Monday, June 30, 2008

school today..

woke up early at like 4plus am today.. i don't know what for also. but i fell asleep again and woke up at 5plus. went to prepare for sch @ around 6.30-6.40am. HAHA!! :P

when i went to school fine.. but felt as though i was falling sick. true enough, i started sneezing since after recess until now =.= hate this stupid thing.. i can't do my work properly! and if i don't do it by tmr, i'm going to die. SERIOUSLY DIE! :/ first plans was to get my new school shoes b4 i came home and work on my homework.. BUT now no mood alr :(

sch was boring.. as usual. but today spent quite some time laughing in class. HAHA!! Yenhua is such a joker :P (Weiyee knows why*winks*) nth much happened except yenhua saying some stupid stuff and making us laugh.. then during chinese lao shi sent yenhua to the back of the class cos both of us kept laughing. (i was going to be the next one sent to "isolation corner") LOL!!

anw, sch was quite slack for me today.. BUT i'm going to die for geog. wasn't listening during lecture today. HAIZ!! i had other things to do that was freaking URGENT! and geog can self study.. oh well. i HAD to sacrifice one.. of course, GEOG! the one that is driving me nuts. geog lecture wasn't so bad today.. i must give credits to chinese ;)

WE WERE THE FIRST GROUP!! surprising! :P

okays! i'm going to go sleep for a while before i do my geog TYS questions later! tataz!!
`WAH!! i hate being accused lah! FREAKS!! *URGH*

but.. I JUST REALISED MY MOOD ISN'T SO BAD TODAY :)




BORED! =.=


countdown:
1) Geography -- 8days; 7days left to study
2)Add math -- 16days; 15days left to study
3)Chemistry -- 17days; 16days left to study
4) SS -- 31days; 30days for study

-快要崩潰的我上-

Sunday, June 29, 2008

useless

突然覺得好失望,好失望。。也不知道爲什麽。 哎。。失落的感覺超級不好受的,但他卻一直接近我、纏住我。爲什麽?!我快要崩潰了!

轉話題,但還是不開心的。現在真的覺得自己是個廢物!。。。


*儅一個人獨自享受自己的空間的時候,他就會像很多很多。想到不開心的事時就會掉淚,想到開心事是也會掉淚,但是快樂的淚。快樂的淚和傷心的淚差的遠了,開心的淚充滿了期待,傷心的淚充滿了刺痛。我現在的淚水,充滿了刺痛。。我再次失去了方向。這幾天心情不好,也不知道是爲什麽,自己也感到莫名其妙。。
心被傷到,時間,是最好的藥物。但是在廖傷的這段期間又受到傷害,心情會更槽。
學業很重要,生活的快樂不重要嗎?儅一個人不快樂的時候,很多事情是可以發生的。。就看几時。快樂是什麽?我好像越來越不了解了。。我只明白壓力,恐懼。社會上,考試的結果真的那麽重要嗎?有時候,成績不是一切,儅一個人明白事理的時候,並不代表他需要用回答問題的方式表達。沒有半個人是完美的,追求完美的儅兒也該懂得享受。有了成績,沒有了推動力,一切還是一場空。

我怎麽莫名其妙地說了這些話?不想再説下去了,沒心情。
`拜拜!

block tests

decided to start counting down for my block tests coming up..

1) Geography -- 9 days, 8 days left to study :/
2) Additional Mathematics -- 17 days, 16 days to study O_o
3) Chemistry -- 18 days, 17 days for study :(
4) Social Studies -- 32 days, 1 month to study

2 main subjects concerned, Geography and Chemistry :/ nvr did well in geography.. chem's results dropped ALOT! :(
1st paper: 29/35
2nd paper:22/35
3rd paper:17/35 (hate seperation techniques! do i have a choice? =.=)
from an A to FAIL!! O_O WTH!!! :(

Add math and SS still not so bad.. hope things won't change :) anyway, haven't completed my geog tys and if i don't complete now, i have to do at least a few more questions before i die tmr :/ b'cos i have geog tutorial on tue and lecture tmr. OMG!! i realised GEOG is the subject that IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!! i'm pressurized by this stupid subject :(
unhappy with CA1 results cos they weren't gd.. the only gd thing was i didn't fail anything. thnx to geog project.. but i think this time geog project is super screwed :/ i know CA2's results going to be worse :(

-OLIVIA NEEDS TO WORK HARDER :)

taken by Shuwen, when i went studying with her on 3rd feb'o8

-it's time for mugging-

Saturday, June 28, 2008

woke up at 5plus am this morning.. then nvr go back to sleep ;) went to finish up Jia Xi's yahoo group.. GO JOIN!! :D

went to meet Rah for movie after that. at first say meet 11am.. then 10am i haven't prepare, and i know i rubber time.. so change meeting time to 11.15am. BUT late again.. heh. i reached later than 11.30 :/ oops! Rah keep suan-ing me.. say she used to it le. i feel damn bad.. cos of ALL the times i meet her, i only waited for her 1-2 times.. all the other times she wait for me de :/ hahaha.. OOPS! =x
anyway, we went to watch GET SMART. haha.. it's nice! :D and FUNNY! worth the price lah.. though it'd be more worth it if i watched on weekdays, but have sch :( in between went to look for school shoes but halfway no mood :/ so went on to find food to bring into movies.. HAHA!! didn't sneak in any in the end, but i sneaked in bubble tea :P must say i had a fun time laughing throughout the movie ;) Rah was hungry after that so we headed to far east to eat chicken rice! hahah.. then went to shop awhile for my shoes again. saw one, but dunno if i should buy.. so didn't buy in the end. shall go back another day :)
Rah wanted to buy 涼茶 for ah sam.. so took MRT to toa payoh to get her 涼茶 and we 順便 bought 泡泡茶 before heading to MCS. can't rmb what time reach le.. but SUPER hot!! haha.. “被烤焦了”:P not so bad lah.. haha. while waiting v bored, so i started to 自拍 alot again.. HEHE^^
some pics:
very first pic i took.. haha! was super sian, didn't feel like smiling :/


Rah happen to be in the pic! she look blur! :P



haha!! took time to take this pic ok! cos i keep cutting off my face.. hehe :P

At around 6plus 7 we saw sam walking to make-up unit, then when he walked out Rah called out to him.. he waved back but didn't come out. Rah specially bought 涼茶 for him mah.. how can he miss out. LOL!! so helped her shout "Sam! Rah 有東西要給你!" yea.. then he came out :) got others who are supporting him there also.. then Rah dun dare ask to take pic. so helped her ask again lor.. HEHE! [welcome Rah.. don't need keep thanking me] :) headed home after that lor.. nth to do le mah =x supposed to go gym de.. then mother got things to do, nobody accompany me.. so in the end didn't go :( I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!! -might do own physical l8r :P-


LOL!!!! my tv was on and i saw this advert advertising for some snack bar. you know the "baby" is a snack bar.. then the doc told the guy "congratulations! it's a bar" the chinese subtitle was “恭喜你了!生了一條。。”i see le i just wanna LAUGH OUT LOUD! so hilarious can?! =.=


ok lah.. should go off now. i just found another pile of work =.=
damn! :/ geog block test is in 1 weeks time.. :/


shall end off with the last 自戀照 i took while waiting.. :P


i look wierd.. O_o

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Friday, June 27, 2008

BORED

today is super boring lah!! omg.. =.=

was chatting on msn till i fell asleep.. =.= woke up at 6.45am for sch. wth can.. i was SUPER sleepy and my neck hurt, maybe cos i didn't sleep properly :/ wadever lah.. i went to sch with a BLANK mind. first period was PE.. quite ok lah. better than any other lessons.. DUH! had Amath after that.. some small quiz and it was managable :) MATH ROCKS!! (though sometimes i get quite irritated with it) so does chinese. after math was break and after that was chinese :D didn't have lessons cos lao shi was complaining “全部教 3CO 這般的老師都異口同聲說你們這班非常非常非常的懶惰。”ZzZ.. i mean, if you're tired how can u possibly focus on your work? might as well sleep =.= (that's me lah.. so most of the time i don't finish my work :P only did like some time beginning of the year :/) so we were given the time to sort our files and then she collected. for me, EASY LAH! LOL alr got everything done, just that i know ONE worksheet is missing.. cos i haven't do :/ and it was like MONTHS back.. OOPS! =x

after chinese was Emath! continued Amath topic. quite ok lah.. alot of formulas to rmb though.. SIGH! and with such a sleepyhead in class, how to rmb? :/ ok lah.. will FORCE myself to rmb b4 exam. HEH :P mrs Gan rocks lah! if she finishes early, we get early recess! but mrs logan's concept is like "the teachers are not doing you good if they let you off for early recess.." and "i'm sure mrs low won't be pleased if she hears about it (cos we asked her to let us off early since she ended)" ok lor.. her concept. i can't change it =.= but it's lame.. we sit in class and do nothing. anw, after recess was geog, and i didn't have time to continue what i left out. somehow, ms leong was pissed off and she collected my worksheet. being such a "smart" girl, i went up to her to ask if i could finish up my questions first (when she was in the midst of lecturing someone) she talked to me in some sort of annoyed tone. oh well.. wad to do?

lit was sucky today.. was in lala land =x but i managed to take down some notes lah. random note: now i know why ms seow was explaining why the sec 4 girls came to realise she was trying to work with them.. she's a gd teacher :) i'm sort of glad i realised it early.. like NOW! haha.. thnx for changing EL teacher ar =.= one gd thing was it made me realise that ms seow is a gd teacher! and now i'm paying more attention in her class O_o actually, since last term lah.. i not so bad ok! :P talking about english.. OMG! i feel 2 mysterious eyes looking at me wherever i go =.= i was sitting at the lobby when fifi tan saw me.. bad enough. while walking down the steps to get to her car, she just kept looking at ME! wth.. i very nice to stare at meh?! URGH!! i feel like DIGGING OUT HER EYEBALLS!! =x

i slept when i came home again.. really TIRED! i need my energy back.. so i can study :) going movie, shopping and gym tmr! :D movie tix are damn ex now lah! GV selling @ $10 for weekend tix and normal price $7.50 for weekdays. Lido no change lah.. still $9.50 for weekend tix. i dunno where else.. everything is rising =.= BUT the government lets their ppl earn so little.. AND stupid yong tau foo.. i'm not buying anymore! HMPH!! should've known earlier.

today really SUPER sian.. went blog hopping. can't rmb the blogs i visited.. but quite a number. i just wanna say, i really miss those great times. i want them back! we'll meet up right? i hope so.. :)

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omg.. i fell asleep while blogging =.= the last time this post was saved was @ 12.42am, and now is like 05.14am alr..

my mood today kinda sucked i pissed ppl off =.= i dunno why.. but yea. sorry Rah, i was like doing project work when u called me.. and like i can't even rmb wad we were chatting about now cos like i was super tired. i sounded mian qiang to you.. i don't know why also. i always anything de wad.. now that you say you don't wanna watch, i'm ok. if you're not going to be happy watching with me, i'd rather not spoil ur mood.. but it really makes me wonder why i received those smses. maybe i did smth wrong.. i didn't reply u cos i fell asleep, don't get so angry... why be angry over me? not worth it..




haha!! this photo v ugly, but.. I WAS BORED!! :/

Thursday, June 26, 2008

-tired-

haha!! decided to do some blogging suddenly.

WEDNESDAY
hmm.. what happened in sch ytd? OH!! haha i didn't do my geog. then ms leong was giving out kit-kats to those who have done their work.. haha i didn't care for the kit-kat. AND, i didn't do cos i haven't revised.. then i dunno anything. then was quite lazy to flip textbook also :/ HAHA!! ms leong said she'll safe guard my share for me =.= and i have to finish up till question 4 by tmr.. HAHA!! there are parts to the question lah.. now my blanks are 1a, 3b, 4b and 4c i think. LOL!! i have till after recess.. oh mans.. geog is bad :/

mrs low gave a talk during assembly then she said wad give ice cream to those who answer her questions. was sort of paying attention lah.. there was one part where everyone was awake! WE GET ONE DAY OFF!!! somewhere in July.. OMG!! i'm so looking forward to it. :D and i can't remember b'cos of what, she's treating us ice cream again (2nd time alr^^). HAHA!! free ice cream tmr.. free FATS come in a package :/ don't wanna eat. someone can take my share :)

After school stayed back for an hour or so for amath extra lessons cos didn't go back during hols. learnt modulas function. is easy i think? haha!! i realise my brain working very slowly nowadays.. think also think so long, then everything also very blur. HEH =x

TODAY
first 2 periods block test.. LIT =.= haha!! i was falling asleep :/ then i was forcing myself to write my essay properly for the whale rider book (though i didn't) cos i know my unseen confirm CMI!! mans.. really CMI. LOL!! by the time i started doing unseen i heard this "girls, you have 10minutes left" i was like =.= die alr.. and i was SO SLEEPY!! haha.. idk why either O_o slept quite alot the previous day.. -this mystery shall be left unsolved :P- halfway writing my unseen essay, i was sleeping for seconds.. HAHA!! didn't finish my unseen essay, expected lah. HAHA!! the front of the paper said timed EXERCISE!! i hope it is, and even if it's counted, shouldn't be more than 10%.. HEH =x

recess was like for gossips today lah!! Wei Yee, Gloria and Lyn remember this: PUMP!! ;)
Gloria said there's ARTIFICIAL MILK =.= i wonder where she get them from.. maybe she drank them when she was young. LOL!!! i'm joking Gloria :P (if you happen to read this =x)

trng was super slack today lah! only like 4 of us was there? HOW TO TRAIN??!! so yea.. did "physical". weren't physical at all.. LOL!! not much of a workout lah :( didn't really train today! going to get even fatter :/ haha!! i realised smth, Sin Hwee works under pressure :P she got like 70% shots in when we pressurized her.. but not even 60% when she didn't have pressure. HAHA!!

came home and slept for a while.. TIRED!! =x anw, i was watching tv while doing geog just now.. stupid YONG TAU FOO has MORE CALORIES than RICE!! omg.. i just ate yong tau foo for the past 3 days?! WTH =.= best lah.. eat whole meal bread, least calories! :P i'm really FAT!!




-miss my crazy frens out there! not forgetting the memories-
`i'm clearing more and more of my work! lucky teachers nvr give work these few days. :D
AHH!! i just rmb got math to do.. off now!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

going crazy

omg.. looking at my geog worksheet suddenly got me so pissed off~ i also dunno why =.= ARGH!! hate this feeling ok.. why am i so freaking "stressed"?! HATE IT!! so much things to do --- so little time.. i can't even get a proper sleep!! (really irritated=.=) i know EOY is coming.. so? don't keep emphasizing.. cos i'm on the verge of breaking down, seriously. now even thinking of hw makes me go crazy, i get pissed off so easily.. damn. i can't study at home, anyone wanna go out and study with me? like at macs or mos burger? chpt 6 & 12.. i haven't started studying, 2 weeks (or less) more. SIGH!! lead to the thought of regret :( i sort of regret taking pure geog, it's a killer :/
26th June -- death day for lit test.. don't even know what's tested :/


-dread geog- suddenly.. and idk why :/
`i cannot afford to fail my block test!!




*hope i didn't scare u :P

Monday, June 23, 2008

想太多?

i missed it! 6plus and i had to be asleep.. 有緣無分吧。我是否想太多了?應該是吧。。就是不習慣,也不知道爲什麽。跟他聊天,就感到無憂無慮。。還要等到九月,我快要瘋了!

距離考試還有三個月,聼起來還很久,但就會不知不覺中面對。壓力很大,沒受過那麽大的壓力,這次不知爲什麽。。壓力自然來了。不是不想讀書,就算不想,我有選擇的權利嗎?沒有。=.= 年終考試,誰不想得到好成績?壓力那麽大,連讀書時都很緊張。。不知道後果會是怎樣。根本就不能集中精神。真得不想也不能留級。。我好像不知不覺地失去了方向 :(

list of block tests coming up:

26th June -- Elective Literature (not confirmed, said to be changed O_o)
8th July -- Geography
16th July -- Additional Mathematics
17th July -- Chemistry

i'll just DIE!! omg.. :/

-off to do work-

back @ sch

okays.. update on sch today.
hmm.. woke up at 3plus am cos my niece woke me up! =.= then went back to sleep at 4plus.. nth to do :/ and obviously didn't feel like doing anymore work. woke up at 6.40am for sch.. com was still on, cos i played 下一個天亮 throughout the whole night. then signed out of msn and shut down com.. while i go change to my uni.

wasn't late for sch :P haha! wasn't that tired in school. BUT, i went to school with work undone.. luckily the teachers all seemed to be in good mood today, all say hand up tmr O_o 好難得 i tell u. LOL!! anyway, it also means i have to do my work soon b4 i have to 熬夜 again l8r. went to collect my I/C at the office during recess :) so cool ok! nvr slept in school for my entire life! but i had the guts to do so during chinese lesson today :/ haha!! cos lao shi went to get her laptop, then i just FELL ASLEEP!! ok lah.. she didn't wake me up, maybe she didn't spot me sleeping. too bad! :P
actually, the feeling of going back to sch was wierd today. everything seemed so quiet, so unusual.. i dunno how to describe the wierd feeling.. things were just not the way they were b4. just got reminded, only left with about 12 weeks left to end year. and 2 weeks till my block tests start rolling in, which means i have to start studying now. i wish too, i don't hope to retain.. no one does :/ i really miss my friends i made through WWDZ!!! argh i really miss those days.. ok i shall stop thinking b4 tears roll down my cheeks :/

i know it's kinda wierd saying this here, cos i dunno if he's reading it or not. but anyway i'll still say it. i miss Jiaxi :( i miss his crap and everything.. argh. no more online chats with him :/ ok lor.. have to live with it.

still listening to 下一個天亮。。i'm ADDICTED to the song. THANKS MELISSA!!! she sent it to me ;) LOVE IT! seriously.. omg. i dunno why, these few days not emo de. BUT once i listen to emo songs, i can tear so easily.. WHY?! i have no idea =.=

-off to do work-

Sunday, June 22, 2008

this time really stressed :/

i guess i'm really stressed out now :( i just finished taiwan trip ppt project and still in the midst of sending. THANKS TO MY INTERNET =.= omg.. i realised i screamed at my younger bro alot of times today.. oops! but i was really irritated. ARGH!! just gimme one more day.. i will finish up everything and appear as a "guai" girl in school the nxt day. but too bad, i don't have tt chance. whatever it is, i have no choice but to finish all my work today. URGH! =.= i lost my feel of working after finishing the taiwan trip ppt.. LOL! i'm going to hunt for my feel again :P cos i've no choice.. =.=

-off searching for working feel-

sch =.=

argh! sch re-opening tmr. :( I HAVEN'T DONE MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!! ok, i caused this upon myself. but, why must we have holiday homework? then what's holiday for? might as well it be school days, but we have our own free time.. then we can ask our teachers if we didn't know how to do anything. that makes more sense eh? oh whatever.. i've been complaining about sch in my previous entries as well. but, sc really sucks :/ the environment is just not right.

i just dread tmr.. starting to dread mondays. because it'll just be different from now on. :( i'm going to be scolded tmr. =.= i KNOW IT. whatever, i see it coming. i just wished time could have stopped there and then. things would be so much better. i don't really look forward to holidays within the yr, only end yr. the reason why: 1) you'll start to lose things, and get scolded when u get back @ school. 2) you get off in the lazy mood and never do any work =.= 3) playing in a worrying mind, not THAT fun.(this holiday was slightly different, thanks friends! you know you are :D) 4) they're never holidays

gtg now.. REALLY HAVE TO GO DO WORK. ARGH!! like i want to =.= got things on later.


-have this strong feeling work will NOT be completed :/-

Saturday, June 21, 2008

icy cold :)

HAHA!! i'm sure Joyee will understand my post. my room can be compared to NORTH POLE!! LOL.. but it rocks lah! love it! :D haha.. though we're both feeling so super cold, but it's real nice! for me lah.. cos i got blanket :P Joyee don't have. OOPS!! =x
this is so much better than when my air con broke down.. it was HORRIBLE!! haha.. i like my room now :) it's COLD and NICE!! fan shall be on later tonight.. or maybe not. HEH! air con is on 16degrees :D WHEEEEEEE!! normal temp for me. HAHA!! i live in north pole :P i'm a polar bear! or not :/ they're gonna be extinct :( my dad says i look like panda bear =.=

my ankles are still hurting, esp my left ankle. :/ oh mans.. used to it, BUT!! so many times.. scared nxt time will be worse ah :( i can't sit cross-legged cos my ankle will start hurting when i stand up.. i just tried :/ sucky.. not THAT pain, but can't walk properly. ARGH!! ankle prob sucks!!

-feeling cold-

worked out

haha!! woke up at like 9plus today thanks to my aunt! BLEH! nvm.. trng supposed to start @ 8.20am but the time i woke up, i was late alr =.= so decided not to go :/ then on com as usual :P Gloria came online at around 11.10am then she was RANTING!! cos both Sin Hwee and her went down to sch, BUT there wasn't anyone around.. so they went home. LOL!! i felt so lucky that i chose to stay home and not rush out of the house! :P and i had more sleep.. HAHA! oops =x


then alr planned with Joyee on msn want to go running today.. at the same time Rah say wan go see AH SAM.. but nobody acc her. then i say i acc her lor.. LOL!! she don't believe me at first.. keep "really ah?!.. you really acc me ar?". not real then say for what lah! LOL. yeap!! so chat until like 1plus then dad called me down to eat lunch. stayed downstairs for like nearly an hour! =.= i was FULL!! like SUPER FULL! O_O then came up arnd 2.45pm. Rah msn msged me to see if i'm gg out alr.. HAHA!! then i was like "yea.. change alr then gg out alr" then she decided to leave house.. cos she scared i late :/ in the end, is i wait for her. LOL!! nvm lah.. she wait for me alot of times alr :/


went ahead to get BUBBLE TEA!! haha.. told her felt like drinking bubble tea mah. cos at first say meet at bus stop outside MCS. but in the end meet at TPY. HEH! got caramel milk tea.. this time HALF SUGAR level!! haha.. the other time was a TORTURE!! it was so super sweet! cos i ordered normal sugar level. this time i'm smarter :P the drink was in a better state to be consumed =x walked to the bus interchange and waited for 157.. it came like in less than 5min! so lucky! :D
that Rah lah!! argh.. saw 6933 (she knows what i mean) then got so worked up cos i din tell her =.= SORRY LAH!! LOL!! still saw him in the end right?! :P

went off at 6.30 and took bus to one stop b4 adam road food centre then walked to CCAB to meet Joyee. we ran like 6rounds which is equivalent to 2.4km. HAHA!! my stamina dropped like MAD.. failed my mission lah!! haha wanted to run for an hour.. but stopped after 18min. =.= ok whatever.. my stamina seriously sucks :/ did 10 (girls') push-ups. HAHA!! then went to get 100plus to drink b4 walking back to my house. ;)


OMG!! Joyee saw smth funny while we were sitting there and chatting at the spectators stand.. there was this guy that was running, he was sweating @ WRONG places =.= we were laughing like mad lah! but had to control... cos if not ppl think we crazy :/ omg!! Joyee even wanted to take picture can!! cos she dunno how to blog out and thought of putting pic.. but not very nice lah :P so didn't take in the end (DUH!!).

came home and crapped abit before going upstairs. as usual, crapped with my MUM =.= i'm lying on my bed NOT SHOWERED =.= cos i wanted to blog first. and while blogging, Joyee keep disturbing me, so took so damn long to blog. LOL!! :/ (i'm gonna get killed) ok.. she says i stink and i NEED TO GO SHOWER NOW. =.=



while waiting @ the traffic light. oh man! i look BALD =.=

-off to shower ;)-

jealousy

just some thoughts that suddenly came to my mind:

why do ppl think so much and make themselves jealous? i don't get it. i mean, each and everyone of us alr have our own problems/troubles. why would one wanna add on to those? :/ i don't get some ppls' thinkings sometimes. i mean, no one owes them anything.. they only owe their parents for their 養育之恩。it's your choice you wanna 付出 for them, so don't regret :/

i was just thinking of jealousy b'cos i read some ppls' tags on some tagboards.. i don't get it. things are just so complicated :/

things are just so complicated

fell asleep at around 3plus 4 while chatting.. then woke up @ 7.50am. as usual, went back to sleep.. then woke up at 1.30pm. HAHA!! ok lah.. nth much today. chat awhile, then went to eat first meal of the day/lunch. :P had crab.. O_o wasn't really in the mood to eat. had less than usual, or should i say.. nowadays my proportion of my meal is like that? HEH didn't do much stuff lah.. dad went out then ask me help change candle, change lor. freak lah! i just realised i didn't go back down to change another set. :/ haiz.. came up, nap after chatting for a while. managed to chat with CARMEN!! omg.. i miss her!!! this really good pri sch friend that left for australia in pri5. she's probably coming back in OCT!! looking forward to go out with her :D we chat about singapore's education system.. she said it's easy there :( OMG!! i'm dying here.. doing so badly :( that sucks.. there's too much pressure, which will just make things worse. overseas, HOLIDAYS ARE HOLIDAYS!!! no work at all!! what crap does singapore schools have during holidays for their students? TONS OF NEVER ENDING WORK!! see the difference? i do :/ but compared to what i see, the adults face greater pressure.. which sucks. that just means there's only one word to describe the feeling of people LIVING in singapore: STRESSED!!

for students, holidays are no better.. we just have nvr ending work all the time. why? b'cos the education system is a torture! everything is pushed forward. though we seem to be playing throughout the holiday.. we're thinking of our work in our minds. i mean, who doesn't wanna play? esp during HOLIDAYS! cos it's the only time we get to play to our hearts content. like sch days there's work EVERYDAY! esp math =.= i'm getting tired of it. really soon, partly b'cos of the teacher. ok.. to me, teacher IS very impt. i mean, if i'm sort of unhappy with the teacher or being stressed by the teacher, that subject will be the worse. so far, it's geog. i dunno what's happening.. i like geog. but i can't seem to do well :( which sucks! cos the pressure IS there. though on the surface i dun really seem to care. i'm not one whom u can push.. the more u push, the more i reject. :/ it's not easy to teach me i agree.. but i get stuff i listen to. i learnt, i can't be tired in class. if not i'll just FLUNK. i'm hating school because i get nagged at even in school! WTH!! i hate being nagged @. i mean, at home i hear my mum nagging b'cos she doesn't see me doing work.. and i hear the same thing in school from my teachers! can't i just have a break?! if the teachers' don't nag, will something happen to them? NO!! i understand my mum, cos she doesn't see me working all the time :P i'm esp irritated by my english teacher, she's just i think the naggiest teacher i've ever met. she nags EVERY lesson. =.= ok maybe cos i'm really TIRED during english lessons.. i mean, it's just SO BORING!! that i don't even know what she wants us to do cos i'm not listening :/ and the thing is, she LOVES staring at ppl.. =.= esp me. and i'm SUPER IRRITATED with that.. cos i super hate ppl staring at me. what's her problem mans?! i really don't know.

not that i'm like looking forward to retaining this yr =.= like who doesn't wanna do well?! teachers just go on thinking students don't care if THEY don't see the effort. i mean, if we can't do it, we really can't do it! like lit, ok i agree i'm not really putting effort b'cos i really hate reading. why must it be compulsory?! (they said it's cause it's needed nxt time) fine! i shall oblige. i'm being FORCED to do subjects i don't exactly like. =.= which is totally sucky b'cos u don't have any interest in it! DOES NOT HELP in anyway :( i thought like one of the subject Carmen's taking is quite cool.. some political and legal course or smth like tt. she only has to take 5 subjects!! and she's idk what exam that is like A levels. and the number of subjects is still LESS!! do you see the difference? I DO =.=

ok.. i know this mind set is super wrong, but i've been thinking. what we learn now won't be used nxt time, what we're learning are just basics to the future.. why are we learning and why does it seem so tough to us?! (when they'll be basics nxt time) ARGH!! and.. we'll have to learn harder things that will be basics to again the further future. why do we live in such a complicated society? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. why is English SO important and nobody cares for chinese?! i don't understand either. why is studies so important? again another thing i don't understand. they look at certs, but.. u see in the near future, they care for more. your cert is just their basic.. you'll still be unemployed. =.=

very tired and very sian nowadays. esp when it comes to mind that school is re-opening. EVEN WORSE! school is just crap in singapore.. there's only ONE word to describe the education system: STRESSFUL!!
woke up at arnd 11.30pm. saw Joyee's msn msg. sorry girl, was sleeping when you came.. then you went back home :/

2 days to go.. and i'm facing torture again. (not that i'm not facing torture now =.=) haven't finished reading lit book :/ i'm DEAD!! seriously.. not that i don't wanna read. u see, if i'm not tired that i can even be crazy and high for hours (it's not easy being crazy and high, it takes energy).. i can fall asleep in 5min or less just by reading! if you're thinking is that how bad it is. YES! it's THAT bad :/ why is it that if you don't finish work on time, bad impression of you is on ur teachers' mind? i don't get it. i mean, there are times when people need time to do other stuff.. like SLEEP if they're really THAT tired. i mean, it's not that we want our lives to be this way. it's just that we REALLY HAVE NO CHOICE. if i do have a choice, i'd rather go out working and gain work experience.. if we need to "upgrade" ourselves, we can take future courses that help for that yr itself. i mean, now more ppl are looking at work experiences.. and it's a fact, so many undergraduates are facing unemployment.. why? b'cos they have no work experience =.= so much for studying so hard. :/ efforts will be paid off.. it's my motto. but doesn't seem to keep me going, b'cos it's not been in my mind for quite some time.

sometimes i don't know what i'm thinking.. i really feel like completing my work, but i can't seem to. even if i'm not playing or using the computer, i'd rather sleep than do work. i have no idea why :/ the mood is just.. NOT THERE. some ppl will say, you do not depend your mood to see if you wanna do work or not. but i can say, my mood really affects me. if i'm in working mood, i can work for one whole day. WITHOUT play, i survive. if i'm not in the mood, i won't even touch my pencil case (there's a reason why i don't say worksheets.. b'cos without a pen, you can't complete your work :P). that's how bad it is :/

school, is a place full of joy AND torture. you meet new people there when you're new.. but as time goes by, you see some people change. you receive peer pressure, and also study pressure. i just realised SC's environment is just so not for studying. whatever it is, i have no choice. i just have to do my best. maybe i should enjoy.. b'cos people have been telling me, secondary sch life is where you get your true friends. i hope i've found mine. maybe i have, but i don't realise. maybe the government is thinking that we should be trained from young, and learn how to cope with pressure when we're in the working world. there's a reason why people go bonkers.. :/ whatever it is, singapore = STRESS!! not say there isn't stress in other countries, just that there's more here :/


-stressed-
`but no one can tell.. i'm said to be a carefree person.. yea sure :/

Friday, June 20, 2008

FUNNY!!

OMG!! was reading kaileng's tagboard and happened to read XUETING's tag.. it's super funny can!! it says..

x[t] to p***by: PLS use your name to scold ppl instead of hiding behind the back say ppl!! and kaileng did nothing wrong!! ppl got so many diff type of faces, not like you only one bitter face!

LOL!! i think the bitter face part is funny!! oh mans.. xueting don't keep making me laugh pls. i yesterday laugh until stomach cramp liao.. you still wan make me laugh =.= ok lah.. i wanted to blog only about this cos i thought what xueting typed was really funny.. when i find more things then i post somemore. till then, BYE! :D

crazy day

HAHA!! fell asleep infront of com @ around 4am ytd.. then woke up at 8.30am. then use computer again lor.. normal procedure. LOL!! ok lah.. haha! was looking forward to evening.. cos meeting with the others (Chantrice, Da evon, Grace, Kaileng, Me, Melissa, Rah, Stefy, Wendy) and Jiaxi :D
Met Wendy @ 4plus at her workplace.. thanks for the ice cream! :) the people around are so wierd.. when she going to off work alr, some crowd started coming. LOL!! then she off work 15min later. HAHA!! accompanied her to the toilet to chance then headed to cine to meet JX.. while the others started coming in one by one..

talked abit then decided to go down to the food court so we could sit while waiting.. HAHA!! our conversation was funny! -- Chantrice, 不要想歪!it was funny looking at JX mark Stefy's bro's work. O_o HAHA!! Stefy.. don't say your bro no hope lah.. so bad! XD wait till 7.30pm alr, then JX suggested we go queue up first.. HAHA!! we went there, the queue was LONG. and it wasn't easy for us to get seat cos there were 10 of us. luckily JX knew the manager.. so we didn't wait THAT long. HAHA!! while eating, still can't stop laughing.. too many funny things happened. JX can be so BLUR!! one dessert infront of him missing he also don't know. OMG! LOL!! me, Grace, Stefy and Da evon laugh non-stop!! i laugh until stomach cramp liao :/ anyway.. i kena suan quite a fair number of times by JX today :/ ok lor.. then kena disturb by all of them while waiting for the food and drinks to come. ok lah.. some is 旁觀者, just sit there and laugh AT ME!! :/ LOL!! but those not 旁觀者 de, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! HAHA!! nxt time i jio you all out need bring weapon! if not sure kena again. :P they wanted to take neoprints after dinner.. i didn't want, cos i thought it's quite cramp.. haha. Me, Stefy and Da evon didn't take.. the 7 of them went on with it. HAHA!! the funny thing was, they were snatching the neoprints at the end.. cos they all wanted THIS PARTICULAR ONE. LOL!! it was quite cute lah..

after taking neoprints JX left to meet Shiying and i dunno who else for movie. then we all headed home lor.. nth much to do alr mah. LOL!! anyway, it was a fun yet crazy day! haha.. i come back home still got crazier stuff.

Walked with Da evon, Stefy and Wendy towards Far East.. then Jo Yee shouted my name.. i was like O_O! surprised to meet her there lah. HAHA!! Stefy go running abt again.. cos Kunio, Wawatou and i dunno who was there.. LOL!! the SB ppl.. i have no idea who :/ walked to the bus stop with them, then Joyee came short after. HAHA!! abt 5min later, 171 was here.. so nxt thing, BUS-ED home and on the bus we were chatting. and Joyee, nxt time don't bring such a heavy bag.. it's a TORTURE!!!
reached home then headed to my room.. saw my room in kind of a MESS!! cos my mum was cleaning up. haha!! and hanging the curtains up. i started disturbing her, cos i wanted to lie on my bed but it's full of clothes. then i was crapping like MAD, infront of Joyee O_o she was laughing.. :/

mum: "神經病啊?!"
me: " ya!! i crazy alr.. HAHAHA!!"
-can't remember convo- looking at my mum sort things out..
me: -sat down on basket for dirty clothes cos nowhere else to sit-
mum: "EH KISIAO DUN ANYHOW SIT!!"
me: -laughed.. cos, i'm "crazy"-

my mum so bad lor.. another person calling me kisiao today. RAH EVERYDAY ALSO SAY I KISIAO :/ i got that bad meh? (actually i disturb my mum first.. nvm have fun can alr :P)

dad went back to his shop to shift things.. haha. went down to open the door for him when he came back. on my way to my room heard my phone ringing so went to pick it up, my sis called =.=.. ask me go up help her catch her chinchilla. LOL!! forever running out one. and oh ya! one of her hamsters died and another 2 is missing. forever her pets got prob! rabbit give birth so many times also HER rabbit. HAHA!! but it's quite fun having so many animals in the house! ;)

haha!! nvr really take pictures.. only took pic in the toilet while wendy changing, and one pic after she come out. HEE..


I was bored while waiting.. so started taking zilian photos. HEH!




took one shot with Wendy when she came out :)


damn.. for idk what reason my left ankle is hurting. :/ maybe from last sat's training when i twisted it. AHH who cares :P i shall bear with the pain.. so used to it alr. haha :)

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Daevon and Rah

haha!! this post is for Daevon and Rah..
Rah!! you super funny can!
1st message: " Olivia you not in front of your com is it. Daevon say you fainted liao."
2nd message: "Olivia ... You still alive a not.."
I just saw these 2 messages and like a miss call from my mum. HAHA!
i nvr faint lah!!! i was being a PIG again. =.= these few days always use com halfway sleep.. b'cos my monthly best friend is here=.= so BLOODY irritating! You two damn funny lah! say i fainted alr.. ps lah. i SLEEPY ok?! heh.. okok.. nth to post alr. and.. I DIDN'T FAINT! :P

MSN convo

OMG!! i was chatting with Rah, Melissa, Xueting and some others when Xueting suddenly went off topic. So i decided to share the crap with Rah and Melissa, since they were the more active ones that was talking to me @ that time. OMG!! we all agree Xueting is SUPER OFF TOPIC can!! haha.. then Rah ask me add Melissa to convo, i decided to be crazy and added others like Grace, and i can't rmb who else cause i think Rah added some also :/ hahah!! the convo went upside down ok! but it was SUPER FUN!! we shall have conversations like that once more! yesterday's convo was chaotic but not everyone in the convo was talking.. can you imgaine if everyone was talking?! i think i wouldn't get anything. when i left the comp, stand up tt time 頭暈暈的.. HAHA!! and i wasn't walking straight, cos my vision was blur at one point of time. the feeling was sucky! but i guess i'm ok now :) MSN conversations will maintain the fun in future! miss Chantrice's laugh? just click on the "Laugh" wink in msn! you'll hear how she laughs ;)

oh yes! yesterday after the chat my dad called me down to eat, i was slightly hungry lah.. and it was like 2plus am?! i'm starting to eat LATE AT NIGHT!! that's bad. anyway.. my dad suan me lah! he my eye look like PANDA!! got that bad meh?! :( ok lo.. i won't get to sleep late @ night anymore when sch re-opens anyway. just let me have fun for a few more days? i can't even sleep late on sun alr =.=

thinking that sch gonna re-open in like 4 days time 就很悶。。i just love end yrs!! b'cos i dun have to worry about holiday homework :D I love holidays because i get to slack :P I hate holidays because there's always nothing to do. but i guess, this holiday was absolutely different! i met new friends! and they were AWSOME!! we shall meet up soon :)

-looking forward to tomorrow- we get to meet once again! :D

to each and everyone of you :)

i see you all write to individual, don't write.. feel bad eh?

Jiaxi -I will NEVER regret supporting you. It was because i support you, i've gained many friends, including you. You've been really nice to me, i really THANK YOU for that. i want to thank you so much for appreciating my support, i thank you for being so nice to me in the past months while i was giving you my support, and i also wanna thank you for being concerned about me when you know i'm sad. 謝謝你儅人家說我的時候,你會挺我。I really feel fortunate being able to know you through supporting you in this competition. It's really sad to see all these sweet happenings ending.. 真得很捨不得。Jiayou in everything you do! Take care! :D


Kaileng88 -i think the first one i talked to was you? if i'm not wrong.. we were waiting at rg at that time. :) it has been great knowing you.. you're one of them who created a difference in my life :) i'm glad i got to know you. thanks for lending me your ear, crapping together with me all these while. 最愛環的人算是你了吧?you're one lucky girl yea :) another thing i must say is, you're really a PURPLE LOVER!! haha.. practically everything is purple ;) Jiayou in everything you do yea?! meet up soon! :D




Rah -the second person i talked to was you bah. :P you very no xing xiang @ that time.. so crazy over AH SAM. hehe.. we chat alot i guess? the most person i interact with is you le bah.. since the beginning. I still remember.. if i'm not wrong, you suggested you guys shout "Jiaxi! Olivia ai ni!" or something like that yea? so embarrassed at that time k! but, can tell you all had fun shouting.. so, let you all shout, i cover my face :/ thanks for hearing out to my problems at times, even when you're not in a good mood. you're still willing to listen to what i have to say. treasure your Louis bro ok! he's a nice chap. (Jiaxi is nicer :P) it's been great when we go out tgt.. the chicken chop hor fun next time need find ppl share le! really VERY BIG portion lei! i almost died eating.. too bloated! :/ nxt time go back eat ice together k?! :D

Kailin90 -i do chat with you, but not alot. maybe because we don't really have the same topic to chat about. towards the end, i think we chat more than before. continue giving your love to your rabbitsis! because i'm sure she loves you as well! 7months old, time to change le bah :P now alr 9months old le ba? :/ haha!! or you're the 七個月不會長大的兔崽子?!hehe.. i realise when you emo, i give u pop sweet you happy alr! haha.. can be quite easy to console. sometimes i think you very cute.. cos when you suan/bully xueting, it's OMG FUNNY DE LOR!! thanks for allowing me to know you through WWDZ, you've been a great friend. see ya soon! :D come by my house anytime! ;)

Stefy -i know you b'cos you asked ticket from Jiaxi. :) the first time we met we didn't really talk, only self intro. hehe.. it's been great knowing you :D all the chit chats @ the reception of mediacorp, all those laughters that we shared. I'm sure we shared the fun times cheering for Jiaxi together yea?! they were abit too 瘋 but fun! though towards the end i dunno what happened, but you still went down to MCS :D p.s: don't take Jiaxi's hand! wanna borrow must ask him lah :P and.. don't tire youself out for superband yea? cos i think it'll be worse :/ see ya soon! :D


to the left :)

Wendy -i know you through Stefy. We didn't really chat much yea? only towards the end.. i dunno what to say, but you've been a great friend! it's been nice chatting with you :) same words said, don't tire yourself out for superband ;) see ya soon too! :D

Daevon -thanks for making me laugh so much that sometimes i even forget i'm feeling sad (if i was feeling abit emo :/) 蘑菇頭!hehe..!! when Chantrice or some others call you that, i find it very funny! :/ sorry arh.. 到這個時候還取笑你. i'll never forget you as a friend k! we must meet up soon! :D

Chantrice -i'll miss your laughter, but i can hear it on msn. :P i only got to know you halfway through WWDZ, but it's better than never. you've created joy when most of us are tired and sometimes emo while waiting. HAHA!! the slipper thing, OMG bluff me lor!! haha.. fake one,不准的。 thanks for being one of the Kai Xin Guos in the group! always bringing laughter to everyone, even when you yourself not in a very good mood. i never regret knowing you :D p.s: don't suan me alr lah.. "NOT FUNNY!" >.<

Xueting -can you pls dun dao me anymore? and don't be so blur. sometimes u like v cute, cos you're so blur. but sometimes talk to you can just vomit blood! :P and.. increase your volume when you talk pls.. if not l8r ppl will be irritated again, because if cannot hear you, ask you repeat you don't want repeat. nice knowing you! don't dao me anymore k?! :) see ya soon! :D

Grace -haha!! it's been nice knowing you. i don't know how we started talking also. thanks for crapping together with me, though sometimes i can really be crazy until =.=. i must say you can control your laughter really well.. haha! we shall meet up soon! :D

Melissa -i've known you only since this past week? i'm really glad i got the chance to know you, you've been nice to talk to. all the crapping and gossiping, sad at times but they were fun and interesting! Let's continue our support for Jiaxi together yea?!

Sofia -one thing i really know about you is YOU CAN SCREAM REALLY LOUD! :/ it's really scary sometimes but cool as well. b'cos you don't have to be scared you'll lose your voice. i nvr really talk much to you, but thanks for coming into my life. :) we'll get the chance to chat more yea? see ya soon! :D

Stephanie -the ever so gd in handy craft stephanie. the book you made for Shuai is really nice. :) i don't really see you talking, and i didn't really get a chance to chat much with you. Still, thanks for entering my friends' list :) i hope we get to communicate with each other more when we meet again! see ya soon! :D

Weiling -i only met you this past week as well? it's been great talking to you, though we didn't really chat much. i hope we get to communicate more yea?! see ya soon! :D

Serene -the girl who is forever so supportive of Jianfeng! good to know you entered my life, we'll chat more ok? don't be so quiet :) see ya soon! :D

Yanshan -i only met you once or twice? haha! hope to get to know you better. and also wanna thank you for entering my life :) see ya soon! :D
Minghui -heys! i hardly/never talked to you.. haha! :/ except for the last 3 days i think, sort of feel it's a pity... cos it's gd to have another friend! i think you're very blur also, but not as blur as xueting. HAHA! srry didn't get you any present, have no idea what you want/wish for.. and also thought it'd be wierd cos i didn't know you well. another nice guy here, see ya soon! :D

Kelly -i also wanna thank you for entering my life :) those chats we had were great.. i don't know what happened but towards the end, 你好象疏遠了。。只想說:謝謝你和我做朋友!:)

shall end of like everyone else, group pic!





(from left to right) Daevon, Me, Chantrice, Jiaxi, Wendy, Grace, Sofia and Melissa! :)

@ Newton food centre (left to right) Shi hui, Serene, Ira, Kaileng88, Xueting, Rah, Stephanie, Weiling, Daevon, Wendy, Kailin90, Sofia, Grace, Chantrice, Me and Melissa! :D

-misses- we'll meet up one day :)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

memories :)

i've been reading blogs... those memories will NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. REALLY!! they're just like a tattoo.. they can never be removed :) i thought i would do some blogging too..

這幾個月來認識了很多新朋友。真地感到非常得開心能認識到你們,因爲你們真的超棒的!能認識到你們我絕不感到遺憾!

首先,我要說的事雖然我們之間產生了誤會,那段時期我也很氣你!但我還是要感謝你。我再説的人就是Joyce。我知道,有些人會驚訝我這些話吧,但是講真的,沒有Joyce,我也不會認識到你們這一班超棒的朋友!所以要謝謝她。從那件事發生后,我們很少交談。。但是說實話,你可以儅一個很好的朋友。:) (有時要注意自己的話吧。)

唯我獨尊裏,我支持的是佳熹啦!要我講他的壞話,我講不出。。因爲我找不到什麽地方可以講的。我相信其他人也說不到他的壞話吧。他就是那麽好!我要謝謝他!他對我很好很好。。我能認識他,我感到很幸福。佳熹!我知道你對我很好很好,真得謝謝你!要我講佳熹的人格:好得不得了!親切、開朗、很會逗人家笑!很願意聼儅聆聽者。。總結,江佳熹這個人是超級棒的!佳熹,我不開心的時候你願意聼,會逗我開心。。我只想說,儅你不開心的時候,如果你找不到聆聽者的話,我願意儅你的聆聽者。就算我聼不太懂,我會盡量去懂和了解。我沒能幫你做到什麽,但如果你需要我的幫忙,我會盡全力去做!希望你天天過得開心!

因爲唯我獨尊而認識到你們的這一班朋友,放心,我不會忘記你們!你們給我的美好回憶實在太多了,不可能忘掉的回憶。我說了,這些回憶就像刺青一樣,怎麽擦 怎麽弄也弄不掉。就算漸漸變淺了,那個疤還會在!雖然是個疤,但是個美麗的疤。我不會後悔有這個疤在我的記憶中。真的謝謝:
Chantrice, Daevon, Grace, Kaileng88, Kailin90, Melissa, Peiyi, Rah, Sofia, Stefy, Stephanie, Weiling, Wendy, Xueting(你不要再那麽blur了啦!)
在支持唯我獨尊的這幾個月來,你們帶給我歡笑,你們讓我這幾個月來過得很快樂!有時會我們之間會有一些誤會,但一切總能恢復正常。雖然有時早出晚歸,但累得很開心!就因爲有你們!有時不覺得累,就瘋狂起來了。。一起瘋狂!過了一天,就開始想念你們了。。你們真得很棒!沒有你們的日子一樣要過,但有你們,日子會過得更好!我們一定要再見面!
星期一沒有了歡呼聲,感覺有點怪怪的。。但要適應咯。我會想你們的!

找一天大家有空,我們一定要聚一聚!前天在Newton大家一起吃東西的時候,都有點瘋了。哈哈!前天在Newton拍得照誰有要send我ok?! 祝我們的友情永恒不變!再説一次,你們超棒的!

i was thinking, let's just do some fun. i made a terrorist pledge ;)

We the members of the terrorist,
Pledge ourselves as one united people.
Regardless of race, language or religion.
To do a democratic decision,
Based on JUSTICE and equality.
So as to achieve
happiness, more happiness and more happiness for our people.

p.s: terrorists national day shall be 15th June. we terrorists know why ;)

現在的心情有點混亂,搞不清。但我還是開心的!:D

Monday, June 16, 2008

AIRCON!!!!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! my aircon is FIXED!! i have aircon now :D this is sooo gd.. after so much fun ytd, i have my aircon fixed! :D but i'm missing those days :/ they really rocked :)

last day.. wonderful memories :)

first VERY IMPORTANT thing!! because i HAVE a FAMILY and HAVE a DAD, i just wanna say, HAPPY FATHERS' DAY ESP TO MY DADDY!!! and all fathers' out there :) supposed to have celebration, but he's still not back from malaysia. so i went on with WWDZ finals!!

Today is the last day of WWDZ le. Jiaxi really gave me WONDERFUL memories throughout the few months. HE IS REALLY A NICE GUY!!! i really wanna thank him and say sorry to him as well. cause i always suan him :/ i never will again :) i'm really thankful to know this guy.. cos he's forever so nice :D

hahahahahaha.. i'm very high now, i guess? :/ today is super fun!! i nvr regret going.. NEVER WILL!!! cos i HAVE such nice FRIENDS around me :) SABO-ED RAH AND MING HUI today!! cos it's their birthday!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEE! so fun! water bags and FLOUR!! O_o we just went crazy!! :P wondered how they look like? i don't have their pictures :( i'd wish to.. but my cam had no batt!! so off timing :( i used handphone to take pic with Jiaxi, and i was like.. WET?! not cos i kena from the water, but it was perspiration. :/ haha!! outcome of course not as good as camera lor :( never mind lah.. got pic can alr :D hahahha!!

memories throughout these months were great! will miss those moments when i meet my friends at MCS and wait for those we support to come out. even if we don't get to take pictures, cos we understand that they're tired, and give our encouragements to them. (Jiaxi ALWAYS takes pictures :D though his tired.. that's how nice he is!!! ok lah.. others are nice as well.. but Jiaxi will always be the nicest! :P) beautiful memories just rocks like no tomorrow!! :D i so love them! :) friends i met through WWDZ, i don't know when we'll next meet. but i hope we do :) because you guys just rock! Rah! i still owe you your b'dae present ;) WILL meet up soon to pass you k? :D going for reporting and waiting for those peeps to come out.. chatting with you guys and going crazy sometimes. those times were just absolutely GREAT!!

went for supper at Newton food centre after we saw them. had carrot cake (black) and it's nice! :D but i couldn't finish.. FULL!! haha! thnx 88! help me eat :) had 2 cups of sugar cane drink.. haha!! i needed to quench my thirst :P

now i'm back home!! with muscle aches still.. damn. so long nvr train.. train one day alr like tt. feel so LOUSY!! hahaha. stamina is BAD :(

okays! i don't know what else to blog.. i shall blog another time when i get the INSPIRATION ;) as for photos, upload them the next time! cam batt is charging now.. can't upload. so yea ;)

oh yes!! congrats to Yuan Shuai!! he's the overall champion :)

Sunday, June 15, 2008

i wanna go!!

i so damn wanna go tomorrow.. but i know i can't :( cos my dad says there is celebration. i wanna at least go for reporting, and i think i WILL. oh mans.. when i thought i could go, i was damn happy lah! i was over the moon. then just one sentence in 1 sec, everything was dashed. my mood changed IMMEDIATELY!! but i couldn't do anything. aiyah.. why must it fall on fathers' day?!! WHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't possibly choose a show over my dad.. but Jiaxi is important too :/ if there is no celebration last min, i'm so gonna go down! even if it's in the middle of the whole programme!! but ticket, i don't know how to get. SIGH!!! why must it be fathers' day tomorrow?! why can't it be like, monday or something? :( maybe i'll just let things happen naturally.. we'll see how it goes. :/ argh!! from happy to... -i don't know how to describe my mood now :/-

Saturday, June 14, 2008

must post!!

HAHA!! i must post!! omg.. i'm so high. =.= Rah keep saying i siao today :/ but quite true lah. haha :P
okays.. i didn't really sleep last night. as i said... 2-4am hahahaha!! then nvr sleep after that. went for training at 8plus.. ok, i was late =.= things just got funny with Mong Yi around.. haha!! Mong Yi i bet she saw ur earhole, just that she didn't say anything :P and that particular scene was FUNNY! (one scene i dunno how to describe.. just really cute and funny)
slept at arnd 1pm just now when i got home from training.. then woke up at 2.30smth. met rah at 4plus at AMK and went to eat this SUPER BIG PROPORTION chicken chop hor fun. I WAS SUPER BLOATED AFTER THAT!! and Rah still wanted me to eat some snow ice thing =.= hahah! i keep telling her i super full alr.. really can't eat. then she bought her mango ice.. haha then headed to bus stop. take bus to mediacorp :D Rah scare me lah.. i so thirsty wan go buy drink, she say she think they come out le. :P lucky nvr rush back.. still went 7-11 get my ice lemon tea :D love it!!

HAHA!! waited for 1hr.. then Jiaxi come out le. :D he damn nice lah! don't disagree.. cos no one does :P he left after a while cos he guai guai go eat with his dad. make up for tomorrow :)
today had damn lots of fun lah!! omg.. it's just MAD!! hahaha.. actually can go home alr, but wait with the others for a while. we were chatting away and laughing like nobody's business lah! omg.. damn funny can! hahahahahahaha.. :D then when Germaine came out, we said " Happy Birthday!!" ahaha.. then chantrice said: "eh, we sing her birthday song lah?" then we sang! hahahahhahaha.. :D ok lah.. she's quite ok. :) took pic with another female contestant! Germaine.. haha. ok.. took with 2 out of 8 female contestant. :)
went to chat chat abit.. then suddenly Wendy come up..
Wendy: "Olivia! Stefy downstairs waiting for u leh!"

i was damn blur lah!

me:"huh?"

Wendy: "You say you going home with her?"

me: "oh ya! haha i didn't know she was downstairs"

so went down lor.. anyway nth to do also.. hahah :P talk while walking to bus stop.. ok lor. Stefy, don't think so much lah.. ^^

reached home at 10plus.. SUPER EARLY LAH!!!!!!!!! nvr come back so early from mediacorp b4 :/ break record. HAHA!! got lah.. ytd come back 8plus 9plus.. hahahaha :D

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Jo Yee is here and she is HIGH!!!!!!! Jo Yee is burning now :P hahahahahah!!! she understands :)

picture time!! :

orh!! so naughty!! Jiaxi took this shot.. O_o

me and Jiaxi :D

p.s:Rah and Kaileng made me laugh!! =.= SPANK them!! :P

Gavriil and I :)

Germaine and I.. O_o what's she doing? (got bei hou ling :/)

lalala

LALALA!!! i'm going for training soon.. haha. O_o i'm quite high today. oh no!! :/ haha.. siao char bo coming your way!! :P ok lah.. i gtg change and wash up. slept from 2-4am i hope i can last! :D

things are getting better for me :)

Friday, June 13, 2008

2 more days

2 more days to Grand Finals. :) i don't know if i can go :/ pls let a miracle happen *期待*

training tomorrow! need reach school by 8.20am.. O_o never mind, can help me lose weight :D haha!! miss training actually. missed first 2 trainings cos 1st training: i can't rmb what happened :/ and 2nd training: i was at bangkok! :D and :(

let me elaborate on bangkok! haha! ;) i slept and slept and slept. cos i wanted to do nothing but sleep.. so didn't really shop. but never mind, i go there almost every holiday, i have ample time to shop. and it's quite chaotic now, so it's not a very good time to shop also. so yea, might as well sleep :) sleeping is fun! cos my dad's room is like SO COLD!! and it's super shiok to sleep in a COLD aircon room. i promise. cos sleeping without aircon is bad, i know cos i'm experiencing it now :( ok it isn't THAT bad cos i have a fan facing directly at me and not turning, if its turning i'll probably be soaked the next day. =x i perspire really easily.. haha! bangkok ROCKS!!! so does Paris. (but bangkok is a wiser place to choose if you wanna buy more stuff, cos it's cheaper! :P) i wanna go Japan! :D

GLORIAAAAAAAAA!!!! better come for next training!! though i know you're in church camp now. haha! training without Gloria is no fun because we don't get to tease each other :( AWWW!! nvm.. last training will be fun! HEHE!! and ya i know Mong Yi is gonna kill me for missing 2 trainings.. HAHA! oops =x it wasn't my fault i was in bangkok, and i can't remember why i wasn't there the first training.. i think i was being a pig O_o haha! :P nvm lah.. i make it up, two other trainings i go. and i heard we might not get to go for carnival :( nvm, training's gonna be fun! i hope :D haha.. maybe not, i know many sec 3s not going tomorrow :/ thanks ah Gloria! :P church camp happen to fall on sat also :( btw, what will happen if we don't go for carnival? will there still be training? recre team can be quite fun actually, just that you don't work out as much.. which is sad cos i need to lose weight! :( ok.. talking about that, i need to go RUN!!

never mind, i know i have great plans after training.. go home and be pig again. haha!! shower first of course, i'll stink. maybe my plans will change.. go shopping :D haha. i'm still looking for a bag O_o that's long.. i've been looking since how many donkey/monkey years ago, just don't find one that i really like. money should be spent wisely :D haha.. that's why i'm looking for one that can last ;)

maybe i shall go running tomorrow after training :)

不想說太多。。。

我想說的話越來越少了,就因爲某件事。被影響到后,什麽事都變了。我想恢復原來的自己,我已經是半個自己了。。我不知道她有沒有來讀,但我知道我已經快要恢復了。什麽事都變得很複雜,就因爲一個人。不想想、說太多,但我有點過火了吧。。不管他的事,爲什麽我偏就不可以控制我自己?每次我說那些話,真的感到很難受。就因爲這樣,看到你,我少說了很多,很多話。

things should really come to an end

i don't see why should christalle's fans start saying all those again when things SHOULD REALLY COME TO AN END. ok never mind.. i don't blame her, she didn't ask them to do it. but whatever =.= maybe we're wrong since the beginning, but you might have been at fault too. at least at some points, where you didn't really think you were wrong. whatever.. i just feel that you're just repeating what she said, so it is no point. i've stopped the argument on my side. in case you didn't know, my comments (except for the 1st and 2nd one maybe) were never in a harsh tone. perhaps you think everyone is against you now, as long as they post "nasty" comments to you. my comment wasn't nasty in fact, it was JUST ANOTHER COMMENT. but you didn't watch your way of replying.. have i offended you? maybe i did, i just didn't realise. i can come to think this way because i know maybe i was wrong, i might have said some hurtful stuff to you. but i don't remember. i can't control your mind, i can't make you think that maybe you were at fault too. Jiaxi had told me your point, and i made a point to understand. :) because i'm not totally "ANTI-CHRISTALLE" if you even think i was =.= i was just irritated with your FIRST SENTENCE. which made me anti-christalle for a while. it's over.. the neutral feeling is back, you're just another contestant. i see the sacarsm in your reply, but never mind. no matter how much we say, if you think it's negative, IT'S NEGATIVE, even if we just wrote the comment in a calm mind, with no intention, but try to get some point to you. maybe i didn't express my words well, that you didn't understand. i told you, i know i'm in no position to reprimand you, but it was in the previous 2 comments, not this one. i know my limits, i hope you know yours too. (this can be quite harsh, but i don't know how to get a point to you if i don't say it direct.. because i've been trying to tell you that the first sentence really shouldn't be there, you just DIDN'T understand) i've understood your feelings, why can't you make a point to understand others who got hurt through your first sentence. initially it wasn't meant for us, but as we came across it we felt affected, why? because we waited outside, you didn't exactly direct at one person.. you directed at many without knowing. i just hope you come to realise that, though it wasn't meant for us and we shouldn't even bother, you hurt most of us. i don't blame you anymore, maybe initially i did.. whatever, i can say i was too agitated after reading the first sentence. you should just calm down and think, thinking when you're frustrated doesn't help, it'll just make things worse.

一切都變了

一切都變了,變得很複雜。現在真的跟以前不一樣,什麽都變冷淡了,氣氛已經漸漸的下降。過幾天什麽都沒了,好想回到從前的某一天,然後避免現在所發生的事情。

Thursday, June 12, 2008

you don't deserve respect :)

christalle, i don't think you deserve respect if you don't even respect others. what did the other people people do to you? that you have to say they have no home, no family, no love etc. you call that respect? i don't think so. if a person at this age don't know what is respect, i really don't know what to say.

you chose to take this path, you've to come to terms with the outcome. in this industry, critisms are inevitable. if you are unhappy with how people treat your fellow contestants and how they're willing to wait for them, you shouldn't have chosen this path. i don't think it's meant for you anyway, since you can't come to terms with certain facts that you have to face. from MY OPINION, you made the wrong decision. i'm sorry to say that, but i'm just being frank.

you said if we think we belong to the category that we mentioned, only then we will react this way. think again, same thing back to you. if YOU think you ARE what was said about you, then you'll react this way and post that post on your blog. by the way, "your fans are complaining i'm pulling you away." this sentence is so familiar isn't it? for you information, I was the one who said "wanna pull then let her pull lah." not Shi Ying's fans. if you don't think i'm talking about you, why would you say Shi Ying's fans are complaining? cause you know your actions :)

you hear from people, i don't know what you hear from them anyway. and i wouldn't like to ASSUME. why would people think of you that way? maybe you accidentally did something and gave the wrong impression. but as your fellow fan commented: "But watever they try to make it up, the image that they had done, is already inside our minds.. " yup! whatever is done, the first impression is still there :) my first impression of you was ever since you posted that post. it is not very nice to scold people and DRAG their family in. even if they angered you in any way, what did their family do to you? NOTHING! it's not respectful to bad mouth others' family when they did nothing to you. so you still think you deserve respect after doing this kind of thing?

Like i said before, i had NOTHING against you in the past.. the feeling was, you're just another contestant. just by one sentence from your post i'm affected.. not only me, but many others. you don't have to say if we think we belong to that category then we'll feel insulted. we don't need to think, by reading that post, you're insulting many. think of it, if from the beginning nobody waits for you, take picture with you or even chat with you, will you be where you are now? will you have people supporting you? will you even feel that there are people supporting you out there and have the motivation to move on? I can tell you, NO. though you might think differently, but when you face that kind of situation, you'll feel: why nobody support me? then what's the point of me going on in this competition? etc etc. there are people supporting you i don't deny. what if there weren't anyone in the theatre to scream for you? how would you feel? DISAPPOINTED! i can tell your fans aren't that friendly as well. is it wrong to scream for who you support? i don't think so. so why should your fans speak back? i don't see the point.

how is it your problem one decides to wait for the one he/she supports? if we support that particular person, you think we feel happy seeing them so tired? NO! if you are not used to this kind of life, you're really not suit to be in the industry.. because you'll only affect many others who MIGHT support you in future. i pity them :( maybe you'll get used to it soon and change, we'll see. everyone has the rights to be given a second chance. i'm willing to accept if you would just scold in a different way rather than how you dragged to say people had no family, no love etc. it is just not the way how an adult should react. probably if that sentence wasn't up, this post wouldn't be here. :)

there is not a single vulgarity in this post, because i believe vulgarities don't work :) and just by saying "Yah lah! I can be Miss Nice if they do respect me! Earn my smiles, or I can a B**** too! LOL!", it really shocked me. because i never knew someone who wants to enter an entertainment industry actually says that in public. ok, you're human too, it's nothing wrong to say that when you're angry. but think, if you said that and you HAPPEN to be famous, what will people think of you? you'll face uglier facts than what you're facing now.

why are you so against that person? i don't see how she irritated you. but i'm clear how you're irritating us now. i don't see the point in you telling Shi Ying " your fans are complaining i'm pulling you away". you want Shi Ying to be entirely yours? sorry, she still belongs to her parents. and in time to come, she'll belong to her boyfriend as well. if you understand, but i guess you don't, we just want to have slightly more time with the ones we support now as after the competition, we are quite clear that we can only 默默支持他們 in future. On the other hand, amongst yourselves you still get to gather and chat for hours when you're free. go for outings etc. is it wrong for us wanting to spend more time with them now? there is only 3 days left, and we all DO know that you guys are tired. you guys didn't force us to wait or something, but look, we did this willingly and i know we have to accept the fact that you guys are closer to each other. we never denied. since you have so much time with them, can't you just give us 1/10 of the time you get with them? we'll be more than happy.

after reading your post, i feel that you're really guo fen. but i also understand that your arrangements are so packed now that one can easily get frustrated. you just need to 發洩你所有的不滿. if we just keep arguing, this will never end. i just hope you'll re-think abit. if you had posted that post in a different manner, perhaps things will be better than how it is now. that one sentence wasn't a nice one. it just shows the childish side of someone, where they have to directly bad mouth others, thinking they're innocent and will be forgiven.

i guess you will be forgiven, i know you were irritated when i was like "take picture with her? i don't want!" but you still smiled and said bye. at that point of time, i thought you were very fake. because if you dared to scold at your blog, why not scold face to face? but maybe i wasn't thinking properly (i don't care what readers will think.. but i think i was too agitated :/), maybe you didn't want arguements, that's why you just smiled and pretended nothing happened.. professional move. however, you failed to do that on your blog. it's not easy to keep feelings, but how you blog out your feelings and scold people is another thing. on top of that, it is a PUBLIC blog. you were too harsh.. maybe you were too tired and angry and irritated or something. i'm not going to make assumptions.

making assumptions hurts.

this shall end here, the 3 days coming ahead shall not involve all these. the programme is ending, i don't see why should this be coming. just hope you'll let go slightly as they don't totally belong to you as well. they might have chosen to leave with you, that doesn't mean they belong to you. they don't belong to us either, we never said they did. you just assumed. we just want a short chat with them, without you interferring. maybe you don't think you did, maybe we were being too sensitive. sometimes when we do things, we don't feel we're wrong. only realise after we do some reflections.

i can say, i think i was quite agitated just now, and maybe i said some things i shouldn't have said. i can apologise for that. i dare to face what i did. maybe you should post another post related to your latest one, and face it that you were wrong to put the first sentence there. it's not the point whether or not we think we're that. the fact that we're waiting, you're talking about us indirectly. it's not wrong to get angry like i said, but word phrasing IS important. especially on a public blog, with the intention of joining the entertainment industry.

if you didn't realise, i'm not scolding. because there is no point scolding at all. i don't see how it helps. maybe some things you say just pricks, you might want to hold back slighlty. from what i heard just now, i just feel that you are afraid that your friends will choose their fans over you, so you had to give them a slightly bad impression of their fans, just by saying that they're complaining etc. 就是沒有那種安全感。 (this is an assumption, and i said assuming hurts.) if you do enter the entertainment industry one day, and this happens once again, i'm sure things wouldn't be that simple. for now, all these arguements can end here. in future, no one can predict.

if people are calling you names, they're in the wrong, but just by insulting back in a different way, you're at fault too. anyway, i've sorted out my thinkings about this. this matter should end here, both parties have their own faults at hand. we HAVE FRIENDS who support you, and i know it doesn't feel good for her to hear this happening. one is the one she supports, the others are her friends. she can only sit and hear, and get frustrated but cannot show it out.

this shall be the ending of my post, and also the ending of this matter. well, at least for me. :)

p.s: this post is up because i don't feel that my friend should be described this way when she didn't really do anything.

mixed feelings

i don't know what is happening to me. i'm just feeling.. i don't know how to describe. just like the title goes, mixed feelings. i don't know what to do. can someone light up the path ahead of me? before i lose my way :(

i don't wanna shed any tears.. but at times they just roll down my cheeks. i don't know what to say.. and i can't seem to figure out my own feelings. this sucks. :(

just a reminder

the title for this post is "just a reminder" i'm sure its SUPER familiar :)
okays.. i can't believe i'm eating at this hour. but nvm, that's not the point.. let me continue with my main point :)

just to let you know, though i know u don't read my blog but never mind. we ALL HAVE a home, a family, loved ones, friends, life and activities. :) i'm pek chek but i won't care about your post because i know its referring to NONE of us :) contradicting my previous sentence, i know who you're referring to. it's not being fair to her as from your post, i can only smell vinegar.. nth else. and i think i know why.. because JEALOUSY is present. and i've nth to say about u, christalle. to say the truth, i have nth against you initially but now i somewhat am irritated with your actions. and also another FACT, i'm sorry to say but you look old :( AWW!! that's sad.. but it's a FACT that can't be changed. okays.. i'm not making this up but i thought you were like 31/32 yrs old when i first saw you. =x i'm just reminding you that when you act cute, it doesn't suit because of your looks. :/ ok lah.. i've not gone that deep into not liking you, when i do, the post won't be this length. it might be 5times longer :)

the only person i wanna say sorry to for this post is kaileng. :( SORRY! i just can't not be affected by how your love posted.. though its not referring to me.

p.s: i'm not speaking up for anyone because i know among us, we all have those that christalle mentioned. :)