fucked up

天灰

what the fuck is O levels doing to our lives?! teachers have been so controlling. and why? because our results will affect the school. ain't that always the fucking case. omg. argh! even my parents don't control me ok! what the fuck rights have you to control my life?! ARGH! omg... i'm so irritated. sometimes i feel like studying, but after all ur crap and your control i just feel like throwing everything aside cos i'm just so fucked up irritated. you freaks just screw my revision up! argh. i'm so tired, tired of everything. headache for days.. damn. i don't wanna go to school seriously, can the teachers plan something more useful?

tonnes of homework to complete, revision incomplete. haven't finished revising how to know how to do those questions?! flipping the textbook and doing at the same time wastes alot of time damn. can they freaking use brains? how much time do we have in a freaking day! i just feel like sleeping once i get home these days. i'm really just too tired of all these crap. i'll be drained out and know nothing by O levels at this rate.

减肥减肥减肥！

棉花糖

棉花糖离我远一点！哈哈。。我每天都在增肥，但是不是因为棉花糖拉。我要减肥！从年头就说了嘛，但都没有真正的控制饮食，有时还暴饮暴食。嗨，刚才看一下去年的照片，我胖了很多了！虽然去年我不是瘦的啦，但是我现在比去年肥很多，可以想象我有多肥了吧？:(
是该减肥了啦。。 heh






Fats go away! :)

haha ugly singaporeans

WAIT A MINUTE

Omg why must Singaporeans rush all the time? Ok, it includes me but hello? You don't go around pushing people in the bus right? =.= Who will block the door if they're not getting off the bus and wait for people to squeeze through them when there are other spaces to stand on? Argh. C'mon luh.. will people just use brains :) Irritated with people who just push their way through WITHOUT EVEN SAYING EXCUSE ME.. u rushing to reincarnate uh? ZzZ. You want to get off, so do I :) So what? I have to wait for ALL of you to get off then I can get off isit? =.= Doesn't make sense. WAIT A MINUTE Singaporeans... actually, you don't even have to wait a minute... a second is good enough :)

But some people, don't walk so slowly luh (unless you're old). Haha. Omg I'm so lame and Hazel Goh the really lame monzard just told me a really lame monzard joke. lols. She's really lame but i got her just now so nvm :)

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Elvin's advert on bus!!!

Elvin's Shokubutsu Advert

WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Saw Elvin's advert on bus no. 66 that was right in front of me this morning when i was on my way to school! :D It really made my day, seeing him would be better though but good enough to see such a HUGE pic of him :)

记不记得牛郎？:D

okay.. got to finish geog =.= argh.. don't like geog :(

stupid sony w880i

YOU GOTTA WAKE UP

Stupid sony w880i.. the freaking screen died on me. Now i can't read my messages even if i use another phone BECAUSE it's in the stupid phone, and the screen is like (i don't know how to describe). ARGH!!!! My old phone's still nicer to me :) It stayed with me for four years! :D This stupid 2nd phone [yea i'm 16 and I've had only 2 phones but it doesn't matter, because I love and am still loving my 1st phone :)] is argh irritating! yea I dropped it, BUT i dropped my 1st phone 10 000 times and nth happened to it. SEEEEE. aish. damn phone u better recover (which will nvr happen but whatever).


Stupid modern tech, old phones are still better. They last longer! Hate changing phones... so ma fan, must get used to the new phones blabla.. and i'm gonna lose my msges.. like those i didn't save in my memory card. argh. damn you w880i.

R.I.P

R.I.P

2nd July, 5.15am. Rest in peace 姑姑. Although sometimes you do scold people, but you've been a nice nice aunt!!!! With no harm intentions. 你已经脱离苦海，安息吧。

your hand in mine filming and past days

想握你的手

YOUR HAND IN MINE

haha.. kk so i haven't been blogging. nth much to blog, think i've been slacking way too much during hols. chionging in the last min. can't get down to studying for geog... sigh. geog books just make me sleepy. anyway, yea went down to watch filming again yesterday.. oops! :/ but yea see them kinda fun, pierre is funny. heh. as usual, kena suan by koong hwee.. but then! i escaped from the flick :D it's really painful k :/


anw, yea Jiaxi was there too. comical mans... :P hahahaha joker. a few times funny thing happened. First, I heard something wrongly on the bus :/ then.. Koong Hwee heard and Jiaxi heard wrongly about what I was asking, then it was so embarrassing cos it was ___ (shan't say). It was really =.= I totally didn't say ___, I wasn't even anywhere along that line! Then after that something funny/wierd happened but i think Jiaxi didn't know.. heh. shhh i'm not saying anything :) kk.. so i tagged along till they went damsey then we went off from there cos bus no space.. didn't wanna 霸位 . heh. yea took pics.. coming in the end :)
right so i had this nightmare the night before :/ haha.. i shall not say it out :P don't feel like saying alr.
pictures! :)

AH BENG DIRECTOR --- Koong Hwee :P

Jiaxi and I :)

Pierre and I :)

Celest and I :)
[she's really funny, she was like "all my clothes are either black or white". lols]

Pierre and 李白

HAHA! wanna know what happened? watch the show! :D

Title: 《想握你的手》-- Your Hand In Mine
Debuting in sept/nov (I think).. anyway look out for comercials! ;)

???

WHY CAN'T I GET MY FEELINGS CLEAR?

I suddenly feel down and I've no idea why... sigh :(

坚

强

我一定要坚强。。你不会拉倒我的。不管你讲什么，我想对你说声谢谢。。因为你让我找到了我真正的好朋友，让我知道谁在我面前办好人，知道什么就转过头告诉你/别人。我不会让你把我拉下去，我会让你知道做这一些是没有用的。最终，人们还是会看你的品格。。双头蛇的人，就算有好友，也很难使别人相信他。

yOOHENTHRAN IS A FUCKER

I BLOODY HATE yOO! omg.. BLACK DAYS are the worst. what's ur bloody problem? ppl very free isit? FUCK U LUH. oh wait, i don't wanna fuck u least i get some disease :O ARGH!!! maybe you just don't realise how retarded those things are, maybe you just THINK they're oh so "useful" =.= in what way? watch and don't listen, got any diff? NO =.= WTF IS UR PROBLEM. when you make me hate you so dearly, don't ever think of making me change my point of view again. i'm serious. whenever you come, it's a BLACK DAY! argh.. monday blue + black. how sucky is that. i so don't wanna see you tmr. cos i fucking hate you. i just don't feel like doing ur work, then u'll start nagging ur black way again. i know tons who dislike u, stop thinking you're oh-so-good cos U'RE NOT.

FUCK OFF. I HATE __ , ____, ___.
stop being such a proud ass.. ur predictions won't last. one day u'll nvr stand up again.

i seriously think i hate my life

DO I REALLY WANNA LIVE ON?

wth is this.. what's wrong with humans. I ALREADY HAVE MATH TUITION RIGHT. and not like my tutor is not gd or something.. i'm not failing my tests right? even if i get 29/30 u'll go, why cannot get full marks? wth is wrong with u. ur precious son's results is not even up to standard, u don't bother to find another tutor for him. WHY THE HELL MUST U FORCE ME TO GO FOR UR FREAKING TUITION AT JURONG which is like unknown? =.= i'm not saying there aren't gd tutors at jurong but u show me how "known" this freaking person is luh! "IF YOU DON'T GO DON'T ASK MONEY FROM ME" is money all you think of? what's ur problem? u think everyone is like ur precious son who asks for money before he agrees to go for tuition? oh please, i'm not like tt. maybe i'm stressed, maybe i'm not. but think, i nvr liked crying in front of anyone.. why would i break down for no gd reason and sometimes i don't even know why i'm crying?! say that i'm stressed.. u'll go on to say "how can you be stressed when you ask for money and go out and enjoy everyday?!" and "playing computer called stress?!" and "nvr help with anything, uniform everything no need to iron all ready for you what more you want". THINK luh.. u do that for your precious son, it's not all the time that my uniform is ironed, ur precious son uniform not ironed, i'm ironing my uniform.. u'll just go "faster, i need to iron marcus's uniform" ya.. so his uni need to iron mine don't need :)

Ur precious son give you attitude all the time, u don't do anything. "Marcus! U dare to talk to me like that?! I'm not going to care about ur things anymore!" nxt min, marcus you want to eat or not? =.= eh c'mon.. i ask for money to watch movie, max also give me $20. ur precious son spends $10 in one day and u still give him $$ the nxt day. what is this? I'm just a bastard who is wasting ur freaking money right? whenever i ask you for money u'll lose a piece of meat right? whenever ur precious son is pissed with me he'll say i'm not his sister cos i'm blood type O and all of you are A right. then all go against me together right. you think i don't feel hurt isit? think i don't have feelings is it? i just don't say anything. i cannot even vent my anger at home or in school.. how much can a person tolerate? just as much as you have tolerated enough, others have limit too. my phone bill overlap 2-3 months become $100+ you go.. why so expensive?! have you ever thought why? u always make us call while u, keep ur outgoing calls to the minimum, so obviously ur phone bill will not exceed. so long as we exceed, u complain and complain. what is this?! so long as i'm on the computer, i'm playing games. you think now still like ur studying days so easy and don't need computer uh? wtf documentary.. have to do 2 somemore. how the hell will it freaking help?! i still don't get it. I'M HATING EVERYTHING. GETTING IRRITATED @ EVERYTHING. WTF. LIFE SUCKS. ISN'T TIME TO JUST END ALL THESE AGONY?

i voice out my opinions, vice principal unhappy say wanna meet parents.. then b'cos of that, u go "blablabla u prove u can study luh! how're ur results?! so bad until principal want to see me?" wtf.. u think she saw the other parents meh?! just cos i told her "the school only cares about results" she want to see u =.= whatever luh.. isn't it true? they'll care abt other school kids meh? NO. why, because their score won't affect our school results =.= isn't it freaking obvious? why do you think neighbourhood schools are better? because they don't only care about results.. they care about the welfare of their students, they care about their students. unlike "elite" schools who mostly don't have values at all. who claims to be "so good". who puts up a front for outsiders.

yes, you get stress everywhere you go. but hello? you urself know how much u can tolerate.. same goes for others.

jet bit me! :(

AWWWW....

omg my dog like freaking bit me and my left hand is kinda numb :/ i'm bored.. bored of studying :/ but i've no choice :(

my life is being controlled

ROBOTS?

don't we sometimes feel that our lives, humans, are being controlled as robots. we're not being controlled by other ppl, but by rules that are made and implemented by the government, people and society. why make live so difficult for ourselves?
without rules = no peace?
too many strict rules = happiness?
isn't neccessarily that way ain't it? why are peoples' lives taken as robot's lives. do we function like robots? are we excused from studies like robots? the answer is NO. humans have brains that are usually and most likely functional, and thus we have our personal opinions. if you wish to listen to things and lies that are pleasant to the ear, go ahead. but i won't give them to u, because i don't lie for no good reason. i can't say i haven't lied before, because i doubt one has never told a white lie.

1) i do not wish to go for study camp and i don't see the need to see u (i know you have this thinking though you haven't called for me)

2) seeing u makes me feel as if i'm pregnant (if you read between the lines, like how u're supposed to do, u'll get what i'm trying to say)

3) we have minds that have certain limits to rmb certain things, teachers have 1 main focused subject, we have 7/8/9/10. beat that.

4) why are teachers always allowed reasons and excuses while students are not allowed? "when we forget things we can go down and take, but when you forget things you're going to go home and take is it?!" -- quoted from a certain teacher
main point is: aren't u still forgetting something and wasting time? then, it goes on.. we don't have time to finish blablabla.. you have to come back for extra lessons (don't they ever realise sometimes they waste more time than we do??)

5) don't give me that arrogant face cos whenever i see u, my day is spoilt =.= if i do get points of the book, i don't see why u have to keep picking on me for not reading the whole book. Point is: events are roughly remebered.. who remembers exact quotes? when papers are set, books can be side by side with examiner, so obviousy they'll know the answer! ain't that common sense?

6) don't you just think in the modern world, humans are treated like robots? demands are there, told to do this and that, without complains. BUT aren't we made to have feelings, emotions, personal views & opinions? so why can't we express ourselves. you have your ways, we have our ways. i don't wanna be similar with you, thanks :)

7) i'm just venting out because the sudden feel of dropping to the ground level and losing my soul is approaching, or should i say it has arrived. i'm nagged @ by 10/11pm? that's freaking early and if i haven't completed my work by then, i'll be further nagged @. hello? don't they ever realise life's not so easy anymore? we can't sleep at like 8pm anymore? we have workloads piling up to the height of mt everest! be it in the working world or studying. won't one just feel exhausted? then fall ill, more work starts to pile. doesn't this just go in a cycle. maybe that's why ppl aren't living as healthily anymore.


i'm just kinda vexed and fed up or maybe stressed (nvr dared think that way cos no one will agree with me). sometimes i'll just break down without a reason.. scary. nvr happened, controlled my emotions for 15yrs. and i had to break down at this point of time. i get irritated with slight and small little things, no joke. i find it so irritating! irritated with myself even. why do i just feel sleepy at the sight of certain subjects. not like i can do anything about it. when i hate/dislike someone, it takes 10 000 yrs to change my mind, which means it will nvr happen cos by then i'd have turned into fossil fuels and being used at petrol for cars. or maybe by then, cars are no longer available but some humans with wings just like birds =.= or even better, teleporting devices.. within a sec reach to ur destination. what more can we say but conclude that rules imply:
humans = robots

*ppl who made rules and indulged in modernisation are mad. destroying earth with globalisation, geenhouse gases. destroying trees. WHY! trees are nice.. animals are nicer than humans. at least they don't harm u for no reason. they harm to survive, and we humans are the most cruel! we kill most animals, we eat whatever freak meat.. even snails! ants!
most final conclusion of humans: we are beasts, robots, blablabla

moodless

儅一個人失去信心，

你認爲他會做得更好嗎？

哎，不知道搞什麽，突然閒又酸的感覺。怎麽會在這個時候在部落格更新詞條 :/ 誰了以整個下午啦，什麽功課也沒做。死了啦。每天根本都沒心讀書，就因爲那些某某人s。。 有夠過分的，只以爲什麽事都是你對，雙方都有錯，何必多此一舉。如果你那麽空閒，爲何不能找別的事去做？ 別再煩我了啦！我已經被你們煩夠了！你們不覺得無聊我替你們感到無聊。我不像回到學校看到你們的臉，不可以嗎？直到每天要面對你們已經夠煩了，你還要我假期時回到學校給你們監督我讀書？就算我笨得再離譜，我沒那麽笨好不好。你們用腦想一想都知道，每個學生有自己的特色，爲何整天拿學生來比？這樣做你會快了一點嗎？無聊。
我快要崩潰了！


我真想見某某人，
也許他能讓我真正的微笑。。。

ANYWAY, here are the pics taken on 26th April :

look down on ppl? =.=

SO WHAT?

please luh.. so what if i'm going to study with a friend from a school somewhere around Jurong? DOES NOT MEAN SHE CANNOT HELP ME, DOES NOT MEAN SHE'S INFERIOR! =.= she's smart can? don't judge a book by its cover.. don't judge a person by the school he/she go to! i don't want to go for study camp so you should stop forcing me, and i don't see what rights you have to know my schedule if i don't want to give it to you. yes, you're just doing ur job so i'm TRYING not to make things difficult for you.

teacher: "you don't want to go for study camp uh?"
me: ya
teacher: ah why?
me: i'm having crash course with my math tutor within may to june
teacher: then from july onwards? you're not coming?
me: i don't think so
teacher: are you sure?
me: ya i'm studying with my friend
teacher: what friend
me: outside friend?
teacher: ya from where
me: other schools?
teacher: ya what school?
me: somewhere near Jurong?
teacher: hello this is scgs u know? u don't want to study with ur friends here and you want to study with someone outside? so you think ur friend from outside can help you excel and your sch mates cannot?
me: uh
teacher: u ask ur mum to send me ur schedule.. if not how am i suppose to answer
me: uh ok [ thinking to myself: =.= ]

=.= pls luh.. just because her school is not the so called "elite school", it doesn't say that she's not smart or what k. HAVE SOME BRAINS LUH. omg.. can humans not be so =.=
HUMANS = BEASTS