true friend?

SINCE SHE SAY SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT HER, WHAT GOT HER SO AFFECTED ANYWAY? YOU CAN LET HER READ THIS.. WHATEVER =.= WHO ELSE READS RAH BLOG.. THESE PEOPLE, THANKS FOR LETTING JOEY CHAN KNOW THIS. IT JUST SHOWS THAT SHE CARES ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT HER, SO JOEY, PLEASE DO NOT DENY IT. JUST WANNA LET YOU KNOW DON'T BE SO KAYPO, DON'T ASSUME SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T TALK TO YOU WILL TALK TO YOU OUT OF A SUDDEN. COS IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW, YOU LIKE "SCOLDED" ME. FOR NO REASON? WHY CAN'T I SCOLD YOU BACK? YES, IT'S WRONG.. BUT WHEN SOMEONE IS ANGRY EVERYTHING COMES OUT. EVERY HUMAN IS LIKE THAT.

IF YOU READ THE TAGBOARD YOURSELF WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SAY SO? DON'T PUT WORDS INTO ANYONE'S MOUTH PLEASE =.=
FUCKING PEOPLE SHOULD DISAPPEAR FROM MY SIGHT.. SERIOUSLY NOTE THAT I DO NOT NEED YOU IN MY LIFE. HAVE I MADE MYSELF CLEAR? I HOPE I HAVE.. STAY CLEAR OF ME!!!! SOMEONE LET HER KNOW I'VE WRITTEN THIS, LEST SHE THINKS I'M BACK STABBING HER =.=

say one thing but do another

說一套做一套？
有些人口口聲聲說自己不在乎人家批評它，也不在乎被人家講。但就確實在維護自己。。如果不覺得你是別人所說的，爲何要被影響？開始我有生氣，但還是算了吧。。越想越覺得它不是在講我，所以沒關係啦。哈哈。好了，講點別的。

說點開心的！

今天早上大約九點多起身吧。。讓后就像平時一樣賴床。哈哈！大約十一點多才用電腦。。然後下樓想寫卡，但沒心情，也不知怎麽搞的。就沒寫，跟媽媽去烏節路了。然後四點多去見朋友拿錢，就向 Sembawang 前進！俊雄的 Gathering，當然很開心，已經很久沒看到他了。他生病了 :(
但是他還是來了，我們都很感動。因爲他發高燒，高到四十、四十多渡。就因爲不要讓我們失望，他還是來了。真得很開心也很感動。現在大家都希望 黃俊雄早日康復！要多休息，把自己照顧好！生病啊！誰也不想要的。早日康復！！我們期待早點再看到活力活潑的黃俊雄 :)

現在正期待 2008年12月31日

don't ASSUME

ASS-U-ME

just wanna tell some people, stop assuming luh. it makes and ASS out of YOU and ME. what makes you think i want to talk to you huh? don't extra can. JOEY CHAN. LOL!! you can't read my blog so too bad.. and i know your ear is so red now. STOP THINKING THAT PEOPLE WANT TO TALK TO YOU.. i know him, cannot talk to him meh? i must talk to you meh? SINCE WHEN DID I EVER TALK TO YOU IN THAT WAY? or shall i say SINCE WHEN I TALK TO YOU ONLINE? i can count the number of times [like 1 or 2? =.=] we talked and we only said "hi" and "bye" which is not really talking too. LOL!!! please think twice before you post something luh huh :) not in a good mood today and u come talk to me in that tone? FUCK OFF :) i'll be really glad.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=632448358&ref=name#/photo.php?pid=1231637&id=645772970&ref=mf

whoever is going to that link.. do i seem like i'm talking to joey? DO I FUCK CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT HER? uh like NO =.= she's like so used to ppl scolding her and stuff cos she knows she have to live with it if not she'll suffer every single milli-sec. HAHAHA!! ok fine, i'm mean but whatever.

stupid tuition teacher, "my phone is downstairs" =.= i know you stay in the room for less than 30min and you confirm will check your phone so don't give that excuse please. yes, it's my fault for not pressing the door bell but you reply my message 3hours later? what crap is that =.= teachers giving lame excuses? then don't complain about us giving unacceptable excuses :)

hoodie

went bugis to sing today from 11am-6pm with Amigo. freaking cheap i tell u! hahas.. $16 7hours, plus free flow of drinks :) anw, had fun and tired too.. singing for 7hours =.= LOL! went over to bugis street after that to look for hoodies, found one. they're like having some sales luh.. one section all the shops are madness.. so many $10 stuff. i got my hoodie for $10! design okok.. but nvm luh. was choosing between grey+black and white+green.. then took white+green and changed to grey+black after that. then now i'm regretting =.= and i'm going down to change the colour tmr. hope still have :/ aish! and i have tuition tmr.. shucks. as usual, no homework done. LAZY luh. heh. nth else to post luh... still regretting :(


[white pls be available :/]

小娘惹

小娘惹連續播兩集！

Woke up like after every hour today =.= something wrong with my body clock? lols. first was 9plus then 10 plus then 11plus and so on =.= till 1plus then i decided not to go back to sleep cos then i'll oversleep for tuition again! then went to prepare and then my dad told me to wait for him cos he was going down to the shop. yea.. on the way to tuition Joyee msged me if wanna go out, then i told her can't cos of tuition.. unless after that and yeap we met up. FORGOT 小娘惹連續播兩集！today luh.. omg! i missed so many episodes and i might miss tmr's as well :(
i feel like watching but i'm missing soooo many thousand episodes. ok 誇張 but whatever :P

went with Joyee to look for jacket, but couldn't find one. found one that costs $40 and it's kinda not worth it so didn't buy. lols. did nth much today luh.. i need to lose weight! :) going to sleep soon.. nitez!!

[edited] -16th dec

omg i'm feeling super sad now.. i forgot got Elvin's event on mon luh! wth is wrong with me mans.. F*** argh!! vivo.. vivo...vivo....vivo.....vivo!!! should have gone down to vivo on monday luh.. WTH!!! !($&#@ _$(&!T$ R_$(&@#

blogshops

THINKING OF OPENING A BLOGSHOP.

SHOULD I?

might open a blog shop.. but most likely after Os or something. or maybe i won't open.. just supply ppl stuff. anw, my blog is no longer locked.. might lock it again sometime l8r. don't know yet. anw, just wanna warn you guys about some blogshops if you wanna do online shopping. i've blacklisted 2 blogshops, do take note :) these are the only 2 i've ordered from and i've met with problems. i'm not sure if they can still be trusted, so just take note yea?

nth much to blog nowadays.. no mood to blog either. know that i need to complete my homework, but i'm not touching them. aish! haven't eaten since i woke up, my stomach is growling already. haha. bye!

Aish

I NEED YOU, TO GUIDE MY PATH.

YOUR SAY MEANS ALOT TO ME..

WHATEVER HAPPENS,

I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU.

YES, YOU.

i'm feeling so lost i don't even have a clear view of my own feelings on the inner side. this is really bad, something affected my mood and i don't know what did. haiz.. why was it after that i feel so bad? i really wish i could do something, i'm loving emo songs more and more.. i don't know, they just seem to fit into my life. is that what i want? i don't know.. i need more light shining towards my days ahead, i need to see clearly what's ahead of me. i don't wish to go on like that. i'm missing people, many people. i'm missing alot of things.. many, many things. i'm not working towards my aims.. what's with me? sigh. i feel so stressed suddenly, i feel like breaking down, right now. but i can't. wish i could cry my heart out.. but i can't. i wouldn't want to be seen this way. i need to get things right, i need to know myself. maybe a mirror would help me see myself clearly? :/ I DON'T KNOW :(

anw, went to IMM to meet and chat with Doreen for a while then headed to Jurong Point after that to meet Ming Hui to pass him his dvd. yeap, 想你的時候 had promo at Jurong Point. Joshua, Peifen and Chiong Fang jie was there. hmm.. Dasmond didn't go cos he had filming. ya.. Dad's fren filmed this show, so was standing nxt to him.. then suddenly Joshua appeared behind me :O man he looked 10X better than in the show :)

reached home, realised my sis liked Dai Yantian too.. she's going gaga over him =.= he's kinda good looking i admit, but he's not one of the best inside like my sis said O_o she's blind :P

i'm looking forward to Elvin's gathering, but no personal camera is allowed = no candid shots. well, haven't seen him in a long time.. looking forward to a fun gathering. Hope my mood gets better...

I miss _____ and _____.

will you let me pour my grieves to you?

overslept :/

OVERSLEPT? :/

omg i swear it's so :/ i slept at 5am this morning right.. and add on i was having cold, then norm when i'm sick i'll wake up later than usual. so... i woke up at 3.30pm today! O_o i was late for tuition alr, so then i msged mr lim if i could go on sunday instead.. but he said it wasn't nice to change lesson last min so i went for tuition in the end. yupp! i'm fine with whatever luh.. if he's ok we're just going to end l8r :/ I feel kinda bad, cos it's like my second time late for tuition.. i was late ytd cos i was doing his work. HAHA! Oops!
anw, i've nothing else to post! bye!

long day

FEELING LOST? MIXED FEELINGS? UNHAPPY,

BUT DON'T KNOW WHY?

haiz.. dunno wtf is this lor. this feelings just suck! i don't know how to describe it but i guess some will know. like Doreen. HAHA! was telling each other we were bored on msn.. then was saying so sian, mixed feelings kind.. and we were both feeling THE SAME WAY. omg :/ the feeling sucks ok. Rah will know too, cos sometimes she experience it as well. sigh. anw, was telling Doreen we should try going out together one day, then she went " I know you want to date me right" HAHA!! yea luh yea luh.. date :P nth wrong what, as friends^^

argh.. hate this feeling ok. my holiday is so screwed, in the sense that i'm starting to worry about my homework! they're NOT TOUCHED :/ i have that whole pile, and i haven't really studied for progressive test. sigh.. this sucks. HOLIDAY? when? i'm having tuition every alternate day now. But i'm kinda ok with it, somehow. I have like Os next yr, what can i do? haiz.. i'm going to make it for Os! i'm going to try my best :)

I need to start on my homework! my schedule is kinda full till after 18th! haha :P

later today [12/12] - tuition

tmr [13/12] - own plans

sun [14/12] - ??

mon [15/12] - tuition

tue [16/12] - own plans

wed [17/12] - tuition

thur [18/12] - GATHERING! :D

mon [22/12] - chinese camp

tue [23/12] - chinese camp

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ok not very full.. tuition occupies most of my time - every alternate day! and it's at katong. HAH so far right.. but he's not bad, so yup :)

anw, i need new songs! like emo ones are a better choice ^^ if have can send me? TY!! :D gtg now, it's freaking 5.43am now. HAHA! and i'm not very sleepy but i HAVE TO sleep cos i have tuition at around 2pm or 2.30pm l8r and i still have abit left of work to do. yeap!

GOOD NIGHT! :)

下一个天亮。。。

下一个天亮？

用起伏的背影 擋住哭泣的心
有些故事 不必說給 每個人聼
許多眼睛 看得太淺太近
錯過我沒被看見 那個自己

用簡單的言語 解開超載的心
有些情緒 是該說給 懂的人聼
你的熱淚 比我激動憐惜
我發誓要更努力更有勇氣

等下一個天亮去上次牽手賞花那裏散步好嗎
有些積雪會自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂
等下一個天亮把偷拍我看海的照片送我好嗎
我喜歡我飛舞的頭髮
和漂著雨還是眺望的眼光

用簡單的言語 解開超載的心
有些情緒 是該說給 懂的人聼
你的熱淚 比我激動憐惜
我發誓要更努力更有勇氣

等下一個天亮去上次牽手賞花那裏散步好嗎
有些積雪會自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂
等下一個天亮把偷拍我看海的照片送我好嗎
我喜歡我飛舞的頭髮
和漂著雨還是眺望的眼光

時間可以磨去我的稜角
有些堅持卻永遠磨不掉
請容許我 小小的驕傲
因爲有你這樣的依靠

等下一個天亮去上次牽手賞花那裏散步好嗎
有些積雪會自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂
等下一個天亮把偷拍我看海的照片送我好嗎
我喜歡我飛舞的頭髮
和漂著雨還是眺望的眼光


正在等着在自己人生里也许不会出现的天亮。。

haiz...

I SERIOUSLY HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY.. FREAKING MOODY LUH HUH.. ARGH!! THIS FEELING SUCKS! TOTALLY SUCKS LUH!!!!!! Don't know why, i'm just more pissed off and moody than before :/
If you don't like ppl controlling you then don't control me? =.= i don't like it too :) i'm already very super annoyed so maybe you should consider not talking to me when i don't feel like talking at all? i need peace, seriously need peace.

我恨过着提心吊胆的日子！每当你们一大声讲话，我就会觉得发生了什么事。我需要过这宁静的生活。你们痛苦，我们就不痛苦吗？我讲过了，你们过着大人的生活受苦，我们却牺牲了童年。。那公平吗？同年对将来有很大的影响那你不知道吗？算了，说什么也没用。还能做什么，只能藏着心事，说出来如果听不爽又要受更大的折磨和委屈。十五年来我受够了，我们都受够了。。也许你们不了解，但我觉得我们比你们更痛苦。也许我是错的，我也不知道。人类总是要失去了才懂得珍惜。。等到有一天，真的后悔也来不及了。明天会发生什么事，我们都不知道。。最好是结束痛苦 :)
can i say i've been living in hell? :/

so am i not stressed too?!

Fucking hell.. don't keep saying you're stressed and you guys have suffered for 20yrs. PLEASE, you're fucking going through the adult life as you suffer.. you're making US suffer our childhood. Just end it now luh huh.. what the fuck. It repeats again and again, it'll never end. What's the point?! Are you guys happy? You think we're happy?! You're stressed, you think we're not?! Doesn't make sense at all! If you can be stressed hearing quarrels amongst ourselves and you're not even involved, you think we don't feel the same way?! Yours is much worst, i promise. What the hell luh, we don't care anymore you know? Do whatever you want.. just don't pick up sharp objects or whatever, how is it going to solve the problem? You think this is so fun is it? We don't find it fun ok.. if this were to happen again and again, and you don't even think or consider our feelings, you shouldn't have gun shot us. Seriously. You might not think you're unreasonable, but we can't voice it out cause you don't agree. Just think it through, no one is right all the time. Admit to your mistakes, don't always think you've no mistakes. Mistakes exist is each and everyones' lives. Just end this fucking thing alright, it's not some childs' play and it's not some funny thing. It freaking affects us alright. You suffered, yes, but did you suffer your childhood? Even if you did, did you suffer it in the same way? NO. You guys have completely destroyed 4 childhood lives. Even if you don't think this way, it's a fact. You guys don't know how we feel, you guys only care about how you yourself feel. So you think it's fair? So you think you're not being unreasonable? When we say something is unreasonable, you come down on us indirectly forcing us to tell you you're not unreasonable. You think you're right in all ways, you're both at fault.. no one is right and no one is wrong. It is just fucking unfair to us, but you don't think so. Yes, you provide for us.. it's your duty since you made that decision. If you were unwilling and will use this on us whenever this happens, you should have just sent us to the orphanage. At least we don't have to suffer all these crap. 4 of us don't give a damn anymore, i will tear only because of stress and only because there's nothing else i can do but vent out this way. If i voice my opinion, you will come down on me again. Whatever fuck it is luh, just end this fucking thing ok?! This is fucking irritating i can't tolerate it anymore. If you can't, what makes you think we can?

My life is just so fucking screwed up. I NEED PEACE.
FUCKERS HAVE TO LEARN TO LEAVE!!! I DON'T NEED FUCKERS IN MY LIFE BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING IRRITATING TO HAVE FUCKERS AROUND YOU. FUCK OFF!!! I DON'T FUCKING NEED YOU IN MY LIFE!!!

8days car boot sale!

Sat went for tuition at around 3pm.. then went with Elizabeth and Meiling to look out for the next gathering location they're planning. Not really going to be involved cos of school work. yupp. Nth much happened lor.. boring life :(

Sunday came!! woke up at 10plus.. then prepared to go out for the 8days car boot sale at big splash! didn't bring camera.. nvr brought camera with me ever since my mum's camera became sot. LOL! Elvin donated a koala, jacket and a pair of shoes. Audrey bought the koala at $5 and the other 2 items are at slient bidding starting from $100 each :O good to see Elvin again! can't wait for 18th dec to come.. hope i can bring a camera this time so i don't have to borrow ppl's cam :/ and my phone is useless cos it has no flash and no zoom =.=
Here are some pics Xueting sent me :)

After that went to meet Rah at far east.. cos i didn't feel like going home so early :/ then she ate from "full house", it's something like hong kong cafe.. yupp. not bad luh.. she ate wanton and i ate 2, heh^^ went over to "SLICE" and i tried a new flavour, nice! :) then went upstairs to eat chicken rice.. LOL! i added too much chilli, it was so freaking spicy! :/ nvm.. walked over to taka cos Rah felt like reading. She bought twilight and i bought this giant sudoku book with 1000puzzles in it. It was rather cheap so decided to buy :D it was like $18.05? some other books with like 201puzzles cost $10.59 =.= so it's counted cheap isn't it? ;D and wth!! Jiaxi tagged on his blog that he was at taka shopping with his bro and mum YESTERDAY! why i nvr bump into him :(

Woke up at 9plus today cos my alarm kept ringing, but keep going back to sleep cos i slept at 5am this morning =.= Supposed to meet Rah, Amigo and Elizabeth for ktv at 10.30 but the whole thing was cancelled cos it was freaking raining :( Nvm lor.. another time with better weather. haix.. now i feel like drinking bubble tea from KOI Cafe. maybe i'll go over to toa payoh l8r :)

happy birthday the twins!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAXI AND CHENGXI! :D
yeap! wanna wish Jiaxi and Chengxi a very happy birthday and may all their wishes come true. :)
next, my internet was down so i couldn't come online and now i wanna update alot.. so prepare for this long post.

Jiaxi's gathering photos!! not all..

Went to 1PR class reunion at island creamery yesterday.. nice meeting ms Chong again! She's married and hopes to have a baby :) Chit Chat for a while, then ms Chong wanted to go back to school. Took a grp pic then left for home and prepared to go out for lunch with my family! Went to novena square 2 and ate at old Hong Kong, level 2. The food there is nice!! but the shark's fin tasted wierd yesterday :/ The avocado desert was good! i have a pic!!

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Waited till my dad and his friends finished chatting the left to united square mcdonals for Chengxi's mini gathering.. go down a while lor.. yupp. Left at arnd 5.30 after taking grp pic with Jiaxi and Chengxi. Here are the pics :)

i was the photographer! :)
Jiaxi was the photographer! :)

Chengxi was the photographer! :)
LOL!!

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Sent them off then took train to cine to meet Rah after her work.. met Grace too :) good to see her again after so long.. i was like super early so i went to Craftinbox to look at the designs first. Rah was late today.. haha so rare man :P Grace came earlier than her. hehe^^ Had pasta mania and the cook wasn't rlly good :/ then they had some banana pizza desert from pasta mania too. Walked over to far east cos Rah needed to buy new shoes. LOL!! *something happened :P* then went over to "SLICE" and Rah ate her mango ice again. I didn't eat cos i didn't feel like eating :/ left for home after that.. and in the train we were laughing really hard. there was this couple, and the guy put his hand on the girl's thigh but the girl shifted his hand to the butt. like wth =.= i took a pic.. it was so funny!! should have video-ed cos he was patting her butt.. LOL! ok nvm.. stupid Rah, 没有形象on the train. HAHA!! here's the photo:

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ok! going off now, actually there's more to update but i can't rmb.. and my stupid internet is like on and off, my msn keeps signing out on its own.. irritating! :(

Jiaxi's gathering

JIAXI'S BIRTHDAY GATHERING


yeap! today was the gathering! :D nice seeing Jiaxi again after SO LONG ^^ was kinda fun i guess? hehe.. i hope it is. i can't say much luh.. cos i had a share in organising :P everything went smoothly and i'm glad with it. Had feedbacks that it was fun and good.. thanks! :) But i'm sure there's room for improvement right? must tell me ok! :D Really glad that things turned out fine and everyone had fun, or should i say most? :/ HAHA!! some time in between i wanted to go toilet then Rah came out with me.. then something happen till we laugh like mad. Rah still threaten me wan tell Jiaxi :/ CANNOT AH!! RAH CANNOT TELL AH!! :P between both of us only ok?! :D TY!! ^^

Of course, made new friends and found some quite 谈得来的, like stephanie. hehe^^ Wanna say thanks to those who made it a point to come down and celebrate Jiaxi's birthday for him ok! :D Really, without you guys the gathering wouldn't have been a success! Thanks alot! Hope you guys didn't regret coming ok? :D and hope you guys enjoyed to the fullest! Also, wanna thank Jiaxi for sacrificing his sleep and coming down for the gathering. Without him, this gathering wouldn't have been a success too! So, i wanna thank all who was present at the gathering today! :D Thanks a million!!

Hope this gathering is an unforgettable one ok?! :D

Didn't bring camera today so i only have some pictures that Rah sent me. The others, have to wait :)

Some that i took with my dears! The group photo and the photo i take with Jiaxi i'll post up when i get them ok? :)

going to sleep soon.. slept at 5am and woke up at 7plus am.. getting tired after a long fun day. GD NIGHT!