National Day

it is now 11.15pm and National Day is coming up in 45 minutes time!!

I shall wish in advance, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ELDER BRO!! keke.. old alr :P no lah.. 3 yrs older than me only

okays.. updates on the past 2days and today!

wednesday was quite slack.. can't really rmb what happened. during CE we had to answer some questions on a "worksheet" relating to End Of Years (EOY).. and then at the end of the lesson we were told " girls, i want to see your study timetable the next lesson" AH!!! for what?! i don't even plan to draw up one.. it's USELESS for me! i won't follow it anyway.. whatever i feel like studying for the day will be the one i'm going to study! even if it says geography on the timetable i will practice math.. so too bad :P then we ended at 2plus instead of 2 cos SS lecture "over-run!"

went to studio 5 after that to watch "CaleFare" filming :) i swear Gurmit is super funny!! haha.. the people there are just so entertaining ^^

thursday was just another day.. but with training

trained the least -- Gloria will be the first 1 to agree!! ok lah.. didn't feel good cos didn't exercise much :( then after training went home to slack b4 showering then went to studio 5 again cos my sis asked me to accompany her. met stefy @ the bus stop.. she was going home. then met kaileng and joyce @ the stairs of the overhead bridge.. going home too. haha.. all looked so lethargic and tired O_o reached home @ 0:00am haha!! so cool XD then fell asleep after 1-2hours.. TIRED!!

reached school @ around 7.15am today.. usual time :P then went to class to slack for awhile b4 going to the field. okays.. so celebration this yr wasn't as nice as the previous years and it was quite different. so celebration lasted for an hour plus.. really fast. and the atmosphere wasn't really there.. we only got high at the hall, while waiting for The Harvard Din and Tonics group to come sing. Yenhua is so in love with this American black.. haha!! we all agree that he's hot lah =x Yenhua bought their CD and got ONLY his signature.. LOL!! he's really nice.. his fellow mates left for food and he waited for us (yenhua and i) to open the plastic wrap over the CD so he could sign XD... he's name is Adam. HAHA!! yenhua was so high!!

after the whole thing at arnd 12plus 1 wei yee's mum sent us (wei yee and i) to get caramel milk tea! i got the large sized one this time round.. NICE! :D came home after that and slept for like 2hours.. =x then woke up to eat and feed my sis's bunnies. they've grown so cute!!!

talked to zeshan on msn and suddenly felt like posting.. haha. zeshan's so funny!! i told her teachers are retarded and they don't seem to have common sense.. and she found it funny =x

isn't it true? longer weekends means more homework.. if that's the case, i'd choose school :)

i might be having THREE tests on tue and another test on wed.. WTF!! so crappy lah!! english expository (however u spell it) writing.. i'll just DIE!! how the hell do you come up with a thesis statement?! CRAPS!! lit test.. chapter 1-13 O_o really DON'T WANNA READ!!! URGH!! emath circles quiz.. ok lah not so bad XD amath test on linear laws on wed.. hope it won't be so bad :/

homework for the weekends:

-8 amath revision worksheets

-lit essay

-study how to write a thesis statement and write craps expository writing =.=

-revise circles chpt for emath quiz

-revise linear laws for amath test on tue

-read lit book till chpt 13

-SS essays

-chem

-start studying for EOY

-do more exercise ; go to the gym!! (URGH.. RTC sucks.. i can't enter cos i'm not 18 =.=)

ok this is so ____!! i have 3days to do all those.. 2days excluding tmr O_O

i can repeat this: (MOST) TEACHERS HAVE NO COMMON SENSE (according to what i've inferred)

going to look for food.. i'm eating so much!! :/ damn!!

ending the post @ 11.53pm -- 7more minutes to National Day!

p.s: i didn't really want the "MOST" to be there :/

shall insert a picture to end off!!

The National Anthem:

Mari kita rakyat Singapura

Sama-sama menuju bahagia

Cita-cita kita yang mulia

Berjaya Singapura

Marilah kita bersatu

Dengan samangat yang baru

Semua kita berseru

Majulah Singapura

Majulah Singapura

The pledge:

We, The Citizens Of Singapore,

Pledge Ourselves As One United People.

Regardless Of Race, Language or Religion,

To Build A Democratic Society

Based on Justice and Equality

So As To Achieve Happiness, Prosperity, and

Progress For Our Nation!

我認了

我認了。。
真的好想哭，但不敢哭。。
從前那彩色的天空，突然變成一片黑。。
仿佛烏雲密布，接下來會下者一場暴風雨。

失去了才懂得珍惜。。
突然覺得自己越來越了解這句話了。。。
失去了一片彩色天空，我眼前的道路突然只是一片黑暗，
每踏出的一步都沒有它要到的終點，我也就不知不覺地也失去了方向。
那條黑暗的路綫，不知如何繼續走下去，好像就在此停下腳步。
可是，我真的要困在這無人知的地方嗎？
現在要珍惜也未免遲了幾步？
有些人說：
“擁有比失去還要痛”
我漸漸同意這句話了。如果當初沒有擁有，現在會失去嗎？可以很肯定的保證，不會。
有時候真的不想擁有，因爲沒有擁有，就不會失去。如果沒有失去，也就不會感到痛苦。

這幾天都悶悶不樂。。在朋友面前當然是很高興。但是，不快樂的同時當然也會有一瞬間快樂的時光。雖然很想把快樂留在身邊，但是我已不留意，它已經溜走了。當時的心情真的很難受。很想擺脫這種感覺。。每次走了，又回來的。爲什麽我是它們的受害者？我也不知道。

me

My life is screwed, but there are others whose lives are worse. AHHH!! somehow i don't have the guts to give up just like that. the young kids out there, starving, getting diseases and left there to await death.. and they're not even on the verge of giving up, they're thinking of ways to survive. what right do i have to say "i want to give up"?! :/ but i really do want to.. i'm really on the verge of giving up and ending everything. i just hope things will change for the better..

I wanna go back to 11 years ago, when i was 4. there's nothing to worry about! there were a lot of things we didn't understand, so even if there were complicated matters, it wasn't any of our concern. life was so carefree..

pessimist

爲什麽人就是這樣？只發現別人的缺點，但優點卻看不到？我不知道該怎麽繼續面對我正被纏住的問題。。爲什麽它就是不能放過我？！它讓我恨這個世界！它給了我我不要收存的記憶！我想放下這些，但我可以嗎？我自己也沒有答案。這些問題，我承擔不起。。爲什麽是我？我曾經想過要放棄，這次我或許真的倒下了。。對於許多事，我也沒心情去哩。
在某年某月某一天，我也許就這樣一聲不響地離開了。

late for school?

OMG!! freaking funny but embarrassing can!! argh =.=

okays.. so this was what had just happened:

1 -- i woke up looking at my phone time which said 18:39 and to think i thought i was IN THE MORNING =.= and i look at the sky.. so bright, i thought i was late. ZzZ

2 -- my phone rang.. so i picked up and.. this is our convo:

mum: “你在哪裏？下去吃飯。”
me: “我在家 lah! 爲什麽要下去吃飯?!”
mum: “then?! 爲什麽不要下去吃飯？！”
me (thinking that i was late for school =.=): today is thursday, i need to go to school! i'm late alr!
mum: (laughs) “你是發神經還是什麽？！”
-- only then i realised that it wasn't in the morning and it's 6plus in the EVENING.. ZzZ --

my mum was laughing like mad lah!! so bad can.. argh =.=

-- maybe i'm on my way to going bonkers.. HAHA!! (quite impossible lah)--

private

hey peeps! i've privatised my blog.. because i've a feeling some souls are roaming around my blog. those souls need to find another "diary" :(

SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED!!

personality test

personality test.. saw from yanshan's blog, so decided to do for fun :)

here's the link: http://www.personality.ws/

People Motivators

People and ideas energize "People Motivators." New people and new ideas are even more fun. "Friendly," "enjoyable" and "softhearted" are good words to describe them. Interpersonal skills are highly developed. They want to be in the center of everything. They may require reassurance that they are in fact wonderful and interesting people and they want other people around most of the time

Attention span, for both ideas and people, can be very short. While they genuinely like almost everyone, they may forget that you are there if a new idea or new person comes along.
The ringing phone is the priority.

They can be very informed regarding many areas. Brainstorming could well be their best activity. New, unconventional, and original ideas flow like a waterfall from their minds. They have the uncanny ability to come up with three or four different versions of a new idea before the rest of the group has digested the original thought. When it comes time to implement the idea they are often not around - they are now on to bigger and better things.
Deadlines make good starting points for them. Procrastination is the cause and missed deadlines are the effect.

Since everything is possible, saving the world is a reasonable objective. In their view, it could be saved in only a "few days." If they become involved in something interesting or exciting they could focus on the subject for many, many hours and not recognize how much time has passed.
They aren't likely to have many enemies because of their easy going, flexible nature and their genuine interest to serve others. They can, however, become impatient and annoyed if their ideas are restricted.

Internal feelings and convictions are very strong and they will persuade others to their point of view. Those close to them often get caught up in the energy of their new ideas and optimism.
They can be very good storytellers and humorists.



Personal Secrets
Strengths:
-Can sense the motives and desires of others.
-Creative problem solvers.
-Have great ability to motivate and inspire others.
-Have highly developed interpersonal skills.
-Possess great ability to teach others.
-Will go to great lengths to protect friends.

Weaknesses
`Feelings may be easily hurt.
`May be over emotional.
`May not complete the task.
`May too often carry the burdens of others on their own shoulders.
`Moody.
`Tend to idealize relationships.

Suitable Jobs
~account executive
~advertising executive
~alcohol-drug counselor
~audiologist
~bilingual ed. teacher
~business executive
~career counselor
~child welfare worker
~clergy
~college professor
~communications
~dean of students
~dietitian
~early ed. teacher
~editor of magazine
~employment counselor
~entertainer or artist
~facilitator
~fund-raiser
~graphic designer
~holistic health
~housing director
~interpreter
~ministry
~newscaster
~nonprofit organization
~nutritionist
~occupational therapist
~personal counselor
~politician
~program designer
~psychologist
~public relations
~recreational director
~recruiter
~sales manager
~sales trainer
~social worker
~special ed teacher
~speech pathologist
~teacher - health (art)
~travel agent
~TV producer
~writer or journalist


Relationship Secrets

Motivated By:
#Cooperation.
#Group efforts.
#Harmony.
#Humane causes.
#Love.
#Service to others.

Relationship Hints
*Allow them to play a part in your personal development.
*Be sensitive and respectful of their emotions and feelings.
*Be willing to open up, share, and laugh with them.
*Express feelings openly and affectionately.

Communication Hints
^ Communicate your thoughts and ideas with passion and conviction--this is an absolute must.
^ Invite them to focus on the inner meaning of the discussion. Discussions should be meaningful and not taken lightly.
^ These people love to talk about possibilities and the direct implications of those possibilities?especially in relationship to people's lives.



Management secrets

How To Approach:
@ Provide a people-centered, non-biased, environment.
@ Provide ample opportunities for their own personal development and new ways for them to help people.
@ Treat them as the natural leaders that they are.

Individualized Reward
_ Feature person in training info or film.
_ Letter of recognition (personally delivered).
_ Massage, facial, or manicure.
_ Restaurant certificate - for four people.

Want From Work
! They are careful to do the "right" thing - they want to be known for their integrity .
! They want a cooperative group with which to work.
! They want to be authentic or real in all relationships.
! They want to enjoy daily changes in the workplace.
! They want to function in the future.
! They want to understand and connect with other people.

Criteria Of Perfect Job
& Democratic self-rule allows them to experiment with ideas.
& Their work needs to be personally meaningful.
& There are harmonious and humanistic relationships in the workplace.
& They want to be involved with teaching new ideas.
& They want to reach out and help others.

傳説

傳説，我的生活苦比樂多。。表面上似乎快樂，心裏卻悶悶不樂。

my heart broke into a million pieces...

再也不想回家的感覺。。
儅你的親人對你說了一些她不因該說的話，你會感到很痛心。不只這樣，她對你說的話，儅別人對她說的時候，自己也不能接受。我真不敢相信。。 這次真的刺到我了，已經是第二次她對我說這種話。。我不知道該怎麽忍受，眼淚不禁留了下來。現在腦海裏說想得只想離開這殘酷的地方，但也不知道該怎麽做。最不能忍受的是她還敢講自己在開玩笑。。這種笑話可講嗎？儅別人那樣說她的時候，當時也在開玩笑，但她自己不能接受。這次，她對我做了同一件事，她卻要我接受。離開這裡，會讓自己活得更快樂嗎？我也不清楚。15年來，我的記憶裏傷心比開心多，我也不知道是什麽讓我維持到現在。表面上開心的我，和現實的我有很大的差別。只想找到另一個讓我繼續德理由。“快樂家庭”或許已不存在我的字典中。。

noted

NOTED: TODAY IS THE WORST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE! :(

fucked up day

damn! i failed super badly for amath test.. expected cos i blanked out. but, it's really bad :( smth i thought i wouldn't have done at all, was tears rolling down :/ i've NEVER teared over my results b4.. though i would have felt disappointed, but nvr once cried. this time, i really dunno what went into me.. i tried controlling, cos i nvr liked to tear in front of others. even if i teared, i've always teared in my room, alone. this time, i failed to hold back my tears.. they just rolled down. i was feeling bad enough when i saw my results.. hearing some things made it worse. i can't describe my feelings at that point of time.. all and all, it's my fault :( my first ever math test i failed.. amazing =.= i'm going to fail my emath test as well.. i just don't know how badly i'm going to fail. super bad i suppose. what crap, i've nvr felt this way b4... not that i don't know, i blanked out, and i don't know why. my ca2 is fucking screwed..

一步一步走進黑暗，不知幾時才能再見光明。。生活失去了色彩，好想回到五彩兵分的時刻。在某年某月某一天，我一定會崩潰的。。。

要開心！

人活一生不容易，想想應該多珍惜。
有緣千里來相遇，如有知己要珍惜。
傷心事情不要提，開心時候要珍惜。
要把快樂放第一，生活才會笑咪咪！！ ;)


朋友就像草莓又香又甜，
吵架就像辣椒又辣又嗆，
思念就像苦瓜又苦又甘，
吃醋就像檸檬又酸又澀，
把這些綜合起來，卻是友情最溫暖的記憶。。。

沒心情

我們差，不代表我們是最壞的。不要整天望我們的方向看！！有什麽好看的？！你們只會令人討厭！突然感覺生活好像越來越無趣了。。每天都沒什麽好期待的，悶死了！學校。。每天想到一些科目，因爲某某人就感到很煩：/ 一大堆功課，碰也不像碰但也沒辦法。壓力？我也不知道。。這幾天不知怎麽的，感到好累好累。。。

freaking screwed up my math test today :( ARGH!! fail alr.. 1000% :/ my CA2 is fking screwed up lah!! pissed off~ so NOT looking forward to tomorrow =.= got geography TUTORIAL! wth.. i'd rather lecture can.. like DUH! lol
argh.. CA2 = red marks everywhere, more nagging, more stress =.= damn bloody irritating!!

好想這些是一場夢。。從夢中睡醒，一切都恢復正常。。 生活不要那麽忙碌，沒那麽大的壓力。睡覺時間別那麽遲。。儅不想睡的時候媽媽不會逼我睡覺！每當聽到別人像我嘮叨的時候，就會煩感。。沒時間鬆懈，7個星期后年終考試就到了 ZzZ

tagged

QUIZ TAGGED BY KAYFUN

20 people that comes to my mind:

1. Jiaxi
2. Milk
3. Kunda
4. Lyn Tan
5. Wei Yee
6. Yen Hua
7. Kailin Khoo
8. Kaileng
9. Kailin
10. Stefy
11. Wendy
12. Wailam
13. Stephanie
14. Rah
15. Grace
16. Yanshan
17. Sofia
18. Melissa
19. fifi tan
20. leong




How did you meet 14[Rah]?
supporting wwdz ;)

What would you do if you never met 1[Jiaxi]?
i wouldn't have seen colours in my life... ...

What if 9[Kailin] and 20[leong]are fated?
LOL!! kailin will NEVER favour leong :P

Will 6[Yenhua] and 17[Sofia] date?
absolutely NOT! they do not know each other =.= even if they do, they fall for guys :P

Describe 3[Kunda]
energetic!! -nvr ending-

Is 8[kaileng] attractive?
you know, i can't answer this for you... but, i can tell you one thing no one disagrees. her vocal IS attractive! ;)

Describle 7[kailin khoo]
hmm.. the way she plays with her "stick" is GROSS!! fun, interactive, hyper girl. when she gets angry, run!! the chopper is behind you...

Do you know any of 12's[wailam] family members?
of course! isn't she part of the family as well? BLEH! :P

What if 18[melissa] confess to you he or she likes you?
if you know me well enough, i'm STRAIGHT! if you don't, i'm telling you i'm S-T-R-A-I-G-H-T!!

What language does 15[Grace] speak?
a language that we all understand :)

Who's going out with 9[kailin]?
hello?! she's only 7months old!!

How old is 16[yanshan]?
don't you know? woman's age is a SECRET!!

When did you last speak to 13[Stephanie]?
a min ago? :D

What is 2's[Milk] fave singer?
HIMSELF?

Would you ever date with 4[Lyn Tan]?
don't you understand english? this is at least the second time i'm telling you i'm straight! :P

Will you ever date with 17[Sofia]?
ARGH!! this is getting boring and irritating... how many times do i have to repeat i'm STRAIGHT?!

Is 19[fifi] single?
erm, no..

What 10[Stefy] last name?
hmm.. i've no idea =x even if knew, she wouldn't want me to reveal it so too bad!

School of 3[Kunda]?
know what? he's not studying anymore :P

Where does 6[Yenhua] live?
don't ask for the obvious pls.. SINGAPORE!!

What is your favourite thing of 5[WeiYee]?
i don't know? i don't have a fav, she's a good friend! ;)

Have you seen 2[Milk] dance?
YES! it's COOL! :D


5 ppl I choose to do this test
1. Kaileng
2. Stefy
3. Wendy
4. Weiyee
5. Stephanie

p.s: i changed the last question, cos it was gross =.=

he's back

Jiaxi came back today! :) some went airport to 迎接 him. i was in school having emath lesson ZzZ.. hope those people managed to 跟佳熹多聊幾句. HAHA!! heard he's tired.. hope he sleeps well ;)
anw, moodless feelings are =.=
sunday went to IMM to see milk and kunda :D CUTE!!! ^^ took some pictures but keep getting blocked. haven't uploaded any pics from my cam yet, since Elvin event at paragon =x OOPS! yesterday went to watch superband recording.. went home @ 11plus. didn't see Fion :( powerful vocals!! jiayou nxt week! :D today, went wei yee's house to study afterschool.. hahas we continued english compre and did ss.. i'm so dead for geog AGAIN! =.= geog is like... :/

儅自己對別人說要堅強時很容易，但儅自己踫到困難時卻又做不到。爲什麽？自己也沒有答案。情緒不穩定。。一會兒開心，一會兒難過。。自己也不知道該怎麽做，就快要崩潰的感覺。如果有選擇，真不想來到這一刻。正在等下一個天亮。。。