fell asleep at around 3plus 4 while chatting.. then woke up @ 7.50am. as usual, went back to sleep.. then woke up at 1.30pm. HAHA!! ok lah.. nth much today. chat awhile, then went to eat first meal of the day/lunch. :P had crab.. O_o wasn't really in the mood to eat. had less than usual, or should i say.. nowadays my proportion of my meal is like that? HEH didn't do much stuff lah.. dad went out then ask me help change candle, change lor. freak lah! i just realised i didn't go back down to change another set. :/ haiz.. came up, nap after chatting for a while. managed to chat with CARMEN!! omg.. i miss her!!! this really good pri sch friend that left for australia in pri5. she's probably coming back in OCT!! looking forward to go out with her :D we chat about singapore's education system.. she said it's easy there :( OMG!! i'm dying here.. doing so badly :( that sucks.. there's too much pressure, which will just make things worse. overseas, HOLIDAYS ARE HOLIDAYS!!! no work at all!! what crap does singapore schools have during holidays for their students? TONS OF NEVER ENDING WORK!! see the difference? i do :/ but compared to what i see, the adults face greater pressure.. which sucks. that just means there's only one word to describe the feeling of people LIVING in singapore: STRESSED!!
for students, holidays are no better.. we just have nvr ending work all the time. why? b'cos the education system is a torture! everything is pushed forward. though we seem to be playing throughout the holiday.. we're thinking of our work in our minds. i mean, who doesn't wanna play? esp during HOLIDAYS! cos it's the only time we get to play to our hearts content. like sch days there's work EVERYDAY! esp math =.= i'm getting tired of it. really soon, partly b'cos of the teacher. ok.. to me, teacher IS very impt. i mean, if i'm sort of unhappy with the teacher or being stressed by the teacher, that subject will be the worse. so far, it's geog. i dunno what's happening.. i like geog. but i can't seem to do well :( which sucks! cos the pressure IS there. though on the surface i dun really seem to care. i'm not one whom u can push.. the more u push, the more i reject. :/ it's not easy to teach me i agree.. but i get stuff i listen to. i learnt, i can't be tired in class. if not i'll just FLUNK. i'm hating school because i get nagged at even in school! WTH!! i hate being nagged @. i mean, at home i hear my mum nagging b'cos she doesn't see me doing work.. and i hear the same thing in school from my teachers! can't i just have a break?! if the teachers' don't nag, will something happen to them? NO!! i understand my mum, cos she doesn't see me working all the time :P i'm esp irritated by my english teacher, she's just i think the naggiest teacher i've ever met. she nags EVERY lesson. =.= ok maybe cos i'm really TIRED during english lessons.. i mean, it's just SO BORING!! that i don't even know what she wants us to do cos i'm not listening :/ and the thing is, she LOVES staring at ppl.. =.= esp me. and i'm SUPER IRRITATED with that.. cos i super hate ppl staring at me. what's her problem mans?! i really don't know.
not that i'm like looking forward to retaining this yr =.= like who doesn't wanna do well?! teachers just go on thinking students don't care if THEY don't see the effort. i mean, if we can't do it, we really can't do it! like lit, ok i agree i'm not really putting effort b'cos i really hate reading. why must it be compulsory?! (they said it's cause it's needed nxt time) fine! i shall oblige. i'm being FORCED to do subjects i don't exactly like. =.= which is totally sucky b'cos u don't have any interest in it! DOES NOT HELP in anyway :( i thought like one of the subject Carmen's taking is quite cool.. some political and legal course or smth like tt. she only has to take 5 subjects!! and she's idk what exam that is like A levels. and the number of subjects is still LESS!! do you see the difference? I DO =.=
ok.. i know this mind set is super wrong, but i've been thinking. what we learn now won't be used nxt time, what we're learning are just basics to the future.. why are we learning and why does it seem so tough to us?! (when they'll be basics nxt time) ARGH!! and.. we'll have to learn harder things that will be basics to again the further future. why do we live in such a complicated society? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. why is English SO important and nobody cares for chinese?! i don't understand either. why is studies so important? again another thing i don't understand. they look at certs, but.. u see in the near future, they care for more. your cert is just their basic.. you'll still be unemployed. =.=
very tired and very sian nowadays. esp when it comes to mind that school is re-opening. EVEN WORSE! school is just crap in singapore.. there's only ONE word to describe the education system: STRESSFUL!!
woke up at arnd 11.30pm. saw Joyee's msn msg. sorry girl, was sleeping when you came.. then you went back home :/
2 days to go.. and i'm facing torture again. (not that i'm not facing torture now =.=) haven't finished reading lit book :/ i'm DEAD!! seriously.. not that i don't wanna read. u see, if i'm not tired that i can even be crazy and high for hours (it's not easy being crazy and high, it takes energy).. i can fall asleep in 5min or less just by reading! if you're thinking is that how bad it is. YES! it's THAT bad :/ why is it that if you don't finish work on time, bad impression of you is on ur teachers' mind? i don't get it. i mean, there are times when people need time to do other stuff.. like SLEEP if they're really THAT tired. i mean, it's not that we want our lives to be this way. it's just that we REALLY HAVE NO CHOICE. if i do have a choice, i'd rather go out working and gain work experience.. if we need to "upgrade" ourselves, we can take future courses that help for that yr itself. i mean, now more ppl are looking at work experiences.. and it's a fact, so many undergraduates are facing unemployment.. why? b'cos they have no work experience =.= so much for studying so hard. :/ efforts will be paid off.. it's my motto. but doesn't seem to keep me going, b'cos it's not been in my mind for quite some time.
sometimes i don't know what i'm thinking.. i really feel like completing my work, but i can't seem to. even if i'm not playing or using the computer, i'd rather sleep than do work. i have no idea why :/ the mood is just.. NOT THERE. some ppl will say, you do not depend your mood to see if you wanna do work or not. but i can say, my mood really affects me. if i'm in working mood, i can work for one whole day. WITHOUT play, i survive. if i'm not in the mood, i won't even touch my pencil case (there's a reason why i don't say worksheets.. b'cos without a pen, you can't complete your work :P). that's how bad it is :/
school, is a place full of joy AND torture. you meet new people there when you're new.. but as time goes by, you see some people change. you receive peer pressure, and also study pressure. i just realised SC's environment is just so not for studying. whatever it is, i have no choice. i just have to do my best. maybe i should enjoy.. b'cos people have been telling me, secondary sch life is where you get your true friends. i hope i've found mine. maybe i have, but i don't realise. maybe the government is thinking that we should be trained from young, and learn how to cope with pressure when we're in the working world. there's a reason why people go bonkers.. :/ whatever it is, singapore = STRESS!! not say there isn't stress in other countries, just that there's more here :/
-stressed-
`but no one can tell.. i'm said to be a carefree person.. yea sure :/
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