It's been a month and 2 days since I last blogged. Just have some random thoughts and the feel to blog. Shouldn't be blogging at this time with my macro econs paper at 9am later, but well when the feel comes just blog!
I was just thinking, and I realised sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me. All those stress that I've been getting more than usual these days. Sometimes people come and ask me, "How have you been? / How are you?" And my reply is no more than "I'm okay I guess"... the "i guess" is always there, I didn't think removing it was a good reflection of how I've been. I've never faced something like this before, sometimes I just don't know what to do / what I should do. Afterall, there's nothing much I can do at this point in time, and it really sucks to feel / be that way. Some things are not meant to be told, afterwhich things may just get worse, I mean who knows right?
People need to wake to their senses, but if it really takes absolutely long for one to do so, the people around just suffers. Sometimes, we can only suffer in silence. Everyone has their own piece of problem, it's not nice to add on. It only gets worse when I'm studying for my exams and I've to face those problems that has always existed, but at times I choose to ignore. If I don't, I'm just not letting myself live the way I should.
It's tough experiencing all these problems, but I believe when all these tides over (no idea when), I'll come out a stronger person. Just hope that I don't fall even before I can tide these over. Some say "I care" but they just do the opposite. How is "I care" even valid if the other party doesn't feel so?
Just so you know: You haven't been really nice and I no longer know how to face you.
Sometimes I realise, at the mention of you, my mood changes. Not for the better, but for the worse. That's not a very good thing.
Okay I should get back to studying...
坚持不容易，但要坚强。。。
