it's suppose to end

IT HAS NEVER HEALED,

AND IT NEVER WILL

wtf luh.. over means over already right?! why must it always be like that?! so you think you both have enough then we don't have enough luh huh?! we're suffering more than you guys ok, if you didn't know =.= you guys think you're stressed, you think we're not?! you say you have enough of each other, so you think we don't think it's freaking enough?! you think we want this to happen all the time?! you know how irritating it is?!!!!! argh!! i don't even bother you guys with the slightest thing that happens to me, why do you guys have to be like that all the time?! have you ever wondered why we're always like that? there's always a reason behind something, and i guess this time the reason is you. wtf luh! this is freaking enough ok! we've grown up, yes.. but have you ever wondered? are we old enough to support ourselves just yet? maybe, maybe not. can you guys stop being so stubborn and childish (sometimes)? it's not the freaking way to behave ok! because of the slightest matter this happen, so you think it's a game right?! we don't think so. when these happens, we become your messenger.. hello?!! can you think of how people will feel? you people raise your voices as and when you like, when we do the same thing.. you scream at us saying your head is spinning upon hearing these. so you think we don't feel the same?! don't only think about yourselves luh.. you guys just deny how you feel, you guys don't know the tone you put in when you speak, and all these affects the freaking situation don't you know???!!!!! aggrevate the problem, go ahead man.. sometimes i just feel like giving up already. but it just affects our feelings you know?! it just boils down to one thing: you guys don't care how we feel, you just go along with what you're thinking. you guys think you're right, you guys always think the other party is wrong. so you think it's going to work out like that?! it's not you know, it's making things worse. you guys want people to understand you, but you don't understand people! how're you going to make communication work like that?! you guys know the other party's character, but you just don't wish to give in. yes, the other party may have just gone overboard, but do you guys have to raise your voice to make the situation worse?! have you ever thought of that?! you guys always think that you're right, but hello?! others have their own point of view and their own stand. how can you just think that way?! it hurts, it really does. my heart has never healed, it has been broken into a million pieces ever since at least 5 years back. it has always stayed that way.. and i don't think it'll ever heal. these are supposed to have ended, but it hasn't. why?! why is it this way. why can't things turn out to be better. it's time to end, it's really time.
放弃的念头一直存在，面对的时候却放不下。
提心吊胆地过着每一秒，一听到响亮声就害怕，
这样痛苦的日子好难过。。。
心死了，再也没办法救活。


*也许明天就不在了*