Went to the beach!

A little update about my beach trip before I do up a post regarding a product I bought from Juz Today.

So... instead of doing my tutorials at the beach, I tried to study for one of my modules at Starbucks located at parkway parade. I bought a drink and sat there to study, I myself don't know how long I sat there for :/ But there weren't anyone waiting for seats then *phew* but I was waiting for this couple to finish their show when I first got to Starbucks! Haha. Oops!

Anyway, after sitting there with just ONE drink throughout, it would be bad of me to just leave for the beach eh? + I was a bit hungry, so I bought a banana cupcake! It was good *yummmm*

After which I headed to the beach -yes I walked from parkway parade- it isn't that far actually! Just that the part of East Coast I went to wasn't near any restaurant or eatery. It was nice being at the beach! It was something I have been looking forward to since few months back. So... even going there alone was great (:

I was lying on my back (yes on the sand, but my head was on my laptop) and I almost fell asleep. Just shows how comfortable it was (:

Some pictures taken at the beach: 

大自然 （：

I'm so glad I'm heading to the beach tomorrow. Shall complete my tutorials in a relaxed environment around nature (:

I love the beach!

Pilgrimage to China

Finally settling down on a proper blog post. Expect pictures (:

Traveled to China from 23rd Aug to 30th Aug on a pilgrimage trip. Learned some stuff through observation and such. Anyway, I can't really remember clearly now because this trip was in August :/ oops! When there's fun, you always forget the educational stuff. Hehe :P

So, Pictures shall entertain you now (:
Of course,  descriptions will be provided!

 Above 2 taken on the plane during sunrise. Wasn't at a good enough seat to be able to capture the sun! I was trying my best.... ):

This is along the longest highway in the world (can't remember the name). Notice the coloured barrier? The colour changes after a certain distance, and there are many different colours throughout the whole highway! According to tour guide, research shows that changing the colours will make the drivers have better mood while driving! So... that's what they did.

I think this picture was taken at the boat station! We were traveling on boat to 普陀山 if my memory didn't fail me.

Nice eh?! Can't remember where I took this, but makes me feel like such a professional (;

Need not say more, at the temples (:

 Food -> breed? :P

So when you flush after use, you must flush angrily! and call for the empress!

Hello, serious matter... these are not reminders for you to flush, they are HINTS! Maybe they'll come out in exams!

When you leave the place, you are being EXPORTED!

Okay this isn't as funny, but still...

 Hey you, only silver is accepted... anything else, we may charge at a higher rate. HAHA! Okay I'm typing nonsense already :P

There are so many of such funny things you can find in China! These are all I found on this trip!

Group shot!

Can't remember where I captured this. Nice scenery right! ^.^

I have no idea why people throw money into the bucket, really :/

Cable car ride up the mountain to visit temple!

Taken at the top of the mountain (:

 Entering a cave, it was really dark inside

 One of the hotel rooms, we switched a few different hotels as we traveled to different places. Can't remember which was this though!

 Released this turtle into the 放生池!

 Another nice view! China does have abundant nice nature around, unlike Singapore :/

 Do you see a face? It is all natural, no man-made effort!

China was kinda fun? Visited quite a number of places and I can't remember them all with my brain half-working at this hour but I thought I'd just do up a post!

For more photos, you can visit my Facebook page if you have access to it (;

Year 2 Sem 2

Ended lesson early and I thought I still have time before the next lesson starts to do up a post but I guess not. I still have about 3-4 posts in mind? But I haven't gotten the time to write them.

School has been okay so far. Feeling more motivated to do well this semester, somehow. Which is something good (:

So... yesterday I heard a whole lot of crap that made me feel: so ridiculous. I can't be bothered to say more cos that will just make things worse perhaps. Things just go back to square one: I should not believe people so easily... 要相信人，很难。

Blog Revamp (:

So... I just decided to make some changes to my blog before I continue my blogging spree once again.

Everything's brighter now! In hopes for a brighter tomorrow (:

Holiday!

I realise every time I return to this site, it's been a while since I last wrote something down.

This holiday has been rather fruitful. Traveled to China & India for pilgrimage. Learned quite a fair bit from both trips. People can be so fake at times you really feel like closing the doors in front of them. Eww.

Things have been on and off I feel so lost. Wish things can be solved forever. May that time come soon please. Need the inner peace. Even if I get to go to the beach now it's also gonna be like running away for a short while. That really short period of time.

Shall update on China & India soon!

Life's unpredictable

Dad's friend passed on recently. He's been of a great helping hand to us. Really thanked him for being there even when he's gone. Such things are unexplainable.

I felt really bad when I heard about the news. Also, when I wasn't there for the last night, and even sending him through his last journey. Although he is of the older generation, he was someone you would want to talk to, just a normal conversation with all the laughter. Someone who is cheerful, even when facing his darkest hours.

Well, at least he's in a better place now and more peaceful. Smooth journey ahead (:

-Just had the sudden thought to post about this. He's helped us in many ways, know it and really thankful.

Beyond reasonable thoughts

Been about two months since my last post. I've got the feel to come back to blogging, real blogging. Proper blog posts and pictures. Soon, really soon. Blogger has been a good platform for me to pen my thoughts since I started blogging... I don't know why I abandoned it for a while...

Okay, here to do a really short post to vent some stuffs out. I am in full awareness that my blog is not set to private and therefore I really hope you don't chance upon it.

I don't know what to say, but it's really getting beyond what I feel is reasonable and comfortable for me to bear with. So yes, please stop (contradictory to how I don't want you to chance upon it). Marisa, Fadzhana, Xue Zhen and Zhi Heng prob knows what I'm talking about.

It's gonna be hard to pull through, but I've been through too much stuff to crumble at this point in time. I'm not that weak, but I don't know how far my strength will take me to. Limits are never reached, when you reach the first, there's always another. However, if one reaches the first, they may collapse even before challenging the next. Mentally and physically (a bit) drained.

Macdonalds Ban

Been so long since I blogged! Blogger has a new layout D:

Started a 6 months Macdonalds ban with Marisa Namdee since 19 April (with the exception of apple pie)... that was a really smart move cos we went to eat apple pie after training on thur! haha (; Felt fatter after that though ): ***Macs is really sinful

Been eating one meal a day, if I'm not wrong. Haha! Idk why, and I'm HUNGRY NOW! At this hour?! like wth T.T Feel like getting something to eat but at the same time lazy to go get food, maybe I'll just sleep away the hunger. I've to sleep soon anyway!

Miss those days where I kinda blogged everyday. Oh yes, blogging assignment from bcomm =.= not my own thoughts though, quite lame. Shucks it's due Mon.

School's been okay, went for BA Envoys interview, hope they didn't feel that I screwed it up? :/

Okay luh it's over, not much regrets on it so... Just have to wait for the outcome (: Have been skipping micro econs lectures -> who ask it to be like 9am on mondays HAHA! and I haven't really been doing tutorials. But one good thing -> I started listening in lectures cos I print lecture notes! (: Totally helpful for listening in lectures. Laptop's such a bitch at times like these.

Okay gonna sleep stomach growling I cannot tank anymore :P

Good Night! ^.^

Loving memories of Isabelle Tan

This may be sort of abrupt, but I just thought it would be the best way to pen down my thoughts.

Isabelle Tan, a friend of mine, has passed on due to brain cancer. I don't know how I should describe this feeling, I never thought I would be this affected. Great classmates in the last 2 years of my primary school life, if I'm not wrong primary 3 too, and school mates for about 8 years. Though I was not very close to her, she's a great girl, I don't think she has had enemies. She's just like what others said: "Close to perfect".

Prefect for every single year that anyone can be, she carried out her responsibilities. We didn't even meet for the last couple of years, since she's left for SJI International. It's a pity that she's left us at this early age. We were once close, I wish we held on to that bond. This incident has made me realised that I have changed, to be overly emotional when I'm stressed. If I didn't screw up friendship with other classmates in my graduating year in primary school, the bond between us probably would have been stronger. In any way, we still said hi and smile when we walked past each other in secondary school. It's a pity to have let the bond weaken.

Went for her wake yesterday evening with Qian Yi and met some others there. In a way her sufferings ended and we should feel happy for her that she won't have to suffer any longer. On the other hand, it's really tough to have to face a friend leaving at this age... and it's tough on her family for losing her at this young age too. I have come to realise that I keep thinking of her. Online sites will have a glimpse of her news. For no apparent reason, I have browsed  her Facebook page for a couple of times today. In my memory, she's all smiles.

Isabelle, although we have not been close for the last couple of years, the memories that we spent together will never be forgotten. At this point, I wish I was there to support you during your rough journey. You were strong and brave, it was not easy. Your departure has led you to a better place without suffering. Have a smooth journey ahead. Rest In Peace. ♥

we r actors and actresses

Sometimes I just think to myself: I don't even need to act, it has become something natural.

I always have a front side of me, acting all happy and that I'm living well. All I can say is, as each day passes, it gets worse. I don't know how to face people anymore, just caught  up with my own emotions. Why am I so emotional? I don't even fking know. I need to stand strong, maybe I've stood long enough that it's time to crumble. Feel so helpless... but when I head out, everything seems normal. It's a good thing that I can forget all these shit for at least that period of time. Makes myself feel so fake, I'm not even really feeling happy.

眼前只是一片黑暗。Okay, so things happened. Hard to say, hard to explain. It's just a messy shit that we've been facing, not 1-2 years but close to 5 years now. Who endures for such a shit long time?? On top of that, other things.... can say it's a whole lifetime. I can bet no one experiences the same shit, these happen, but not the same way as I experience it. If any others experience the same shit I'm going through, sorry then. But I totally feel you cos I'm facing this shit too. Bro had enough. I have the same thoughts too actually, but where am I headed towards? I myself don't know. These kind of things are hard to bring up, you've gone too far and you have no clue. Thinking a lot... 有些事没那么简单。

Release of A level results

Okay, so thoughts has been running through my mind I don't know why. Tmr is the release of A level results. Come to think of it, if I studied hard in J1, I would be getting my results tmr. Then again, why didn't I retain? Sometimes I do regret not retaining, as though it's the wrong decision. Poly, hmm it isn't that bad.. but I don't know what to say. Good and bad on both sides. Maybe I have some kind of attachment with PJ, that it feels weird and kinda sad that I didn't graduate/won't be graduating from there. I don't know where did that attachment come from, but then... it's not the first time I'm having regrets not retaining. Not that I can't study or something... I mean my grades were not that bad in the beginning, till I started playing more than I studied. So why did I make that choice of going to poly? I don't know. 2 people told me not to, my bro and another friend. But then, probably blinded. It's really kind of a mixed feeling feel now that I'm experiencing. Maybe cos I haven't had my fair share in PJ, orientation and so on. GAHHH! Poly is cool too man! Sometimes I don't even know what I want... I'm really confused. Oh well, I shall make the best out of what poly can give me.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY FRIENDS TAKING THEIR A LEVEL RESULTS TMR! ^.^

end of yr 1!!

So... today marks the end of poly year 1, theoretically. But... I transferred course so I still have to take some year 1 modules next sem! Don't know how it'll be like, but it just makes my poly life seem longer. I chose the route, so I can't blame anyone but myself. Well, this sem's been okay, slack way too much! I don't even have the confidence in obtaining a reasonable grade for myself.. Just disappointed in myself! I need more self discipline next sem. Feel the stress~

I screwed up almost all, or rather all my papers.. demoralizing. Can only hope for it to turn out better than I think it would.

Now, it's end of exams so play first, think later :P

Nothing much to blog about, I added new items into my blogshop! If anyone is even reading this, go take a look and support pls! (:
See the links at the right column? Magna Deals! :D

Shall go watch HIMYM. Bye bye!

 Oh yes! I'm in love with this white blazer!!! Any kind souls? (;

thoughts

It's been a month and 2 days since I last blogged. Just have some random thoughts and the feel to blog. Shouldn't be blogging at this time with my macro econs paper at 9am later, but well when the feel comes just blog!

I was just thinking, and I realised sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me. All those stress that I've been getting more than usual these days. Sometimes people come and ask me, "How have you been? / How are you?" And my reply is no more than "I'm okay I guess"... the "i guess" is always there, I didn't think removing it was a good reflection of how I've been. I've never faced something like this before, sometimes I just don't know what to do / what I should do. Afterall, there's nothing much I can do at this point in time, and it really sucks to feel / be that way. Some things are not meant to be told, afterwhich things may just get worse, I mean who knows right?

People need to wake to their senses, but if it really takes absolutely long for one to do so, the people around just suffers. Sometimes, we can only suffer in silence. Everyone has their own piece of problem, it's not nice to add on. It only gets worse when I'm studying for my exams and I've to face those problems that has always existed, but at times I choose to ignore. If I don't, I'm just not letting myself live the way I should.

It's tough experiencing all these problems, but I believe when all these tides over (no idea when), I'll come out a stronger person. Just hope that I don't fall even before I can tide these over. Some say "I care" but they just do the opposite. How is "I care" even valid if the other party doesn't feel so?

Just so you know: You haven't been really nice and I no longer know how to face you.

Sometimes I realise, at the mention of you, my mood changes. Not for the better, but for the worse. That's not a very good thing.

Okay I should get back to studying...

坚持不容易，但要坚强。。。