school today..

woke up early at like 4plus am today.. i don't know what for also. but i fell asleep again and woke up at 5plus. went to prepare for sch @ around 6.30-6.40am. HAHA!! :P

when i went to school fine.. but felt as though i was falling sick. true enough, i started sneezing since after recess until now =.= hate this stupid thing.. i can't do my work properly! and if i don't do it by tmr, i'm going to die. SERIOUSLY DIE! :/ first plans was to get my new school shoes b4 i came home and work on my homework.. BUT now no mood alr :(

sch was boring.. as usual. but today spent quite some time laughing in class. HAHA!! Yenhua is such a joker :P (Weiyee knows why*winks*) nth much happened except yenhua saying some stupid stuff and making us laugh.. then during chinese lao shi sent yenhua to the back of the class cos both of us kept laughing. (i was going to be the next one sent to "isolation corner") LOL!!

anw, sch was quite slack for me today.. BUT i'm going to die for geog. wasn't listening during lecture today. HAIZ!! i had other things to do that was freaking URGENT! and geog can self study.. oh well. i HAD to sacrifice one.. of course, GEOG! the one that is driving me nuts. geog lecture wasn't so bad today.. i must give credits to chinese ;)

WE WERE THE FIRST GROUP!! surprising! :P

okays! i'm going to go sleep for a while before i do my geog TYS questions later! tataz!!
`WAH!! i hate being accused lah! FREAKS!! *URGH*

but.. I JUST REALISED MY MOOD ISN'T SO BAD TODAY :)




BORED! =.=


countdown:
1) Geography -- 8days; 7days left to study
2)Add math -- 16days; 15days left to study
3)Chemistry -- 17days; 16days left to study
4) SS -- 31days; 30days for study

-快要崩潰的我上-

useless

突然覺得好失望，好失望。。也不知道爲什麽。 哎。。失落的感覺超級不好受的，但他卻一直接近我、纏住我。爲什麽？！我快要崩潰了！

轉話題，但還是不開心的。現在真的覺得自己是個廢物！。。。

*儅一個人獨自享受自己的空間的時候，他就會像很多很多。想到不開心的事時就會掉淚，想到開心事是也會掉淚，但是快樂的淚。快樂的淚和傷心的淚差的遠了，開心的淚充滿了期待，傷心的淚充滿了刺痛。我現在的淚水，充滿了刺痛。。我再次失去了方向。這幾天心情不好，也不知道是爲什麽，自己也感到莫名其妙。。
心被傷到，時間，是最好的藥物。但是在廖傷的這段期間又受到傷害，心情會更槽。
學業很重要，生活的快樂不重要嗎？儅一個人不快樂的時候，很多事情是可以發生的。。就看几時。快樂是什麽？我好像越來越不了解了。。我只明白壓力，恐懼。社會上，考試的結果真的那麽重要嗎？有時候，成績不是一切，儅一個人明白事理的時候，並不代表他需要用回答問題的方式表達。沒有半個人是完美的，追求完美的儅兒也該懂得享受。有了成績，沒有了推動力，一切還是一場空。

我怎麽莫名其妙地說了這些話？不想再説下去了，沒心情。
`拜拜！

block tests

decided to start counting down for my block tests coming up..

1) Geography -- 9 days, 8 days left to study :/
2) Additional Mathematics -- 17 days, 16 days to study O_o
3) Chemistry -- 18 days, 17 days for study :(
4) Social Studies -- 32 days, 1 month to study

2 main subjects concerned, Geography and Chemistry :/ nvr did well in geography.. chem's results dropped ALOT! :(
1st paper: 29/35
2nd paper:22/35
3rd paper:17/35 (hate seperation techniques! do i have a choice? =.=)
from an A to FAIL!! O_O WTH!!! :(

Add math and SS still not so bad.. hope things won't change :) anyway, haven't completed my geog tys and if i don't complete now, i have to do at least a few more questions before i die tmr :/ b'cos i have geog tutorial on tue and lecture tmr. OMG!! i realised GEOG is the subject that IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!! i'm pressurized by this stupid subject :(
unhappy with CA1 results cos they weren't gd.. the only gd thing was i didn't fail anything. thnx to geog project.. but i think this time geog project is super screwed :/ i know CA2's results going to be worse :(

-OLIVIA NEEDS TO WORK HARDER :)

taken by Shuwen, when i went studying with her on 3rd feb'o8

-it's time for mugging-

woke up at 5plus am this morning.. then nvr go back to sleep ;) went to finish up Jia Xi's yahoo group.. GO JOIN!! :D

went to meet Rah for movie after that. at first say meet 11am.. then 10am i haven't prepare, and i know i rubber time.. so change meeting time to 11.15am. BUT late again.. heh. i reached later than 11.30 :/ oops! Rah keep suan-ing me.. say she used to it le. i feel damn bad.. cos of ALL the times i meet her, i only waited for her 1-2 times.. all the other times she wait for me de :/ hahaha.. OOPS! =x

anyway, we went to watch GET SMART. haha.. it's nice! :D and FUNNY! worth the price lah.. though it'd be more worth it if i watched on weekdays, but have sch :( in between went to look for school shoes but halfway no mood :/ so went on to find food to bring into movies.. HAHA!! didn't sneak in any in the end, but i sneaked in bubble tea :P must say i had a fun time laughing throughout the movie ;) Rah was hungry after that so we headed to far east to eat chicken rice! hahah.. then went to shop awhile for my shoes again. saw one, but dunno if i should buy.. so didn't buy in the end. shall go back another day :)

Rah wanted to buy 涼茶 for ah sam.. so took MRT to toa payoh to get her 涼茶 and we 順便 bought 泡泡茶 before heading to MCS. can't rmb what time reach le.. but SUPER hot!! haha.. “被烤焦了”:P not so bad lah.. haha. while waiting v bored, so i started to 自拍 alot again.. HEHE^^

some pics:

very first pic i took.. haha! was super sian, didn't feel like smiling :/


Rah happen to be in the pic! she look blur! :P



haha!! took time to take this pic ok! cos i keep cutting off my face.. hehe :P

At around 6plus 7 we saw sam walking to make-up unit, then when he walked out Rah called out to him.. he waved back but didn't come out. Rah specially bought 涼茶 for him mah.. how can he miss out. LOL!! so helped her shout "Sam! Rah 有東西要給你！" yea.. then he came out :) got others who are supporting him there also.. then Rah dun dare ask to take pic. so helped her ask again lor.. HEHE! [welcome Rah.. don't need keep thanking me] :) headed home after that lor.. nth to do le mah =x supposed to go gym de.. then mother got things to do, nobody accompany me.. so in the end didn't go :( I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!! -might do own physical l8r :P-


LOL!!!! my tv was on and i saw this advert advertising for some snack bar. you know the "baby" is a snack bar.. then the doc told the guy "congratulations! it's a bar" the chinese subtitle was “恭喜你了！生了一條。。”i see le i just wanna LAUGH OUT LOUD! so hilarious can?! =.=


ok lah.. should go off now. i just found another pile of work =.=
damn! :/ geog block test is in 1 weeks time.. :/


shall end off with the last 自戀照 i took while waiting.. :P


i look wierd.. O_o

Jia Xi's group

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BORED

today is super boring lah!! omg.. =.=

was chatting on msn till i fell asleep.. =.= woke up at 6.45am for sch. wth can.. i was SUPER sleepy and my neck hurt, maybe cos i didn't sleep properly :/ wadever lah.. i went to sch with a BLANK mind. first period was PE.. quite ok lah. better than any other lessons.. DUH! had Amath after that.. some small quiz and it was managable :) MATH ROCKS!! (though sometimes i get quite irritated with it) so does chinese. after math was break and after that was chinese :D didn't have lessons cos lao shi was complaining “全部教 3CO 這般的老師都異口同聲說你們這班非常非常非常的懶惰。”ZzZ.. i mean, if you're tired how can u possibly focus on your work? might as well sleep =.= (that's me lah.. so most of the time i don't finish my work :P only did like some time beginning of the year :/) so we were given the time to sort our files and then she collected. for me, EASY LAH! LOL alr got everything done, just that i know ONE worksheet is missing.. cos i haven't do :/ and it was like MONTHS back.. OOPS! =x

after chinese was Emath! continued Amath topic. quite ok lah.. alot of formulas to rmb though.. SIGH! and with such a sleepyhead in class, how to rmb? :/ ok lah.. will FORCE myself to rmb b4 exam. HEH :P mrs Gan rocks lah! if she finishes early, we get early recess! but mrs logan's concept is like "the teachers are not doing you good if they let you off for early recess.." and "i'm sure mrs low won't be pleased if she hears about it (cos we asked her to let us off early since she ended)" ok lor.. her concept. i can't change it =.= but it's lame.. we sit in class and do nothing. anw, after recess was geog, and i didn't have time to continue what i left out. somehow, ms leong was pissed off and she collected my worksheet. being such a "smart" girl, i went up to her to ask if i could finish up my questions first (when she was in the midst of lecturing someone) she talked to me in some sort of annoyed tone. oh well.. wad to do?

lit was sucky today.. was in lala land =x but i managed to take down some notes lah. random note: now i know why ms seow was explaining why the sec 4 girls came to realise she was trying to work with them.. she's a gd teacher :) i'm sort of glad i realised it early.. like NOW! haha.. thnx for changing EL teacher ar =.= one gd thing was it made me realise that ms seow is a gd teacher! and now i'm paying more attention in her class O_o actually, since last term lah.. i not so bad ok! :P talking about english.. OMG! i feel 2 mysterious eyes looking at me wherever i go =.= i was sitting at the lobby when fifi tan saw me.. bad enough. while walking down the steps to get to her car, she just kept looking at ME! wth.. i very nice to stare at meh?! URGH!! i feel like DIGGING OUT HER EYEBALLS!! =x

i slept when i came home again.. really TIRED! i need my energy back.. so i can study :) going movie, shopping and gym tmr! :D movie tix are damn ex now lah! GV selling @ $10 for weekend tix and normal price $7.50 for weekdays. Lido no change lah.. still $9.50 for weekend tix. i dunno where else.. everything is rising =.= BUT the government lets their ppl earn so little.. AND stupid yong tau foo.. i'm not buying anymore! HMPH!! should've known earlier.

today really SUPER sian.. went blog hopping. can't rmb the blogs i visited.. but quite a number. i just wanna say, i really miss those great times. i want them back! we'll meet up right? i hope so.. :)

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omg.. i fell asleep while blogging =.= the last time this post was saved was @ 12.42am, and now is like 05.14am alr..

my mood today kinda sucked i pissed ppl off =.= i dunno why.. but yea. sorry Rah, i was like doing project work when u called me.. and like i can't even rmb wad we were chatting about now cos like i was super tired. i sounded mian qiang to you.. i don't know why also. i always anything de wad.. now that you say you don't wanna watch, i'm ok. if you're not going to be happy watching with me, i'd rather not spoil ur mood.. but it really makes me wonder why i received those smses. maybe i did smth wrong.. i didn't reply u cos i fell asleep, don't get so angry... why be angry over me? not worth it..




haha!! this photo v ugly, but.. I WAS BORED!! :/

-tired-

haha!! decided to do some blogging suddenly.

WEDNESDAY
hmm.. what happened in sch ytd? OH!! haha i didn't do my geog. then ms leong was giving out kit-kats to those who have done their work.. haha i didn't care for the kit-kat. AND, i didn't do cos i haven't revised.. then i dunno anything. then was quite lazy to flip textbook also :/ HAHA!! ms leong said she'll safe guard my share for me =.= and i have to finish up till question 4 by tmr.. HAHA!! there are parts to the question lah.. now my blanks are 1a, 3b, 4b and 4c i think. LOL!! i have till after recess.. oh mans.. geog is bad :/

mrs low gave a talk during assembly then she said wad give ice cream to those who answer her questions. was sort of paying attention lah.. there was one part where everyone was awake! WE GET ONE DAY OFF!!! somewhere in July.. OMG!! i'm so looking forward to it. :D and i can't remember b'cos of what, she's treating us ice cream again (2nd time alr^^). HAHA!! free ice cream tmr.. free FATS come in a package :/ don't wanna eat. someone can take my share :)

After school stayed back for an hour or so for amath extra lessons cos didn't go back during hols. learnt modulas function. is easy i think? haha!! i realise my brain working very slowly nowadays.. think also think so long, then everything also very blur. HEH =x

TODAY
first 2 periods block test.. LIT =.= haha!! i was falling asleep :/ then i was forcing myself to write my essay properly for the whale rider book (though i didn't) cos i know my unseen confirm CMI!! mans.. really CMI. LOL!! by the time i started doing unseen i heard this "girls, you have 10minutes left" i was like =.= die alr.. and i was SO SLEEPY!! haha.. idk why either O_o slept quite alot the previous day.. -this mystery shall be left unsolved :P- halfway writing my unseen essay, i was sleeping for seconds.. HAHA!! didn't finish my unseen essay, expected lah. HAHA!! the front of the paper said timed EXERCISE!! i hope it is, and even if it's counted, shouldn't be more than 10%.. HEH =x

recess was like for gossips today lah!! Wei Yee, Gloria and Lyn remember this: PUMP!! ;)
Gloria said there's ARTIFICIAL MILK =.= i wonder where she get them from.. maybe she drank them when she was young. LOL!!! i'm joking Gloria :P (if you happen to read this =x)

trng was super slack today lah! only like 4 of us was there? HOW TO TRAIN??!! so yea.. did "physical". weren't physical at all.. LOL!! not much of a workout lah :( didn't really train today! going to get even fatter :/ haha!! i realised smth, Sin Hwee works under pressure :P she got like 70% shots in when we pressurized her.. but not even 60% when she didn't have pressure. HAHA!!

came home and slept for a while.. TIRED!! =x anw, i was watching tv while doing geog just now.. stupid YONG TAU FOO has MORE CALORIES than RICE!! omg.. i just ate yong tau foo for the past 3 days?! WTH =.= best lah.. eat whole meal bread, least calories! :P i'm really FAT!!




-miss my crazy frens out there! not forgetting the memories-
`i'm clearing more and more of my work! lucky teachers nvr give work these few days. :D
AHH!! i just rmb got math to do.. off now!

going crazy

omg.. looking at my geog worksheet suddenly got me so pissed off~ i also dunno why =.= ARGH!! hate this feeling ok.. why am i so freaking "stressed"?! HATE IT!! so much things to do --- so little time.. i can't even get a proper sleep!! (really irritated=.=) i know EOY is coming.. so? don't keep emphasizing.. cos i'm on the verge of breaking down, seriously. now even thinking of hw makes me go crazy, i get pissed off so easily.. damn. i can't study at home, anyone wanna go out and study with me? like at macs or mos burger? chpt 6 & 12.. i haven't started studying, 2 weeks (or less) more. SIGH!! lead to the thought of regret :( i sort of regret taking pure geog, it's a killer :/
26th June -- death day for lit test.. don't even know what's tested :/


-dread geog- suddenly.. and idk why :/
`i cannot afford to fail my block test!!




*hope i didn't scare u :P

想太多?

i missed it! 6plus and i had to be asleep.. 有緣無分吧。我是否想太多了？應該是吧。。就是不習慣，也不知道爲什麽。跟他聊天，就感到無憂無慮。。還要等到九月，我快要瘋了！

距離考試還有三個月，聼起來還很久，但就會不知不覺中面對。壓力很大，沒受過那麽大的壓力，這次不知爲什麽。。壓力自然來了。不是不想讀書，就算不想，我有選擇的權利嗎？沒有。=.= 年終考試，誰不想得到好成績？壓力那麽大，連讀書時都很緊張。。不知道後果會是怎樣。根本就不能集中精神。真得不想也不能留級。。我好像不知不覺地失去了方向 :(

list of block tests coming up:

26th June -- Elective Literature (not confirmed, said to be changed O_o)
8th July -- Geography
16th July -- Additional Mathematics
17th July -- Chemistry

i'll just DIE!! omg.. :/

-off to do work-

back @ sch

okays.. update on sch today.
hmm.. woke up at 3plus am cos my niece woke me up! =.= then went back to sleep at 4plus.. nth to do :/ and obviously didn't feel like doing anymore work. woke up at 6.40am for sch.. com was still on, cos i played 下一個天亮 throughout the whole night. then signed out of msn and shut down com.. while i go change to my uni.

wasn't late for sch :P haha! wasn't that tired in school. BUT, i went to school with work undone.. luckily the teachers all seemed to be in good mood today, all say hand up tmr O_o　好難得 i tell u. LOL!! anyway, it also means i have to do my work soon b4 i have to 熬夜 again l8r. went to collect my I/C at the office during recess :) so cool ok! nvr slept in school for my entire life! but i had the guts to do so during chinese lesson today :/ haha!! cos lao shi went to get her laptop, then i just FELL ASLEEP!! ok lah.. she didn't wake me up, maybe she didn't spot me sleeping. too bad! :P
actually, the feeling of going back to sch was wierd today. everything seemed so quiet, so unusual.. i dunno how to describe the wierd feeling.. things were just not the way they were b4. just got reminded, only left with about 12 weeks left to end year. and 2 weeks till my block tests start rolling in, which means i have to start studying now. i wish too, i don't hope to retain.. no one does :/ i really miss my friends i made through WWDZ!!! argh i really miss those days.. ok i shall stop thinking b4 tears roll down my cheeks :/

i know it's kinda wierd saying this here, cos i dunno if he's reading it or not. but anyway i'll still say it. i miss Jiaxi :( i miss his crap and everything.. argh. no more online chats with him :/ ok lor.. have to live with it.

still listening to 下一個天亮。。i'm ADDICTED to the song. THANKS MELISSA!!! she sent it to me ;) LOVE IT! seriously.. omg. i dunno why, these few days not emo de. BUT once i listen to emo songs, i can tear so easily.. WHY?! i have no idea =.=

-off to do work-

this time really stressed :/

i guess i'm really stressed out now :( i just finished taiwan trip ppt project and still in the midst of sending. THANKS TO MY INTERNET =.= omg.. i realised i screamed at my younger bro alot of times today.. oops! but i was really irritated. ARGH!! just gimme one more day.. i will finish up everything and appear as a "guai" girl in school the nxt day. but too bad, i don't have tt chance. whatever it is, i have no choice but to finish all my work today. URGH! =.= i lost my feel of working after finishing the taiwan trip ppt.. LOL! i'm going to hunt for my feel again :P cos i've no choice.. =.=

-off searching for working feel-

sch =.=

argh! sch re-opening tmr. :( I HAVEN'T DONE MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!! ok, i caused this upon myself. but, why must we have holiday homework? then what's holiday for? might as well it be school days, but we have our own free time.. then we can ask our teachers if we didn't know how to do anything. that makes more sense eh? oh whatever.. i've been complaining about sch in my previous entries as well. but, sc really sucks :/ the environment is just not right.

i just dread tmr.. starting to dread mondays. because it'll just be different from now on. :( i'm going to be scolded tmr. =.= i KNOW IT. whatever, i see it coming. i just wished time could have stopped there and then. things would be so much better. i don't really look forward to holidays within the yr, only end yr. the reason why: 1) you'll start to lose things, and get scolded when u get back @ school. 2) you get off in the lazy mood and never do any work =.= 3) playing in a worrying mind, not THAT fun.(this holiday was slightly different, thanks friends! you know you are :D) 4) they're never holidays

gtg now.. REALLY HAVE TO GO DO WORK. ARGH!! like i want to =.= got things on later.


-have this strong feeling work will NOT be completed :/-

icy cold :)

HAHA!! i'm sure Joyee will understand my post. my room can be compared to NORTH POLE!! LOL.. but it rocks lah! love it! :D haha.. though we're both feeling so super cold, but it's real nice! for me lah.. cos i got blanket :P Joyee don't have. OOPS!! =x
this is so much better than when my air con broke down.. it was HORRIBLE!! haha.. i like my room now :) it's COLD and NICE!! fan shall be on later tonight.. or maybe not. HEH! air con is on 16degrees :D WHEEEEEEE!! normal temp for me. HAHA!! i live in north pole :P i'm a polar bear! or not :/ they're gonna be extinct :( my dad says i look like panda bear =.=

my ankles are still hurting, esp my left ankle. :/ oh mans.. used to it, BUT!! so many times.. scared nxt time will be worse ah :( i can't sit cross-legged cos my ankle will start hurting when i stand up.. i just tried :/ sucky.. not THAT pain, but can't walk properly. ARGH!! ankle prob sucks!!

-feeling cold-

worked out

haha!! woke up at like 9plus today thanks to my aunt! BLEH! nvm.. trng supposed to start @ 8.20am but the time i woke up, i was late alr =.= so decided not to go :/ then on com as usual :P Gloria came online at around 11.10am then she was RANTING!! cos both Sin Hwee and her went down to sch, BUT there wasn't anyone around.. so they went home. LOL!! i felt so lucky that i chose to stay home and not rush out of the house! :P and i had more sleep.. HAHA! oops =x


then alr planned with Joyee on msn want to go running today.. at the same time Rah say wan go see AH SAM.. but nobody acc her. then i say i acc her lor.. LOL!! she don't believe me at first.. keep "really ah?!.. you really acc me ar?". not real then say for what lah! LOL. yeap!! so chat until like 1plus then dad called me down to eat lunch. stayed downstairs for like nearly an hour! =.= i was FULL!! like SUPER FULL! O_O then came up arnd 2.45pm. Rah msn msged me to see if i'm gg out alr.. HAHA!! then i was like "yea.. change alr then gg out alr" then she decided to leave house.. cos she scared i late :/ in the end, is i wait for her. LOL!! nvm lah.. she wait for me alot of times alr :/


went ahead to get BUBBLE TEA!! haha.. told her felt like drinking bubble tea mah. cos at first say meet at bus stop outside MCS. but in the end meet at TPY. HEH! got caramel milk tea.. this time HALF SUGAR level!! haha.. the other time was a TORTURE!! it was so super sweet! cos i ordered normal sugar level. this time i'm smarter :P the drink was in a better state to be consumed =x walked to the bus interchange and waited for 157.. it came like in less than 5min! so lucky! :D
that Rah lah!! argh.. saw 6933 (she knows what i mean) then got so worked up cos i din tell her =.= SORRY LAH!! LOL!! still saw him in the end right?! :P

went off at 6.30 and took bus to one stop b4 adam road food centre then walked to CCAB to meet Joyee. we ran like 6rounds which is equivalent to 2.4km. HAHA!! my stamina dropped like MAD.. failed my mission lah!! haha wanted to run for an hour.. but stopped after 18min. =.= ok whatever.. my stamina seriously sucks :/ did 10 (girls') push-ups. HAHA!! then went to get 100plus to drink b4 walking back to my house. ;)


OMG!! Joyee saw smth funny while we were sitting there and chatting at the spectators stand.. there was this guy that was running, he was sweating @ WRONG places =.= we were laughing like mad lah! but had to control... cos if not ppl think we crazy :/ omg!! Joyee even wanted to take picture can!! cos she dunno how to blog out and thought of putting pic.. but not very nice lah :P so didn't take in the end (DUH!!).

came home and crapped abit before going upstairs. as usual, crapped with my MUM =.= i'm lying on my bed NOT SHOWERED =.= cos i wanted to blog first. and while blogging, Joyee keep disturbing me, so took so damn long to blog. LOL!! :/ (i'm gonna get killed) ok.. she says i stink and i NEED TO GO SHOWER NOW. =.=



while waiting @ the traffic light. oh man! i look BALD =.=

-off to shower ;)-

jealousy

just some thoughts that suddenly came to my mind:

why do ppl think so much and make themselves jealous? i don't get it. i mean, each and everyone of us alr have our own problems/troubles. why would one wanna add on to those? :/ i don't get some ppls' thinkings sometimes. i mean, no one owes them anything.. they only owe their parents for their 養育之恩。it's your choice you wanna 付出 for them, so don't regret :/

i was just thinking of jealousy b'cos i read some ppls' tags on some tagboards.. i don't get it. things are just so complicated :/