post exam

EXAMS PLEASE END

i can't wait for post-exam activities man!!! PLAY LIKE MAD before torture starts again. HOPEFULLY i can be promoted *cross fingers* of course crossing fingers doesn't work. but then again, i'm absorbing faster now. i just need to dedicate my time to my studies. for this period of time. 2 weeks!! or less, very short. i hope i can clear, i really hope so. pass with you!!! (:

although it really seems interesting, and i really want the feeling of my taiwan trip back, i won't go. ouch.

anyway, other than all that shits!!! I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO AFTER EXAMS.
there's quite a cool enrichment, SAND ART!!! WHOOO!!! haha finally get to get in touch with it!!! (: provided i get my choice? heh. i hope i do get it!!! not sure if it's the same one as i'm aiming for, but in any case it should be similar. if i don't get into that, then i'll be somewhere going one of the hip hops bah. and and, i wanna go to the beach again!!! the breeze, the peace (other than the noise pollution). or like, universal studios!! [which i promised to go with you, after promos okay!] and like, shopping/window shopping?? hahah any one of which is fine!!! :D just let me have a breather. and and, most importantly the factor of exercise!!! badminton is fine. it's been a while since i've played it. netball/badminton for IHG, i can only go for one and netball it is. HAHA (:
yay yay!!! i'm looking forward to end of promos. LIKE SUPER LOOKING FORWARD!!!!

this post is going to be bloody long.. cos i suddenly feel like blogging. HAHA! i've been slacking luh, i shouldn't be blogging but studying :/ oops. okay going to soon... like SOON! it's been 4 months, ups and downs. feeling lost, getting back. a range of feelings. heh. oh wells, i guess it's just this way.. recently it's been worse? stress cos of promos? things will get better. de-stress whichever way!! just don't let one day go to waste alright? (:
Elton Sim Cheng Hui! HEH. you said my blog post isn't about you, it will be soon!! like one whole post. I haven't had the mood to blog, you know why. random note: Mdm Chan is super kaypo :/ oops!! hahahaha. anyway, I LOVE YOU! :D

does my blog post finally look bright and colourful?

bleeding inside

it struck me finally. those words hit hard... very hard.

why're you so fucked up?

BITCH

why the fuck are you freaking like that? does it make a difference if I go out with someone else? you don't even know what's happening right. freaking fucked up. you can go out all day till dawn and I don't even do that but you complain I'm going out everyday. I'M FUCKING STUDYING. what're you doing? your fucking leisure activities till after 3am and u're still not home. fucking hell, do you fucking know what you're doing? must you just shout at me when u're fucking unhappy with something and haven't even gotten the facts right? what's your fucking problem? u do whatever you want and want NO ONE to fucking control you... then why must you fucking spoil my mood and shout and me for whatever fucking reasons you have?! I have my promo papers coming up.. maybe you should just fucking shut up before I've no fucking mood to study and screw my papers up. When I don't get promoted, you'll have your fucking reasons to put the blame on something I know YOU WILL. so fucking hell, stop your fucking annoying actions. I've enough of your shit, and some others have had enough too. u're just plain annoying, learn to control how you speak before you get your fucking facts right. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

sorry for the super vulgar post... just freaking pissed off.

HAIZ

Seriously Hate Exams. ZZZ

I don't treat you like an idiot.. I never did... haiz.

why...

Do you really have to tell me all that? Isn't that not supposed to be what people of my age is suppose to worry about?
Is it really necessary??? haiz. as if i've nothing else to worry about. life sucks.

argh fuck it

DAMMIT IF YOU THINK IT'S SO EASY, YOU DO IT.

argh. life sucks sometimes. choose to ignore but it never succeeds because YOU have to keep saying and saying for whatever reason that pleases you. what do you want me to do?! It doesn't work if I do this and it also doesn't work if I do that. WHAT THE HELL CAN I DO THEN?! why do I have to be stuck in this kind of shit?! I alr chose to keep quiet because it's what I should endure if I chose it. BUT YOU ARE MAKING IT WORSE. do you understand what i'm going through? NO. then why do you have to comment on every single thing I do?! so what if I get irritated and pissed off and helpless if I hear them? There's absolutely NOTHING I can do about it. because which ever way I choose and whatever way I do, IT WILL BE WRONG.

Chose to suffer in silence and take it as nothing has happened. You had to drag in every single thing you feel like talking about. TOO LONG!! WAY TOO LONG. Didn't even want to blog it out but it's the only way I can vent it. DID YOU EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT IN THE EARLIER STAGES THEN? NO. SO WHY ARE YOU COMMENTING SO MUCH? IT'S TORTUROUS. NVM... I DESERVE IT LUH. Will continue to suffer in silence... swallow whatever shit you have for me. There's nothing I can say anyway. Disappointment.. you think I want? NO. what can I do about it? NOTHING.

AND TO SOME OTHERS: IT'S NOT EVEN YOUR PROBLEM. WHY DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO OPEN YOUR FREAKING MOUTH AND COMMENT? DOES IT SERVE ANY PLEASURE TO YOU? BECAUSE IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW, YOU'RE JUST ADDING OIL TO THE FLAME. AND IF YOU DON'T REALISE, LET ME TELL YOU. IT'S NOT GONNA HELP ME IN ANY WAY... IT'S JUST GOING TO HELP YOU GAIN SOME PLEASURE.

I'm beginning to lose the patience in me. Getting frustrated easily etc etc. FML. one more thing, if you could really shut up about it, it'll be best. If not, maybe you should consider talking less about it if you don't even know what's going on. Now everything seems to be on me, whatever. Take it as that. It doesn't matter anymore. Just a matter of time. Not what it seems to be.

sick zzz

RIGHT OR WRONG?

Was falling sick on thur... officially fell sick on fri. Nose was so freaking tired, ran like from thur night and its still running on and off. Coughing a little.. but nvm luh. heh. Didn't go for council... no photo taking for me. Anyway I looked very sick (according to Ling Yuan), so nvm luh. Take photo will look even worse than when i'm not sick. lols.

Promos are in a month's time =/ Need to start serious studying alr!! I'm so freaking screwed... dammit. Haven't started to revised.. can't seem to focus. for some reason. Haiz, whatever luh. Many priorities have to be put in place, many things to worry about. TOTALLY NEED MORE THAN 24 HOURS A DAY, DEFINITELY NOT ENOUGH. Too demanding?
Still learning to gulp everything down. Shouldn't explode soon. I don't know what I should do :( Standing alone? I've absolutely no clue.

"SORRY" no longer means anything.

it doesn't matter anymore. too many times.
caring is no longer something good.

:'( again

I feel the stingrays above me

Realised how much hurt I've caused. Had to chance upon that.. stuck between. I'll swallow whatever I've asked for. Need to learn to be better, alot better.
I just ask for you to be happy :(

GP lecture @ 6.45am tmr =.=". can't they have a more effective timeslot? ZZZ

1st celebration

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DARLING! :D


Hee! First time of your birthday celebration with me! (: Hope it was okay for you... will upload pics tmr! ^_^
I don't want to elaborate things here, secret :P

So old liao :P Don't so easy angry liao okay!! Control your temper!! heehee. The purple jersey looks a bit funny uh. OOPS! Had to say that. Anyway, hope you like the present and celebration today. Ohoh!! Don't eat the funny funny flavoured ice creams alr!!! SO WIERD =X Nvm, Isly.

I'm going to be a pig first! Good night!!

tiffany is a bitch

so freaking pissed off. seriously wth is wrong with you? if you don't want to change the schedule then i get someone who is willing to replace me okay?! argh. annoying. don't use teachers as excuses... if u're willing to change it for me, there's no reason why you can't.

don't want anything to happen to you, like seriously.
need to control myself. fml.

45 years

Happy Birthday Michael!!! :D
Happy National Day!! :D


Went out yesterday. Darling came to my hse for a while then we went out. Cut my hair, then went to watch movie. Watched Phua Chu Kang the movie!! Quite nice, like normal phua chu kang show, just that it's a movie. LOL! Funny luh.

Didn't go out today.. stayed home all day. Been a while since i stayed home for a whole day. LOL! oops =x wanted to do work but obviously i didn't. heh. got a lot of work due. darling's coming my hse tmr!!^^

Bro's birthday and national day today!!! (:

:'(

Just hope you would stop hurting yourself. I don't ask for anything more... :(
no longer gonna be so concerned. things just gets worse.

mixed feelings??

UNCLEAR

No idea what's getting on my nerves nowadays.. really don't know. I'm trying not to think, or in fact i don't even know what i'm thinking of!! =.=

Was falling asleep already.. vision was blurred. Your call made things seem better. I hope things are fine. I'm on the verge of going insane.. maybe i've alr gone crazy just that no one realised. holding things back can just be so difficult sometimes.

Have chinese compo due by 10.45am tmr... in the midst of celebrations. and I HAVE NOT STARTED. Eom final submission due tmr too... haven't printed, can't remember if all the necessary amendments are done. Lessons still on going from 8.15-10.15am and 2 hours of pw from 2-4. what a day of celebration. Started having headache while studying for chem quiz today. totally screwed it.. gonna fail. nothing is helping... lagging behind in everything. wtf is wrong with me? i dunno. i dunno wad i'm doing alr... lost in some island.

Going to sleep already... waking up at 4.30am to try and complete my work. Have to be in school by 7am as i'm helping out with some stuff. nice. still not too bad... wait till the first ever gp remedial starts... be in school by 6.45am, let's just hope i'll be in time. If not i'll just be in deep shit. Good Night.

3rd month

Happy 3rd Month Darling! :D

It's been so fast!!! 一转眼就三个月了! Still remember the first time I realised you liked me, only realised after 1 message. Did shock me though. After that I was thinking: "omg this ah beng, confirm won't be together one luh! No way!" LOL! Now, it had been 3 months already. Elton Sim, don't be so hot tempered already luh! :P and... get over your fear for (you know what). The other time super funny!! Because of (something you were admiring), then suddenly squat down! LOL!!! EPIC. Okay.. there's much more I can blog about but I'm not going to.

Heehee so fast 3 months already. I know I shouldn't be blogging now, given the fact that I've a lecture test on wednesday and I'm not going to have time to study later. Plus I've to re-type pw WR which I just have to "copy and paste" ^^ Just feel like blogging. HAHA :P

Gonna end school @ 5pm.. then going out! (: Long school day tmr.. looking forward to the end of the day! :D Not looking forward to the beginning though, have this speech thing in the morning :/ Hope I won't be a clown. HEH.

HAPPY THIRD MONTH! SEE YOU LATER!

*Adeline read this post already don't come disturb me ah. LOL!