累

很累，很累

這幾個星期好累啊！什麽都不想管了，真無聊！哎，不講道理的認真多。。去吃大變啦！pek chek
搞什麽。不想想，但就想起來，真無奈。不管啦！你們想做什麽就去做吧。。隨你便

[ 歌曲：曙光

我还在想哪个方向
才能找到希望曙光
没有力量心情很慌
连问题都无法阻挡
我在想找方向希望的曙光
而你是我的翅膀
带我飞翔抚我伤
你是我的力量
赐我勇敢与刚强
我还在想哪个方向
才能找到希望曙光
没有力量心情很慌
连问题都无法阻挡
我在想找方向希望的曙光
而你是我的翅膀
带我飞翔抚我伤
你是我的力量
赐我勇敢与刚强

我在想找方向希望的曙光
而你是我的翅膀
带我飞翔抚我伤
你是我的力量
赐我勇敢与刚强

歌手：Tank ]

每當孤單的時候 望著那反方向的鐘
尋找那暗號讓我回到過去的生活。。
我们都看见结局在改变，
只是安静的听我埋怨不再赔着笑脸

現在只想著一個人。。
很想，很想
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見他。。。

misses

I MISS YOU.

I REALLY DO.
WILL . YOU . LET . ME . SEE . YOU . AGAIN...

SOON?

ahhh!! school will always be bad whenever i hear *** HAHA! whatever luh.. labour day tmr! not = rest, but = LABOUR :( study study study.. is all i hear from now. sigh. why is life just ??? so... practical. sad isn't it? AGREE WITH ME :) hah [since someone says i dictate what people should say to me]

wheee!! i haven't told my mum but i've decided not to go for study camp [i know my home phone will start ringing non-stop for some particular reason, but i don't care.. if i think i won't be able to study under that environment, i won't].. because, i doubt i'll be able to study in THAT ENVIRONMENT =.= i'd prefer to study on my own.. plus, i'm having a crash course in June! which will leave me no time for stupid study camp, which i don't think will be of much help. so... no study camp! self-discipline it shall be. i'll try my best :) KAY FUN LET'S WORK TOGETHER. YOU RAWK! :D okays.. i just felt like posting something and now i'm done.. i'll upload 26th April's photos SOON okays!!! SRRY!! :/

the day i see you again will be the day my heart truly smile again

FUCKED UP SCHOOL LIFE

THINGS SHALL JUST BE KEPT TO MYSELF :)

SCHOOL SERIOUSLY SUCKS LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN ALREADY. OKAY, FROM NOW ON, I'M NOT GOING TO COMMENT ON WHATEVER YOU SAY. OPINIONS WILL BE KEPT TO MYSELF. PERIOD. NOTHING MORE TO SAY.. WHATEVER SAID WILL BE WRONG ANYWAY.

CA1 nvr pass criteria and you give us the idea of "retaining sec 3". if you don't mean that way, then why after talking to my mum.. she sms me to say that if i don't do well i've to retain sec 3? even my mum interprets this way.. so she's wrong?! there's really nothing more to say.. just voicing out my opinions and such a huge reaction that i'm rude, i'm not facing reality blablabla. yea if i'm not facing reality, i won't be panicking for O levels NOW =.= you don't always have to show ppl how hardworking you are right? wtf. who doesn't want to do well? u right.. i'm sure. irritating luh.. just saying you shouldn't us to think of retaining and be more encouraging right? you don't have to be nice to encourage. you can be harsh while encouraging too you know! i don't dictate what ppl has to say to me.. i'm not in the position to, i don't see what makes you think so. and other ppl doesn't say anything about it doesn't mean i have to keep quiet like them.. though i thought i should have. so you can think u're always right blablabla. i'm sure u're not doing this for the benefit from the school, but i'm sure from most peoples' perspective, you are. CA1 not doing well, didn't clear straight in sec 3, means you think of retaining. not even asking us to aim for O levels or even prelims. just say, oh if you don't do well blablabla retain =.= so that's very nice? ppl will be encouraged or discouraged? u think twice. ppl will study harder or give up? think twice again. whatever u say, i've to agree.. if not i'm wrong. yea ok.. then there's no point asking questions right? say i won't voice out my opinions anymore, nonono it's not the attitude. THEN WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO? u think this game very fun isit? STANDING ALL ALONE ALL THESE WHILE, NOT BOTHERING MY PARENTS WITH LITTLE THINGS. HOW MUCH LONGER CAN A PERSON TOLERATE.. my tone was harsh, yes. i did apologise didn't i? so that wasn't enough? expect me to kneel down right? not even in ur dreams.. i'm not so low down to that extent. 37 points.. where to go.. i know it can bring me nowhere. so will think of slacking? you? some retarded question. "do you want to do well for Os?" DUH who doesn't. "what does good grades mean?" 7,8 points? "so how far are you from your aim" encouraging or discouraging? asking me to work on or give up since i'm -not up to caliba- i think i was kinda rude, but i did realise it in the end and apologise right? when one person is irritated, since when they'll speak in the right tone. speak for yourself, you won't be speaking in the right tone too. i don't mind the harshness, what haven't i heard before? but hello.. harsh in an encouraging way or harsh to ask us to give up. uh whatever.

whatever i say = wrong.
whatever i interpret = wrong.
I SHALL JUST LEARN TO KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF SO THAT ONE DAY I CAN JOIN IMH :)

ISN'T THERE ALWAYS A LIMIT TO A PERSON'S TOLERANCE?

If you're misunderstood, it's your fault.
If i'm misunderstood, it's my fault.
So we're both at fault.. why does everything seem to be MY fault? =.=

overdue stuffs.. hahaha

LIFE IS SHORT WITH UNFULFILLED DREAMS...

LIFE IS LONG WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE A DREAM...

Okays.. so this is going to be a long and wordy, but also full of pictures post. HAHA! I shall blog about many many things.
First, I just realised I have many pictures in my camera that i did not upload! cos i was lazy to :P so now, i owe many ppl many pictures.. lols. First picture taken with my camera was with Kailin :)

Met Michelle on 22nd FEB. LOL! This year i'm meeting them quite alot eh, i just realised most of my pictures taken are with Michelle and Shermaine! :) haha. Anw, i met them again on the 25th & 28th Feb (to celebrate their birthday), and again on 9th & 19th April! hahahah.. maybe we've met more, just that we didn't take pics so i don't remember! :/ yea went to sing, watch movie and stuff. Going out with them is fun! cos i get to disturb Shermaine :P

*there are lots more pics but.. i cant seem to upload them. facebook :)

Personal Mastery Workshop
Had personal mastery workshop on 26th and 27th Feb rmb.. i'm going to post pics up only. heh. oh yea, i saw Ken @ Bugis on Sunday.. lols.



SPORTS DAY!
i was so crazy ! lols practically went crazy throughout.. can ask Gloria. Think i posted on sports day before so i shall not be so long-winded. Pictures!!

I'm having NAPFA 2.4km run tmr! First lesson of the day!! :/ and I'm still aching from the 5 items :/ too unfit! i needa exercise!! heh. Kailin is going gymming with me! cos she's so skinny alr but she wants to lose her tummy.. which i don't see at all =.= she's mad.. agree with me :)

broke down :/

DO . YOU . KNOW . HOW . MUCH .

I . HATE . YOU .

School SUCKED yesterday.. so embarrassing, shall not think about it anymore. but then again, i can't get over it. what do you expect me to say? you already expect that answer so what more do i have to say.. argh =.= whatever luh huh. make me out to be the worse.. pick on me EVERY lesson. i still don't see the point in telling the whole class where i went after school. it's none of your business. rude, a little. but i was just so irritated ok? =.= i was signing YOUR marksheet.. fine, i've signed it alr right.. don't ask me to sign ur freaking stupid mark sheets. THERE IS SUCH A THING AS DO AND LISTEN AT THE SAME TIME. JUST LIKE HOW WE COPY NOTES AND LISTEN AT THE SAME TIME. WTH?! ARGH.
i seriously do not wish to see you again, but do i have a choice? :(

Thank You Miss Tan

haha!! haven't posted since last thur.. anw, had both english and chinese oral today. it's for prelims :/ i kinda screwed english oral up. chinese oral, hmm.. 躯 yes it's qu!~~ i guessed it correctly!! :) but it's not going to help my english oral marks =.= argh!! screwed CA1.. oh wells, O levels is all that matter right? I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT! :D shall end of here.. oh yea! sports day pics are not uploaded yet, lazy yo. heh :P byebye!

lols

haven't been posting. Oh wells, no mood bah :/ sigh.. this weeks finally not so bad. SS test on tuesday that's it! well, for my class chem girls :)

SCHOOL SUCKS!! :( so presurizing.. which only makes me feel like stop working and rest and relax all i can. ok fine, just an excuse. what choice do i have right? :( OH YA!! i went into the General Office (GO) to handup my edusave form yesterday, then LAN came in and Lyn greeted her.. then she saw me she went like "what are you doing here?" with the "what's ur problem" look =.= OMG SO SICKENING!! which P does that?! mine.. she smiled at Lyn somemore.. wtf?! i didn't even do anything to her pls. so pissing. anw, that pissed me frm that point of time till now. LOL!

Sports day today was just so BORING. yea BORING. nth much to do.. as usual, stay there and picnic. uh =.= yea grow fatter.. and i'm going to the movies l8r. okays.. gtg off soon to complete math homework (HAHA!! subj michelle hates most)
TOMORROW IS A HOLIDAY! i shall be happy for once? or shall i say i shall try to hold my happiness :)

bad mood?

sigh.. i've been so moody lately, wth! not like i want right.. ZzZ
just that, i don't even know my bloody feelings now luh huh... wth! i'm suppose to be studying yet i'm not absorbing anything. how's this going to work out man!!!! I'M SO PISSED OFF WITH MYSELF!!! >:( wth.. geog test tmr, going to re-study 4 chapters cos i don't rmb anything =.= and what's the time now?! 21:38pm.. how am i going to finish 4 chapters. and it's AFTER BREAK. but, it seems like i've no break cause there's chem test on fri. wth?! O levels suck like mad luh.. i really don't feel like doing anything but i don't have a choice. sigh...

disappointed

I'M SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT :(

hate my mood these few days

Oh man.. have been so moody. sucks totally!! Had math test today and i screwed the last part up cos i thought what was right was wrong.. so what i could have drawn wasn't drawn in. DAMN! have chem SPA practical day after tmr, followed by e-lit on mon then geog on tue (4 chapters to study =.=) then chem on fri. wtf!!!! my time is so bloody packed can.. bloody hell. school sucks, the teachers suck even more. my school teachers are wth crappy i swear! damn them... fine luh, to you, i may not be putting in enough effort. but if all 7 subjects teachers want me to put in the same amount of effort for every single subject, i'll probably be dead by now. there's a limit to a person's patience and tolerance of one thing. if you can flare up, so can we.. so don't push us to a corner. there's a reason for everything, i don't like to speak up, can? it's my character.. what's wrong with not talking in class.. i don't bloody get it. don't talk, you guys complain we don't respond. talk too much, you guys complain we're too noisy. can you guys please not be so demanding?! fuck.

SO WHAT IF THE SY GIRLS CAN DO SO MUCH BETTER THAN US?! EACH AND EVERY PERSON IS DIFFERENT IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.. THEIR BRAINS CAN REMEMBER STUFF BETTER THAN US, HAPPY? 讀死書是沒有用的。書是死的，人是活的。 you guys might have had a hard time while you were studying, but what you guys studied were much easier as well. and now, while setting the papers, don't you guys have ur formula sheets with you?! don't you guys have your "txtbk" with all the contents inside while coming up with the answer scheme?! wtf.. have some understanding will you, we're not machinese nor robots, we're HUMANS just like you are. or maybe u guys are not.. being able to come up with such ridiculous questions. you guys are adults, gone through much.. have we? NO =.= bloody hell.. i need to vent out man. dammit.

think i'm not hurt?

sometimes we need to think about what we have to say.. if we give out our point of views, we might be at the losing end. perhaps it's better to keep quiet and go with the flow. but is that what we really want? sometimes people don't wish to have the negative points of a certain thing to be pointed out.. but sometimes these have to be pointed out in order to have improvements. yes, we might sound as if we're against it.. but if you want us to be able to accept and understand your point of view, we hope that you will do the same to our point of view. it does not always mean that when a certain person stands out to speak, everything will be settled. it's not easy to say or do anything.. once a promise is made, you have to bring it out and it won't be easy. don't always think as though someone is going against you when nobody is. you can say that you're hurt.. so by saying those stuff and adding on a certain person says more stuff.. you think we won't be hurt? of course we'll be. but then.. i'm quite certain things won't end here, when things get out of hand, only then one will regret. that's when things aren't carried out the correct way.. i'm quite disappointed in u. there's nothing i can say.

儅一個人清醒的時候，也許已經太遲了。。。

march hols

WHEEEE!!! LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY! HAPPY & sad :/
HAPPY BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL DUH! :D but sad cos our movie marathon was cancelled thanks to _____ =.= so irritating! URGH

anyway, i must say lessons today was kinda fun cos all the teachers (at least most of) were looking forward to the end of the day. chem lesson wasn't really a lesson today. LOL! so rare yea.. i know ^^ Mrs Logan went through QA then halfway or like 3/4 of the lesson Yenhua said something to Shuwen so as usual, Logan commented and went on with multiple stories. THEY WERE SO FREAKING FUNNY!!! THE BOY ROLLING AND JUST SO HAPPEN REACH THE START OF THE STAIRS :O he could have died or injured himself :/ because why, the teacher threw him out of class cos he was saying all the curse words and the teacher was a muslim and couldn't stand it. hahahahha.. and the funny thing was, the boy told his mother about it but his mother went "GOOD! ASK YOUR TEACHER TO DO SOMEMORE" damn hilarious i tell you!

then during geog Ms Goh didn't really irritate me except for the part that she kept wanting me to stay back and complete her homework.. but since like the whole class didn't have it, we could hand up on mon during remedial :)

after school supposed to have ss remedial cos Ms Tan wanted to return our test papers but... MS TAN HAS YET TO RETURN OUR SS TEST PAPERS cos SHE HASN'T FINISH MARKING and SHE SAID SHE WILL DURING REMEDIAL SLOT TODAY! she said she's proven a liar.. the whole class heard it! :P SO... in the end we didn't have remedial. LOL :D and and.. it was so funny cos Yenhua tried to run away but Ms Tan was coming in her direction. HAHA!!

Had peer mentoring after that.. oh my the scholars discuss funny stuffs that made me laugh so much. butbut, it was kinda fun.. and i realise.. scholars DO have a life afterall. they actually have idols! :O i found that out today.. heh.

now i have like 3-4 sets of work due on mon. hehe.. oops! :P

quiz from Naomi!

Tagged by NAOMI to do this quiz.

1.What is your full name?
Olivia Celine Loo Yun Jing

2.Do u like your name?
duh! it's MY name?

3.How long do you like the person u currently like?
erm.. as long as i lived

4.Have you kissed anyone before?
YEA DUH! :D

5.Did you cry today?
nope.. for no reason? mad

6.What were you doing at 8am this morning?
having PE

7.What were you doing an hour ago?
Watching TV and on the net :/

8.What are you currently doing now?
this quiz? ain't it obvious?

9.Who last texted you?
erm... Gao Bin

10.Have you told someone I love you today?
YEA! :D

11.Are you missing anyone now?
DUH! i miss people EVERYDAY :(

12.Any plans for tomorrow?
study?

13.What was the reason the last time u cried?
touched? regrets? into deeper thinking?

14.Any one you want to be with right now?
YES

15.Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with 's'?
YES :D

16.Name anyone who made you smile today.
OLIVIA :)

17.Name someone whos name starts with 'z'.
Zeshan!

18.Which friend of yours stay near you?
My red friend

19.Do you prefer to call or text?
depends on the info i'm going to deliver

20.Do you prefer today or yesterday?
i prefer days where i don't have to study (impossible)

21.Can you live a day without hp or television?
erm.. no

22.Are you mad at anything now?
maybe.. i don't know

23.Do you think relationship is worth it?
it all depends on each relationship..

24.Who is the last person you visited in hospital?
Dad's fren who gave birth to a really cute baby?

25.Who gave you the last and second hug?
last hug = my mum
second hug = how am i suppose to remember?! it should have been way back when i was a baby right? how would i know.. silly question

26.What is the last message in your hp says?
erm.. regarding peer mentoring. lols

27.Do you hate anyone?
i guess not hate but just don't wish to have interaction with :/

28.Who was the last person you called?
returning a miss call from pet lovers

Tag 5 people to do this quiz.
1. Kaileng
2. Zeshan
3. Lyn Tan
4. Khoo Kailin
5. Jo Yee

haha i look so fierce! :/

i'm OBESE!!! :'(

天灰

OMG!!! I just received this letter today to say that i'm _____ :( I'M FREAKING SAD!!!! I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT (ok this makes the blank look obvious but i don't care luh) AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Friday after school went to dad's salon and washed my hair again cos i was too lazy to do it myself :P after that went to god bro's resturant opening! the food there is nice ok :D one day see if i can organise some stuff there. hehe. then after that went to Nat. C's house to do geog project.. so funny! halfway through somewhere at 4am we SOS-ed Ms Goh! LOL! we finished like 1/2 of the project. oh speaking about geog, during geog today Ms Goh did the usual chasing of work again.. HAHA! butbut.. she won't let us bring home our work to do! ARGH. and we had to re-arrange our files today cos it wasn't what she wanted. and like, i filed it ACCORDINGLY and because she wanted the summarised copy of Green Revolution and Blue Revolution infront of the whole set of BR & GR notes, she made a fuss out of it =.= ok that got me so irritated cos it was only ONE piece! which doesn't make that much of a difference even if it was left behind the BR notes. MS GOH WANTS ME TO STAY BACK DURING RECESS TO DO MY GEOG TMR.. wth?! but it'll help me lose weight cos i won't get the chance to eat :) actually i will.. she allow us to eat in class =.=

went to swim at Michelle's house on sat! :) but didn't swim alot this time round.. the water was too cold! we went after the rain stopped so yea. then she came over to my house after that and after she went home, something happened :/ O_o Sunday = guilty. cos i didn't really study for SS test and SS was FIRST period today :O damn.. but i think i can borderline pass if Ms Tan is lenien? I hope she'll be :)

Monday is the worst of the 5 days as usual, all 7 subjects. man.. got back chinese test today.. KANASAI! did so badly :( then during geog Ms Goh kinda irritated the whole class with small things that she pick at. LOL! chem was fine.. maybe cos i wasn't totally focused. heh :/ chem spa test first week of term 2.. sigh. AHHHH ok i shall not blabber on.. i got to do work which i'll do like don't know how long l8r so i got to stop blogging now. haha!

enrichment + kaileng's 21st! :)

Enrichment Week

Had some "personal mastery" aka superteens workshop on thur and fri. It benefits quite a bit i guess... something happened on the first day, the wrong approach was used to some ppl. cos some girls still can't "accept" which was what we were supposed to do, so that we can move on. oh whatever, it's over it's over :)

Second day was quite cool.. at the end we were taught to sleep, but it kinda didn't work. LOL! cos everyone was laughing :P anyway, this programme was quite fruitful in one way or another. well, at least to me :)

Friday! went for Kaileng's 21st celebration at club sake.
Just received the pictures from Ryan yesterday but i was too tired.. so i'm blogging now! :)
I shall let the pictures do the talking.. as the saying goes " a picture speaks a thousand words" so... :)

Present from _____ (annonymous)

my day yesterday will be in the next post~