go to xinmsn.com i think you guys would've seen a report on it.

Hehe. Shall go have my dinner! Tata!

school

Oh yeah did I mention I have transferred course from IT to BIT? People here are real fun and crazy! Awesome-ness. BUT obviously I won't forget my friends in ICT as well (: I still meet up with them from time to time!

Kays so halloween week I went to play dodgeball on sat, had real good fun with Kay Fun and a bunch of new found friends (: Sunday was awesome! Went USS halloween night though there's school on mon (ahh whatever) LOL! Haunted houses, ROLLER COASTER RIDES WAS A BLAST! didn't really think I'd overcome the fear since it's been really long since I had fun with these kinda things. Yeaps yeaps luckily my sis managed to grab hold of express passes = we get to sit both the roller coasters :D the scare zones were really cool! The ghost make ups looked REAL (:


Last weekend was awesome yet not awesome. Awesome because I bought new clothes! and not awesome because I spent a bomb ): *kaching kaching* I need a job. Any kids looking for tutors? I'm really willing to give tuition $_$
Anyways! my blogshop has been quite dead, thinking of how to promote and stuffs but wait till I get more goods! Will have a Christmas sale I guess! :D Yayay I really hope it'll turn out well ^.^

SO.... a pic of me in blazer when I was in PJC (:
Look so professional right!?! HAHA :P

Really miss those times I spent with council mates....

haircut!

Time for some pictures in this blog. haha! I got my haircut not too long ago (:

fck yourself

记得自己默默锁在房里哭，或哭着睡着。也许现在有所改变，但仍然擦不掉那时的伤心。有时候一个人什么都不说不代表自己没事，而那某人只是默默承受。。当那某人把这些扛了多年后，要让那某人一视同仁的看待另一个某人是很困难的。你竟然对那某人说他心胸狭窄。那样伤感的话也说得出口。也不见怪，反正那某人也许什么也不是。忍了那么多，再忍一下又无所谓。对你来说也许无所谓，对某人来说：每个人都有感情，你要让这某人忍到何时。那无限量的天空，每一次又能看得到多少。

Been a while since I last blogged.

Was working at childcare again and this time with infants! Learnt many more things about babies that I never knew before... which was great (: Kids are just so innocent and awesome!

Involved in Math Carnival till tmr, haven't been doing what I was supposed to do but I do hope I at least get a chance on the last day. If not, really damn sian and boring :/
Met new friends from school of BA, super smart taking IBZ (International Business) heh! Cool bunch of friendly and sociable people ^.^

Okays, nothing much left to blog about. Till then!

am i yours?

CONFUSED yet NOT CONFUSED?

The thought comes running back, somehow. After watching a show.. well, it does make sense. But the results will shake fear in me. i don't think i'll know how to face the truth, because it's most likely what i think it would be...

i keep things within myself, because i trust no one. i learnt to trust, and through that i learnt only to trust myself.

wtf?

Know when to stop asking..

When someone choose to be ignorant of your question when he/she actually heard it actually just means that he/she doesn't wish to answer that question and just wants to shuddup about it. There's no need to keep asking fyi. If you've asked a question, don't purposely ask again just cos you want ppl to say again, it's f*king annoying. Stop thinking you know everything cos you don't.

When someone sensitive faces these dumb ass stuff, it's not a good thing. don't f*king ruin other ppl's life tyvm. cos I think you did.

$_$

That was the last thing you could have said. ZZZ

r/s

Been long since I blogged. So I'm back here after a long long while.....

Feel that I am more engrossed with school work and other commitments in Polytechnic. Thought that I'll be more playful but surprisingly I work when I have to. Maybe because there's just this time and space for me to have enough play.

End of semester common test next week, prepared for math but not the other stupid computer module. Zzz. Whole of next week will be a normal school week other than Tuesday. Wednesday other people have holiday but poly don't have :(

Anyway, came across this just now:

9 signs that you're being clingy

Just a thought: Guys do that too, not only girls.

macbook!!!

I FELL IN LOVE WITH MACBOOK AFTER USING IT WHEN I WAS VOLUNTEERING UNDER ACRES. HOWWWWW :/ I WANNA USE MACCCCCC!!! BUT I ALREADY HAVE A LAPTOP.... SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

korean dramas!!

Kay kay so I'm blogging again.

Been watching korean shows. damn cool :D love them! but i'm not really watching those idol dramas, prob will get to them soon. HAHA!

yay yay! Korean sounds cool! I don't know, maybe cos I've been hearing it almost all day long ^^ OOPS! Hahah, I wanna continue watching the show BUT at the same time I don't want it to end! :( oh mans...

I think I'm going crazy, heh.

results :/

GPA gonna suck.. sians

WHY?!

WHY?!

why is it always US, why?? I don't get it, really. Omg, I don't know what to feel know. Annoyed or what. All I know is I'm repelling. I AM. I don't know what has gotten into me, I don't know why I'm feeling and reacting this way... WTF.
Is it just me? or is it because it has always been me all the while that now, I'm so sick of it.

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K whatever, COMMON TEST IS OVER!!!!!!! Whooo!!! AND, Elton's classmate Benjamin is sponsoring me a ring that is gotten through event in maple! YAY! ^^ Okay, serious mood swings, maybe there's really a problem with me. Oh no (actually I'm not that high now, still quite annoyed). Maybe I should go vent my frustrations before I go mad O.o
Anyway I'm gonna sleep~ Having headache :(

IO!

HOLIDAY IS A DAY AWAY~

YAYAYAY!!! TOMORROW LAST PAPER! :D oh my! 4 papers as compared to JC, every paper 1.5 hrs, some JC papers go more than 2 hrs! :O

on a side note, I haven't started studying, should have started 0.5hrs ago as I said on fb, but what's this stupid web2.0 distraction that happens now :( stupid web2.0! you're good and bad you !)(^@(&@#_*! you give us entertainment (sometimes) but now you're distracting me from studying! :/ okay enough of this rubbish, I've gone crazy :O

Spend my whole morning+afternoon mapling.. what has maple done to me :( now I need to go study for CIS, 8.30am paper, means I've no time to prepare before that. HOPE I CAN WAKE UP IN TIME. *cross fingers* last paper last paper last paper!!! it actually felt like I've no paper tomorrow that's why I mapled :/ I actually didn't maple before exams, other than a few times but it wasn't really close to exam period :O

Okay byebye before I screw my paper tmr! AOQCC before you decide what you wanna believe (;
我去抱佛脚啦！

fuck?

What has it got to do with you? Your skin will drop off if I don't go is it? Use comp = not doing work is it? Then I don't know why the fuck I'm taking IT. I'm fucking vexed and annoyed... stop annoying me. Go there take how long, come back don't tell me you guys won't snatch the toilet with me. Even if you don't, need shower all that, then? Dry hair somemore. Then? You hope for more than 24hours in a day lah! Don't come and say "How can you not go? So bad" Fuck if it was you see if you'll say the same thing. What thing so bad, I want to be bad to myself then let me be lah. I'm sadist cannot is it. I've got common tests next week, you do for me is it? Fuck. I need to scream. I really don't know my feelings and I can't control them anymore. Fucked up. Who am I.

CTs next week

If I don't start studying, I'll probably flunk my CTs in the coming week :/

By the way I think I haven't updated on the ambassador's interview. Didn't go quite well as my Sec school classmate was there, so I kinda "chased" her out. And I think the rest of the interviewers were not very happy about it so throughout the interview I FELT like they were going against me.. unprofessional. Didn't bother to go see whether I got in or not. Lols

Okay on a random note, I was looking at Facebook photos of 11th SC last night, I miss those times!!! Though after I got in I sometimes complained about council, those fond memories are never forgotten. Maybe I drifted because of the lack of involvement, I didn't really have things to plan and stuff, or rather the only thing was investiture. Things are very different now that I'm in poly, very different.
I regret not working hard enough and promoting with you guys, I regret not being able to step down with you guys as a council! I haven't done enough to make those things happen. I don't know why, but I'm so attached...
You guys made my life great in PJ, and you guys are the ones that make me wanna visit PJ!

I'm no longer clear in what I want, I don't even know what I'm thinking nowadays. Oh my... Nothing much to blog about these days. Anyways, I bought a new jacket!!! It's damn cool, pink and purple. My GAY brother saw and went "ooi that's damn nice I want!" He's damn gay =.=
Okays I shall stop here, having lessons now but given break. Heh.

????????

I don't know anything anymore.
Clueless about myself even.
I don't know what to do :(


Common Test next week. Monday's a free day, probably have to mug for COS (something I'm really lost at)... Will I be able to focus? I hope so...
On a brighter note, after common test is HOLIDAY! :D

IT

Okay, so the outcome was predictable and I'm stuck in IT. Come to realise that it isn't that bad afterall, and the things I'm learning are new to me. So I hope they'll be usefull in anyway (:

School has been fine so far, I wouldn't say it's BAD.. cos I've great classmates who are willing to help and are JOKERS! LOL! I just hope I won't be stuck stranded and not be able to catch up with the rest. Yupp. Started on project work for IS, my group's cool and moving forward (Y). Now gonna start on COS project work. OMG so many project works coming already when it's only the 3rd week of school. I see sleepless nights coming, but of course I'll remain a pig and sleep.. so it doesn't matter. HEH. COS project is not going to be easy, esp when the tutor doesn't even explain what we're supposed to do but just ask us to "read up". Something really joke happened.. One day after COS lesson, the teacher was walking out:

Teacher: Am I going too fast for you?
Me: ER....
Teacher: If you don't understand read up on your own okay

-then she walked off-

So what was the point of asking me? I really don't know. HAHA.
Anyway, enough of school let's go on to something else.



Yesterday was 1st Anniversary! Made a video for baby (: He was surprised and he told me he cried! LOL so emotional :P And he got me a bulldog pillow! ^^ We were both super bloated cos of the heavy heavy heavy and no other words can decribe but heavy dinner. Apetizers are meant to be apetizers but he ordered like 4 different apetizers! And their portion was really HUGE for 2 people. Apart from that, we still ordered MAIN COURSE & SOUP and DESERT and TEA. Imagine that amount of food we had for a dinner!! No wonder we were so bloated right? LOL! Okay, I've got to go start on project. So I shall blog when I'm slightly more free again! Can find pictures on facebook when I upload them, most prob the next few days (we didn't take much though).

Oh yes! I've ambassadors interview tmr. So does baby! All the best to both of us! :D

NP first day

Haven't posted in a LOOONNNGGGGG while, just thought of blogging.

Things please turn out well, I think this is my last chance. I really want.... :( Pleaseeeeee, this could've been done so much earlier if they have called to notify. SIGH. NP orientation first day was SO BORING. So tired, not energetic. Maybe cos it's not what I want. Been told I should try to accept and enjoy what I got. BUT HOW. I can't bring myself to. How now brown cow. Please please please someone withdraw from _____. ARGH PLEASE!!!!!!! What i got really sucks :( I can't help but say that. Okay, I'm just here to vent. If I didn't call them back I wouldn't have known. Should I just go up to BS? I think I should, maybe I would tomorrow. I don't want to be so sticky.... SERIOUSLY I MEAN IT :(

My mind only has BS now.. NOTHING ELSE. That's how bad I wanna go there :( PLEASEEEEEEE something good happen!!!

P.S: SOMEONE STEPPED ON A BIG GRASSHOPPER TODAY. I HAVE 2 WITNESSES!

:(

What has the world come to... things don't work the same anymore. WHYYY... why must all these happen. It's not the way things should work eh... ZzZ

kids!

CHILDCARE

Omg my last post was 15 December. I'm so sorry I just got too lazy to continue with Perth's daily update. OOPS! =X Anyway, I'm working again! (:

Working at the same childcare I worked at the other time. Some new kids, some familiar faces. Some kids left, new kids. New teachers. Work has been alright and quite fun till now. Started on 3rd Jan. Hee. I love kids! :D THEY ARE SO FREAKING CUTE ^^

Oh yes, I withdrew from PJC since 15th Nov. and I just submitted my JAE registration yesterday. Yes, I'm going through JAE again. Lol. Hope I made the right choice this time. Second chances may not need to be really bad. Maybe things will be better. Yupp. Transfering to poly from JC, wasted 1 yr.. but I wouldn't really say it's wasted.

That's about it. I'm lazy to continue.