haircut!

Time for some pictures in this blog. haha! I got my haircut not too long ago (:

fck yourself

记得自己默默锁在房里哭，或哭着睡着。也许现在有所改变，但仍然擦不掉那时的伤心。有时候一个人什么都不说不代表自己没事，而那某人只是默默承受。。当那某人把这些扛了多年后，要让那某人一视同仁的看待另一个某人是很困难的。你竟然对那某人说他心胸狭窄。那样伤感的话也说得出口。也不见怪，反正那某人也许什么也不是。忍了那么多，再忍一下又无所谓。对你来说也许无所谓，对某人来说：每个人都有感情，你要让这某人忍到何时。那无限量的天空，每一次又能看得到多少。

Been a while since I last blogged.

Was working at childcare again and this time with infants! Learnt many more things about babies that I never knew before... which was great (: Kids are just so innocent and awesome!

Involved in Math Carnival till tmr, haven't been doing what I was supposed to do but I do hope I at least get a chance on the last day. If not, really damn sian and boring :/
Met new friends from school of BA, super smart taking IBZ (International Business) heh! Cool bunch of friendly and sociable people ^.^

Okays, nothing much left to blog about. Till then!

am i yours?

CONFUSED yet NOT CONFUSED?

The thought comes running back, somehow. After watching a show.. well, it does make sense. But the results will shake fear in me. i don't think i'll know how to face the truth, because it's most likely what i think it would be...

i keep things within myself, because i trust no one. i learnt to trust, and through that i learnt only to trust myself.

wtf?

Know when to stop asking..

When someone choose to be ignorant of your question when he/she actually heard it actually just means that he/she doesn't wish to answer that question and just wants to shuddup about it. There's no need to keep asking fyi. If you've asked a question, don't purposely ask again just cos you want ppl to say again, it's f*king annoying. Stop thinking you know everything cos you don't.

When someone sensitive faces these dumb ass stuff, it's not a good thing. don't f*king ruin other ppl's life tyvm. cos I think you did.

$_$

That was the last thing you could have said. ZZZ

r/s

Been long since I blogged. So I'm back here after a long long while.....

Feel that I am more engrossed with school work and other commitments in Polytechnic. Thought that I'll be more playful but surprisingly I work when I have to. Maybe because there's just this time and space for me to have enough play.

End of semester common test next week, prepared for math but not the other stupid computer module. Zzz. Whole of next week will be a normal school week other than Tuesday. Wednesday other people have holiday but poly don't have :(

Anyway, came across this just now:

9 signs that you're being clingy

Just a thought: Guys do that too, not only girls.

macbook!!!

I FELL IN LOVE WITH MACBOOK AFTER USING IT WHEN I WAS VOLUNTEERING UNDER ACRES. HOWWWWW :/ I WANNA USE MACCCCCC!!! BUT I ALREADY HAVE A LAPTOP.... SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

korean dramas!!

Kay kay so I'm blogging again.

Been watching korean shows. damn cool :D love them! but i'm not really watching those idol dramas, prob will get to them soon. HAHA!

yay yay! Korean sounds cool! I don't know, maybe cos I've been hearing it almost all day long ^^ OOPS! Hahah, I wanna continue watching the show BUT at the same time I don't want it to end! :( oh mans...

I think I'm going crazy, heh.

results :/

GPA gonna suck.. sians

WHY?!

WHY?!

why is it always US, why?? I don't get it, really. Omg, I don't know what to feel know. Annoyed or what. All I know is I'm repelling. I AM. I don't know what has gotten into me, I don't know why I'm feeling and reacting this way... WTF.
Is it just me? or is it because it has always been me all the while that now, I'm so sick of it.

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K whatever, COMMON TEST IS OVER!!!!!!! Whooo!!! AND, Elton's classmate Benjamin is sponsoring me a ring that is gotten through event in maple! YAY! ^^ Okay, serious mood swings, maybe there's really a problem with me. Oh no (actually I'm not that high now, still quite annoyed). Maybe I should go vent my frustrations before I go mad O.o
Anyway I'm gonna sleep~ Having headache :(

IO!

HOLIDAY IS A DAY AWAY~

YAYAYAY!!! TOMORROW LAST PAPER! :D oh my! 4 papers as compared to JC, every paper 1.5 hrs, some JC papers go more than 2 hrs! :O

on a side note, I haven't started studying, should have started 0.5hrs ago as I said on fb, but what's this stupid web2.0 distraction that happens now :( stupid web2.0! you're good and bad you !)(^@(&@#_*! you give us entertainment (sometimes) but now you're distracting me from studying! :/ okay enough of this rubbish, I've gone crazy :O

Spend my whole morning+afternoon mapling.. what has maple done to me :( now I need to go study for CIS, 8.30am paper, means I've no time to prepare before that. HOPE I CAN WAKE UP IN TIME. *cross fingers* last paper last paper last paper!!! it actually felt like I've no paper tomorrow that's why I mapled :/ I actually didn't maple before exams, other than a few times but it wasn't really close to exam period :O

Okay byebye before I screw my paper tmr! AOQCC before you decide what you wanna believe (;
我去抱佛脚啦！

fuck?

What has it got to do with you? Your skin will drop off if I don't go is it? Use comp = not doing work is it? Then I don't know why the fuck I'm taking IT. I'm fucking vexed and annoyed... stop annoying me. Go there take how long, come back don't tell me you guys won't snatch the toilet with me. Even if you don't, need shower all that, then? Dry hair somemore. Then? You hope for more than 24hours in a day lah! Don't come and say "How can you not go? So bad" Fuck if it was you see if you'll say the same thing. What thing so bad, I want to be bad to myself then let me be lah. I'm sadist cannot is it. I've got common tests next week, you do for me is it? Fuck. I need to scream. I really don't know my feelings and I can't control them anymore. Fucked up. Who am I.

CTs next week

If I don't start studying, I'll probably flunk my CTs in the coming week :/

By the way I think I haven't updated on the ambassador's interview. Didn't go quite well as my Sec school classmate was there, so I kinda "chased" her out. And I think the rest of the interviewers were not very happy about it so throughout the interview I FELT like they were going against me.. unprofessional. Didn't bother to go see whether I got in or not. Lols

Okay on a random note, I was looking at Facebook photos of 11th SC last night, I miss those times!!! Though after I got in I sometimes complained about council, those fond memories are never forgotten. Maybe I drifted because of the lack of involvement, I didn't really have things to plan and stuff, or rather the only thing was investiture. Things are very different now that I'm in poly, very different.
I regret not working hard enough and promoting with you guys, I regret not being able to step down with you guys as a council! I haven't done enough to make those things happen. I don't know why, but I'm so attached...
You guys made my life great in PJ, and you guys are the ones that make me wanna visit PJ!

I'm no longer clear in what I want, I don't even know what I'm thinking nowadays. Oh my... Nothing much to blog about these days. Anyways, I bought a new jacket!!! It's damn cool, pink and purple. My GAY brother saw and went "ooi that's damn nice I want!" He's damn gay =.=
Okays I shall stop here, having lessons now but given break. Heh.

????????

I don't know anything anymore.
Clueless about myself even.
I don't know what to do :(


Common Test next week. Monday's a free day, probably have to mug for COS (something I'm really lost at)... Will I be able to focus? I hope so...
On a brighter note, after common test is HOLIDAY! :D