mixed feelings

i don't know what is happening to me. i'm just feeling.. i don't know how to describe. just like the title goes, mixed feelings. i don't know what to do. can someone light up the path ahead of me? before i lose my way :(

i don't wanna shed any tears.. but at times they just roll down my cheeks. i don't know what to say.. and i can't seem to figure out my own feelings. this sucks. :(